Is it this or that

That time of the day
When I contemplate
If I should drink another cup of tea
Or just jump into the workout
Which I don't think I can do
The workout I mean
Because I feel dead
The crimson tide is on its way
And I feel lethargic
Run down
In a hormonal carnival
I try to breathe
There's things to be done
And perhaps another tea to be made

Sighs

Today
Has been productive
In ways I am used to
Nothing exceptional
I'd have rather liked
Had I been able to make new headways
Create a milestone
Break my daily typecast
And emerge a victor
But alas
Here I am
In the usual Mundane
Which I try to love
And learn to embrace

And lunch

Lunch which is some oyster and cream feuilleté with a large side of salad.

Lethargic notes

Monday morning and I woke up feeling someone had beaten me while I slept. My legs were hurting, my entire body was broken but it wasn't real. It was phantom pain I think because when I woke up and stepped out thinking the first step into the world will have me crumbling, I realised I was absolutely fine, a bit tired though.
I haven't slept well the past couple days and I want my delicious uninterrupted 8 hour long sleep .
I think I woke up multiple times last night, turned on the bedside table light to check if any cats were fighting.
Apparently that bit of issue around the house isn't resolved and it's making my life sort of hellish.
I keep finding tufts of fur almost always mingled with black fur which show everyone's picking on Nemo these days.
Sighs.
Anyways, tea, toast, upper body strength and I will be good to go!! Lots of editing today.

Hola

Saturday and I'm exhausted.
Exhausted with everything!!
People are sick, I am tired of doing everything all the time.
Today finally, I got done with the recording, something which was supposed to get done by Thursday!
Alright then.
People want to eat guacamole and chips, I want to eat burrata salad and that means I'm gonna have to make both things tonight! And then dinner?
Whoops!!

Unwind

Nighttime and I sit in my duvet tent, my feet still cold, although at night I know my feet still search for those cold spots under the duvet.

Tired, my feet sore from standing all day and working on the recording and then cooking and doing things around the house cuz people are quite unwell.

Now?
I am reading a book, my entire body trying to calm down, wondering about what all has to be done tomorrow.

It’s not new

Morning and I woke up on the wrong side of bed today.
Apparently people are down with 'shingles' and they were meant to take an off but this morning I was in such a foul mood that people opted to go to work instead, despite feeling worse for wear.
Well, now we know I can drive a man to kill himself just by being in a terrible mood.

Alright then, workout done quite early, now I must shower and get on with my day at by includes some recording for new video and then the usual usual.

Wowza the day

Who me?
I have just finished editing and right now the uploading is in progress.
Phew it's hard .
Why can't I finish editing on Monday?
Oh right cuz I'm too lazy on Sunday and for editing to be complete I need sit by 12 noon to 10 at night and I have a life to live in between all that.
Right then!
Dinner cooked by people and I am about to figure out tomorrow's schedule for recording.
Yes!

Up and down

Who me?
Just finished a 45 minute long cardio circuit and sinking in the sweat I have broken into.
Winters? What winters? I'm ready to drown in an ocean of my making!

Surprise

Did I really just finish 60% of my editing today?
Can it really be?
Yes it can because I still haven't made a thumbnail nor thought of what might be suited best.
Sighs.
But dinner is dal parantha! Because why not

Just a little bit

How my colour correction area looks sometimes

I am wondering

Is it true that many guys have a thing for the very fat fatties? I mean the 200kilo plus fatties? Cuz there's this obese woman who won't shut up about getting hit by random strangers even when she's grocery shopping!!
Like according to her they'd just come up to her and ask her number or offer to cook for her and serve her dinner with drinks!
And this happens to her not once in a blue moon but quite frequently!
And I'm Beginning to wonder if it actually is true?
Are guys into the morbidly obese more than they're into regular ones?

Looking at the latest trend of fatties finding love and hooking up I'm inclined to slightly agree.

Also

Never thought I'd find gutts cuz it's so not on trend right now but there was one shop that had just the one on display and I snatched it.

