Mood drags

I am depressed.
It's the same sort of stress that had befallen me sometime during this same timeline last year.
The reasons are also the same.
I feel crushed by a heavy feeling knowing how many loved ones, people I know, have known since I was a wee baby are fighting to stay alive.
I dread any message or phone call at this time. Times like these affect my hunger and I shun food because of how sick I feel for myriad reasons, stress being one of them.
I'm worried for everyone.

Can I just not think about it and make it go away?

News is the last thing I tune into and yet there is so much happening that news inadvertently reaches me and sinks my heart lower than where it already is.
I feel sad, angry, upset and helpless.

Since then

Ugh!!!!
I'm in the yuck zone and feeling all of it.
Argh!
Came back home to a bunch of hungry cats. Hope is still sort of weird but not awfully so. She has since wolfed down her food and looked at me for more.
Things seem alright for now.
I'm still monitoring her behaviour and if there's any physical manifestation of sickness.
Doesn't appear so but I need to err on the side of caution.
Could be the weather for sure but even so.

Not foie gras

Eel liver. 

Most definitely a delicacy, most assuredly not my thing. I had it and realised it to be an acquired taste. Imagine butter with a scent of haemoglobin and some bitterness. 

Yes that is exactly what it tasted like. 

Unagi

Set meal eel. 

This here is eel on a bed of rice with some clam soup and a bowl of set eggs that I have demolished and a small bowl of salad and some pickled vegetables. 

It was a good meal. It was a huge meal.

Cat conundrums and Friday hell

Friday and I'm not my usual excited weekend self. Probably because my little hope has changed overnight into a cat I don't recognise.
My friend told me the weather tends to affect a cats mood because she seems to be pretty normal health wise. Just her usual chirpiness is replaced by a more apathetic demeanour.
I don't know. She's eating well, pooping well, running around downstairs as I watched her scamper about when I went to dispose off the garbage but her usual mood that had her jumping about the house and licking my hands and face has disappeared.
Did she just suddenly grow up or maybe there is really a weather related change?
I don't know. I'm glad that she's physically fine or at least appears to be so.
I'm going to monitor her some more for a few days before deciding if she needs a visit to the vet, because what am I gonna tell the vet? Help, my cat won't lick my face as she usually did.
Ugh.

Anyway. Today!
Friday.
A big mug of tea.
The lunch at a friends restaurant where we are eating eel and then home.
I don't think I'll bake pizza today.
Just not in the mood to eat pizza.
Let's see.

After this day

Nighttime and I begin to sleep
It grows warmer
and maybe I won't need this thick cover
But sometimes it gets cold and so I wait
To dream a better day
Friday tomorrow
Let's see

I don’t know

Could be that I'm high strung but my little hope is not her cheerful self today. She's been avoiding food though eating only her favourite bits, looks dull, isn't her usual chirpy self and is not grooming herself like she normally would.
I don't know if she's unwell or just moody.
She doesn't look sick as such as she does depressed or just bored.
She isn't as enthusiastically playing with her favourite toys either and this has kept me distracted all day today .
I don't know, it's worrying me to see her so unusually quiet and distant when she was the life of the house, scurrying hither and tither.
My heart isn't in doing anything. I've tried everything but she just walks off and finds some solitude and sits alone and has been doing that all day today.
I hope she's fine.
If this continues I am taking her to the vet this weekend.

anger rising

 I am

extremely annoyed because the new toilet paper is so damn scratchy that my intimate area will get rashes and to think this was a more deluxe version of the one I usually buy. 

Now why did I not buy the usual because the one time I asked others to buys something they botched it up.

I mean come on!

I am so angry I could have a meltdown.

now then

 Who me?

Listening to Swan Lake and folding clothes because why the fuck not!!

thursday sense

 Thursdays are not goof clicking pics because the housekeeper is home and it's too much of a hassle to flit about the house arranging for the shoot, walking up and down the corridors and bumping into her because we're both in a hurry.

Not least the sounds of vacuum and its endless whirring play havoc with my zen, add to that the footprints made on a wet floor with continuous moving.

