Monday, 31 May 2021
Weather mania
Afternoons are hot and evenings get cool and because it's the rainy season right now the weather keeps fluctuating.
My point is that I need to turn on the ac during workouts.
plating business
It's the oddest things sometimes that can get on your nerves.
Today it was plating!
head issues
Somewhere between clicking pictures and feeding my cats, I found myself realizing that a headache was thumping its existence in my temples. Being a bit of a headache veteran I can tell which ache is happening due to my carelessness regarding my neck and which is a migraine and this headache had a massive potential to become a full-blown migraine, the kind that makes me want to regret existing.
Whut
Busy!!!
I have pics to click, things to do and I am running out of time. But I will be here! I promise
And Monday
Sunday, 30 May 2021
This isn’t happening
Not happy!
Just got back home after spending all morning and afternoon looking at houses and why is it so difficult to get what you want?!!
The best houses I saw today were only mildly better than my current one, in compounds that were not as good, and the really nice compounds that I saw with the most fantastic amenities and gyms and indoor air conditioned basketball and badminton courts and swimming pools didn't have the kind of houses I wanted and the places which met both the criteria that is the house was good and the compound was excellent were in high rises where my cats wouldn't be happy because they won't be able to go downstairs.
Is there no win win?
I returned home feeling dejected and saw how beautifully situated this compound where I currently live is. Well connected to all the important places. Bus terminals, subway stations and easily accessible areas nearby.
The compound itself extremely silent because it doesn't have too many houses and isn't crammed with people, lots of trees and overall serenity because of its distance from highways and its strategic location which is around a bend and almost hidden.
All I want is something similar but better.
Is that too difficult to ask?
Saturday, 29 May 2021
Things as they stand
Just crawled back into the house after being out since 10 in the morning.
I've been out for more than 6 hours and traversed across two suburbs before coming to the conclusion that house hunting is a task suited for people with lesser anxiety.
I have issues I have demands and I have too many requirements.
I am fussy and I don't want to settle for anything lesser than what I want.
I want what I want and it's fucking impossible to get it unless you're in a dreamland of your own making.
But okay!
Phew!
Now some tea and a night about town is what I need to shake off my annoyance and exhaustion because tomorrow will be pretty much the same.
I have arranged meetings with two different agents, looking for two different places in different parts of the city and here is hoping I find something I like because I'm in no rush. There's no deadline. I'm in a good and happy place but right now looking at how things are happening in this compound I wish to live and find a better spot. House hunting is one of the most difficult parts of being an adult and it needs be taken slowly because it takes a while to find that exact place which your heart immediately tells you to live in.
It will happen. But I don't know how soon.
Friday, 28 May 2021
Ah
Thorny
Morning food
Thursday, 27 May 2021
Chored
All this arrhythmic motion has created something of a turmoil with all the dishes in that particular cabinet and now everything is a jumble of 'let's not even go there'
I shall now sit and sort out everything.
Wednesday, 26 May 2021
Miss es
I cannot stop thinking of you. It's a constant dull ache that won't stop no matter how much I try to distract myself with interesting things that seem mundane to the alternative that is being in a daze of your memories, in a maze of your words, in a haze of your voice.
Meh
Arghhhh!!!!
Now nursing a small cup of wine because I am not in the mood for anything save relaxing and a few sips of wine will help me get there.
Ugh!!
muzak
Lunch love
Weather kiss
Overcast, cool, breezy with no rains yet.
Comes to mind our monsoon weather in August when everyday is splendidly cool with rains not letting up for days, bedazzling trees and other green vegetation with strands of pearlescent drops of drizzle that stays a constant.
I love the shine such days impart. The absolute calmness resonating through leaves of waving green trees that mark a different season, a new beginning each day.
Wednesday
No cat could wake me up in fact no chores could get in the way of my sleep either because I woke up rather late, almost after 8 in the AM and a whole lot of things which I usually intend to accomplish by then were left unattended.
I cooked no lunch or breakfast and here I sit, sipping on tea, a little late but that's how it is and chomping on toast.
The bread from yesterday came out fantastic.
I will make a sandwich today and put pictures.
Workout today is upper body strength and the house is dark with little light from an overcast rainy world.
Right then!
To my cuppa
Tuesday, 25 May 2021
:/:
When I stare at the ceiling
and think of you
All the info
Having finally prepared dinner I am on my last leg with no energy left in me to even eat.
The only time I actually sat down proper was for lunch after which I was preparing for photographs, clicking pictures, making bread, taking out garbage second time today, dinner prep and finally dinner.
Also my extreme exhaustion might be due that time of the month which hasn't happened yet but is bound to soon.
Okay!
Dinner now.
Then today
Today is here
Sunny even.