:)

Among the many things I bought yesterday

Hahaha

Well I found power

And now (furries)

Time table

I was recording and it's still not finished
I have some to do tomorrow but also it's cleaning my day, May cleansing day, and so things will have to be accommodated and accomplished on a tight schedule.
Also day after I'm going to an anime festival in Luxembourg and by the gods I'm going to find chainsaw man and caiman from dorohedoro and get me some nice pics.
I hope to find some beastars figurines as well.
But back to the main what was I saying?
Yes tomorrow will be hectic

Bubbles

Here's to us

And some questions

Dear gods!
How is it that I have just now finished editing?
Why must it be this way?
Who are those people who record and edit in the same day?
What sorcery is it?
Why can't I be any faster?
Why does it take me over 8 hours divided into two days to edit?
What's wrong with me?
How can I fix this?
What schedule do I stick to?

And phew

Lagging behind

Should I simply reconcile with the fact that I am incapable of editing in one day?!
There is bound to be spillover tomorrow because I cannot finish it all today.
Sighs :(

????!!!!

Why and what is this ???
This isn't me.
I'm not brunching at Fio.
Who the fuck thought this is me and put this image in paper and captioned this person as me?
This lady must be pretty upset too and I'm wondering what even??

And now

Satisfaction

Today I cleansed my house.
A 4 hour deep cleaning and I hate the difference it made from the usual 40 minute cleaning.
This weekly cleaning I usually do was amped up today when I went a bit berserk pulling and pushing the furniture and rugs to really get into it.
The house has a sterilised quality to it and I love it absolutely.
How do I pull this off with my every day routine of simply sprucing?

Salad darts

A very late lunch

Poire

Also.
How did we get here?
So busy?
Ah yes, I was recording a video
And it's a bit ridiculous how time consuming it can get
But also a drawing was made in record time.
It took me no more than an hour.
It's a small one
And I wanted one of these to for the house.
Now I need to find a frame

Bleh

A morning like every other
What do we do
Get on with it I say
And then what?
Nothing
Wait for another morning
Yuck

What even

My brain is mush.
I edited for 8 hours straight and by the time the watch hit 9 I was seeing double.
I don't know when people made dinner, when I ate it, when I was offered dessert, when I started aching inside my skull and when I was left alone and everyone was gone.
It was around that time I realised my day was done.
I am done with editing but the upload isn't finished and I can't look at the screen any longer now.
I am going to finish uploading it tomorrow because I feel quite exhausted.

Right!
A bit of YouTube and sleep.
The rest will be done tomorrow.

Lunched

Who me?
Just eating couscous salad with dumplings, because why not?

The rants won’t get me anywhere

That I am thoroughly disappointed in my system of transferring photos from iPhone to PC is a statement most underrated because I spent almost 4 hours yesterday trying to understand problems that I encountered at every step of transferring pics.
It was impossibly difficult in the strangest of ways, in fact I had almost reached a point where I thought maybe a factory reset all around would help, and I had started charging my MacBook to go back to how things were.

It was bad!

Somehow I was able to finally transfer pics in a most unorthodox way and it's not sustainable in the long run and I really need to figure out and understand why suddenly yesterday I had this issue when the last time I was able to transfer images with relatively less issues.

I mean I have done no editing when just the transfer felt like writing an algorithm for space engines.
Today I woke up quite early!
Got done with chores much before time, already prepared lunch and in a bit I am going to start editing!!

And now

Who me?
Keeping cozy
And you?

Silver powder

Well this day is finished finally and I have been overcompensating by having not a moment to myself, not least because I started recording five minutes after waking up, and I woke up quite early too.

It's like I had free time today and I decided to not be free at all.
How does that work out?
I'm taking it slow tomorrow and just being.

Catching up on some YouTube and let's see how things go.

What workout is in store tomorrow?
Today I did lower body strength and slowly I'm increasing weights and time under tension.
I haven't reached my earlier level of fitness yet and my training sessions aren't as long as they were either.
Usually around 35 minutes long for now.
Slowly I'm going to take them up to at least 45 minutes X 5 days a week.
Tomorrow what's it gonna be?
I think some light restorative stretching and house cleaning should do the trick. :)