Today is for this and that like a Tuesday that it is and I am spending the day at home, working, clicking, editing and staying in for today.
Some friends have made plans for foot massage and I have turned it down like most plans that happen on weekdays and it's fine, I don't care about my foot getting massaged.
Workout is a weighted intense cardio after which I want to eat a salad. Something about today deserves a salad and nothing besides, moreover ever since I discovered the joys of adding mangoes to a salad, I don't want to look back at the usual salads I ever made.
Like what's a salad without a sweet mango and spicy dressing?
Also today I am baking a cake and bread because both those things are needed and I am out of baked goods at the moment.
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An update on the audiobook sinister magic. It seems to be going well. It's non cumbersome to listen, easy on the ears because the narrator is pretty good, the story line is not complicated and there ain't any complexity of either ideas or mysteries of the plot that need unnerving discoveries .
Al in all a good palette cleanser.
Once it's finished I will pick up the second mistborn book and I am also going to start a new paper book.
So that's about that.
Now some tea, some fruits, some sweat.
Monday, 24 May 2021
Today has been long
Phew!!
Just got back in the house after having left it at 12:30.
I was out for 4 hours.
Doing what?
Miscellaneous things
Giving myself 10 minutes to collect myself with a tall glass of iced water because it was hot out today and I spent majority of today walking walking and exploring and walking .
The thing is when you're with a friend who shares with you similar hobbies of looking at aisles of sauces and interesting food items, who prefers shopping groceries more than shoes; spending time with that person ain't a chore but a delight.
It's the adult enjoyment equivalent of theme park where the joyrides are finding speciality food items and calling out to each other upon coming across ostrich eggs.
Lunch was ecstatic too. I had something called 'escargots' which is a fancy word for snails and the ones I had were drenched in olive oil with garlic and breadcrumbs.
Also had some soup and a small desserts washed down with excellent coffee after which we went on an excursion around the area on foot because that place is rife with small speciality food shops that offer everything from imported Indian mangoes to Ethiopian spices and it takes a small lifetime to visit shop to shop and look, see and buy.
The only downside to such excursions is that it is exhausting.
From leaving almost empty handed from the house to coming back saddled with nearly 5 kilos of things and walking around almost 3 kms as the weight on shoulders steadily increases with the increment of stuff courtesy insatiable greed and curiosity can be tiring and it doesn't end there because once I got back I was greeted by 4 very hungry cats.
I have only just got some time to carve a few words after which I get thrown into my evening chores after unpacking and arranging all the stuff I've bought.
I mean I look at my huge bag and wonder what on earth?
Why do I have so many packets of almond milk?
I also have lots of filleted and cleaned river fish and shrimps along with crushed and canned Italian tomatoes and a large bouquet of daisies and aromatic candles.
Like what on earth even.
And done
Monday calmness
Sunday, 23 May 2021
And scene
The weather was supposed to be a bit of bracing moisture in the air but it's raining like the monsoons and even though appropriately attired for the rains what with rain boots and all I came back home somewhat drenched.
Most of today included walking around a whole lot with an umbrella that couldn't withstand most of the wet gale as I bounded hither and tither.
Lunch was an insipid meal in a very popular restaurant frequented by foreigners who have dead taste buds.
Anyhows I'm back and just made myself a delicious pour over because I wish to spend the rest of the day feeling cozy and away from damp.
Sunday! Let me laze.
Watchful
Granted it's old but it's not old enough and somehow perhaps I got to them because this morning I received a call informing me that my watch needs a complete servicing and before I could tell them that they can keep the damn watch they informed me that they'd want to do it as a complementary service including battery change and what not.
Well well well. How things start looking up.
Thank you I told them and now I feel a little better. Of course it will be 3-4 weeks before I get the watch back hit you know what? I don't mind. Not at all.
Saturday, 22 May 2021
Arghhhh
Dreams and reality
What kind of dream is that?
Woke up with a start and found difficulty sleeping back again.
Also got into a fight with people at 4:30 because I asked him to open the door for the cat who was noisily meowing and he flat out refused.
I told him to 'fuck of' that very moment as I opened the door for my cat and added a few choice cuss words that weren't exactly that hour appropriate.
Today is going to be a cold day in my casa.
Friday, 21 May 2021
Holes aloud
NO
Youtube nonchalantly threw this video at me in the recommendations by a channel called 'fantasy feeder'
It's about how to get fat or gain weight if you're into that morbid feederism kink and I cannot believe how straight to the point and matter-of-fact it was. Why did I think it might be sarcastic? The narrator or whoever it was recommending ways to get fat was extremely courteous and most serious about what she said.
Is this actually real? This is happening!!
I don't understand. Yes, yes I get it kinks but wtf!!
Please watch and tell.
garbage wars
Here are the premises:
Friiiiday
How did it get here so fast?
I love my large mug of deliciously spiced tea and today promises to be a bit of everything.
I have some typing to do and then there's drawing.
Also I'm making a high hydration dough today.
I can talk more about it later .
But right now!
Tea, journaling and workout.
Thursday, 20 May 2021
Ugh
I miss the blogger app
Today for starts
Cold and overcast and ideal for Thursday when I don't click pictures and get little work done as the housekeeper has an atrocious timing for interrupting me wherever I sit. But I'm not complaining, merely mentioning .
It rained a lot yesterday but I still managed to click pictures and I am glad that I did when I did because moments after the rain got quite boisterous in its intensity and my entire balcony was wet.
Today is going to be s massive lower body strength workout which will include some newer exercises to target hamstrings and calves differently and they will also test my balance.
Also today I am going to be starting with the basics of a new drawing and I hope to draw during days and times when I'm not clicking pics or editing.
It's a lot of things to manage and I will try as long as I can make it.
There's no pressure to succeed and I'm not going to make my life difficult for it.
Right then!
To the weights.
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PS. Send vaccine updates
Wednesday, 19 May 2021
stuff and things
Victory!!
I finally have the second Mistborn book 'wall of ascension' read by Michael Kramer. Not that I didn't like the graphic audio drama format, it was great but I'd rather prefer the narrator proper spoken by a single person because somehow audio dramas have added sound effects and it distracts me.
Also downloaded 'the obelisk gate' which is the second book of the broken earth trilogy and where I needed to find a fix yesterday I suddenly have an excess which to me is always a good thing. I love having options, backups, multiples of things.
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In other news, I'm clicking pictures for my recipe today and lo! it begins to rains and the world is a dark place. Makes me a bit mad this downour and off seasonal mood swings but how do I change that?
Just gonna wait for it to get better no. Here's hoping I can do it today.
Ah lunch
Some listens
The thumbnail mentioned it's an urban fantasy!
Like Dresden I thought and since it's not too long, only about 9 hours I thought why not?
I'm guessing it'll take that much time for my files to download because the seeders are few and so I began listening and it didn't disappoint.
One hour into the book and it seems interesting in a fast paced adventure kind of way which doesn't need much interaction of your grey cells with the happenings.
The protagonist is a half elven woman who hunts down 'magical beings' that commit murders and so far so good.
I like that unlike Dresden who takes pains to describe every woman's legs and bosom the protagonist in this case is a no nonsense warrior who usually only describes her quarry and her magical beings and charms that assist her.
I'm still to reach the point where the plot thickens and what not but as far as books of this genre go, which weirdly involved dragons and cellphones, Jeep's and magical swords I'd say it's not so bad.
Also serves as a great contrast to my late night reads which are a lot of academic papers written by Indian researchers on various topics pertaining to our core cultural issues.
All in all not bad I'd say.
Tuesday, 18 May 2021
You and I
when nothing feels right
I retreat to the tiny universe
with two celestial bodies
Pfft
And not bother listening to your laments
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I'm no murderer
But I sure as fuck can become one
Tis that time
And the tiny fan whirrs
night comes
the volume of everything is lowered
in silent moments like these
When the world feels toned-down
I hear footsteps nearby
Conversations and laughter
Lighter clicks and closing car doors
A vehicle in the distance
people still living their lives outside
Not everyone is home
Snug in bed
Waiting for sleep
Tryin to catch dreams
In a reservoir
Entirely inappropriate flooded by thoughts
And memories that night brings
Fin
No cliffhangers, no nothing. Looks like a happy ending.
The se kind book is still downloading along with a lot of other ones.
I need to find another fix.
scents from open window and work done
Who me?
Just finished typing a whole lot. Still needs a bit more cleaning and finessing before I send it to my graphic designer but that's it for today. It will have to be done tomorrow. About ten minutes worth of work but no can do.
The cats need feeding and I need to start thinking about dinner.
my neighbours have already started preparing their meals and it's not even 5 yet.
I mean early is one thing but this is practically tea time, not that they care for such things because they're done with their dinner by 5 and are out doing their exercises at 6.
I mean what!!
cats are odd
Rituals on the daily
Starting with taking out the garbage to arranging dried utensils from last night, organizing furniture which is usually in a disarray from the night before that includes fluffing cushions, cleaning table tops, putting away charging cables and remote controls, straightening the throws and other fluffy little things that cats use to sleep or play on, spruce up the dining table that tends to collect things overnight, making the bed and finally cleaning the house.
Usually I clean the lounge which includes a quick dusting, brooming/vacuuming, mopping on the daily without fail even if I give just a cursory clean to the other rooms because lounge is the most widely used space in the house, but on days when I know the other rooms have got their share of activities I go through the same drill in those rooms as well.
Bathrooms are cleaned every alternate day and usually I clean mine before I get into the shower.
All these activities I described above take upwards of an hour after which I sit down for my time when I drink water, tea, have something to eat before finally plunging on with the day.
Usually this time is complemented with some soothing music.
Mostly it's Hindustani Classical because it somehow purges the house of spent energies sanctifying my surroundings with calmness and reanimating the day for whatever it holds with a dignified air that reflects through the daily cleanse.
While I take care of the house physically, my daily morning music cares for it spiritually.
Monday, 17 May 2021
Yawn
I don't like going through my day on such little sleep because my days are energetic, they're full of activities and because I have 4 cats with reckless attitudes towards a clean home and none follow a meal timetable anymore.
Some come and go as they please, sometime eating three meals because they eat it each time I feed a cat who'd not been fed .
I'm running, sometimes gasping for air on the mat, furiously cooking, clicking, editing, typing and I need sleep to stumble through my day a bit more elegantly.
So tonight!
I shall sleep long and deadish.
Broken jardin
When I try to ignite
a flame frozen
which I pretend burns bright
when I show it cold light
Lost gone
Serves you right Monday!
But now we gotta deal with Tuesday.
It doesn't get better.
Lunch bliss
Exercise updates
But that's fine.
An hour long upper body is just what the doctor ordered.
If anything I'm sure it'll get me sweating even though the weather is quite cool today.
After lunch I have some errands to run and have to be off to a place somewhat far from home.
Here's hoping things get done in time and I'm home by evening because damn! Who likes working on Monday?!
Sunday, 16 May 2021
New stuff
Saturday, 15 May 2021
Today feels like
Lunch now
Why weather why?
Long post and shenanigans
Not bad, I'd exclaimed as I chomped down on some nacho's and Sichuan style fried chicken when suddenly there was the unmistakable roar of thunder followed by a lightening the proportions of gods taking flash selfies and there was a downpour so sudden that all diners sitting outside came running back inside the brewery.
Some brave ones kept sitting under an awning and all of us looked a bit flabbergasted, muttering in hushed tones about not carrying umbrellas because there was no forecast.
I, however had an umbrella which is a tiny one always tucked in the recesses of my bag and so there was no stressing out.
I kept at my drinks and snacks and just as sudden as the rains had appeared they disappeared.
Right then I thought and called for a taxi to return home, except it suddenly stared drizzling again and there were no taxis.
The app said that the taxi waiting time is 86 minutes and so it was decided that we could take bicycles, for home was a mere 3 kms and cycling would be easy.
Okay!
Except one of us (me) was a little more than buzzed and it took me almost five minutes to find the stand.
The idea of taking a bicycle was abandoned.
The rains had almost stopped and it was decided to walk a bit to wear off the buzz and then maybe take a bicycle.
Okay!
Five minutes into the walk the skies tore up and downpour again.
My umbrella helped as much as it could but it wasn't enough to keep two people dry under lashings of waterfalls .
There were many a similar idiots like us who were running sans umbrella, some were drenched, some walked nonchalantly because how much wetter can one get and some tried to hold their jackets over their head.
We were among the fortunate ones.
When the house was only a km away and the rains had subsided it took me not a minute to spot a couple bicycles and it was then decided that we would ride our cycles on the sidewalk because somehow my giggling uncontrollably while getting wet was a mighty giveaway.
Somehow home found us.
Peeling away clothes and washing away makeup I died in bed knowing nothing else.
This morning has thusly been spent cleaning my leather shoes and bag from last night and showing them some sun.
My dress is wet and perhaps a bit filthy too and that'll need separate care and I don't know for some reason I'm not mad at yesterday.
It was quite fun!
Friday, 14 May 2021
rat a tat catspaw
fleur
Also, those flowers were carnations.
Yikes
Dear gods. It's past 5 in the PM and I have only just finished my work. Where did the day go?
I have more work before I get on with other things in life that is having some tea..yes I'm gonna drink some tea and then get dressed but before that work!!
Friday day
Saw a bunch of people both kids and adults make cute remarks and virtually fawning over the cuteness of some cat downstairs.
Strained my head a bit the window to see they were clicking pics of a cat lounging like Cleopatra. Strained further to see a red bow on the little darling. It was my Hope. I am still smiling.
Thursday, 13 May 2021
WTF
I am upset.
I don't want to cook.
He better not be dead though!! Or I'll be really angry.













