So now I'm waiting for her to leave. After that, we begin.

Yes, today will get stretched out and turn into something of a parody but this is how we do.

Right then. Some coffee, a bit of this and that and we busy ourselves.

Updates

Thursday and I almost worked out. I don't know why I'm trying to keep myself from exercising when I have no reason to.
I need to get back on track. It's been about 5 days and I find myself missing workouts for no reason. Vaccine was one thing but it's been long enough for me to resume my usual activities especially when I've not felt any side effects.
Moreover the watch keeps chiding me. Telling me often how my rings aren't closing these days.
Patience I say but not to myself because I find feeling angry with me for such behaviour.
It's going to be Labour day holidays starting this weekend to Thursday and I don't want to fall into a rut but then again I have a feeling that I'm going to be under the yucks soon and that's another reason why my stretch of no workouts days will get compounded and stretched.

Anyway, today is a glorious sunny day and I want to make the most of it.
Recipes here we come.

Oh ah

Okay so I have found the complete file and it's downloaded and phew! I'm telling you I'd not have slept a wink had I not found it.
Right then.

Uhh

Okay so the mistaken audiobook I have is incomplete.
It ended at the part where kelsier and gang discover the dead bodies of a crew and that's it. It ended.
What?!! Come on.
Now I gotta look for it all over again.
As if it wasn't already such a trouble finding it.
Argh!!

Inoculation

Look who got their second dose. 

Not feeling it

This is the one time I see such a concentration of foreigners in a hospital.
Today is a designated 'foreigner vaccination day' and I'll tell you one thing darling I am kinda hating this.

contradict love satay

 The weather is determined to be gorgeously pleasant and my windows welcome this agreeable change by staying wide open to let in all the green warmth laden air. the trees are back to being their shiny verdant selves, flourishing like the bloom of puberty with nary a mustard or brown colour to their foliage. Lush and leafy they sway to the incoming summer breeze and though my hands and feet are a bit cold the house isn't nearly as chilly.

I love this weather of transition when the warmth isn't too warm and the cool isn't biting. It won't last long, no more than a month if that and I intend to drink it in.

Today has been fruitful despite my morning reservations. Despite my glum mood regarding the final vaccination shot I feel revived because I have finished today's work and the weather has improved, rather mellowed my mood.

Had it been any other day I'd have found myself at the flower market shopping for plants and flowers.

Ho-hum. Another hour and I leave for the hospital which thankfully is hiking distance from my house but I shan't walk till there I will bicycle and feel today laughing in my face while soothing my nerves.

Meh

Monday and I woke up wincing at the though that today evening I have to get my second a vaccine shot and I am in no mood for anything now.
The weather is deliciously sunny with hints of overcast moments and my mood is dark.
The bedroom is still unkempt, unmade, curtains drawn and at least two cats are asleep on the bed.
I won't workout today and there's no need to prepare lunch because there are leftovers from yesterday evening.
There are no photographs that will get clicked today and I will only work on some recipes that need typed out and they will sit and wait to be sent to my graphic designer who is currently sick with covid.
Things are not looking up and I'm angry.

Anime deets

Oh my god!!
so one moment I was feeling angry at this world and another moment I'm absolutely invested in an anime that ticks for me all the markers of an astounding anime.
This one called 'B the beginning' which looks like it's police, crime, detective drama but is in fact weirder as most anime's are with mystery of a completely different sort and we are talking supernatural, unnatural, angels? Aliens? What the fuck? Delicious!
I intend to binge it and report more.

Leftovers

I had some leftover dough from the pizza I'd baked on Friday and decided to turn it into a cute  little bread and here we are. 

Lunch love

Lunch is a delicious plate of a couple chicken thighs marinaded in the most fabulous marinade of orange and lemon juice, crushed thyme with garlic and pepper with some salt and a few cherry tomatoes, baked to juicy perfection with a side of arugula and cherry tomatoes salad doused with balsamic vinegar. 

Easily among the nicest foods this month. 

Yes you must be wondering how does this lunch happen today? 

Mostly because people aren't home since it's office day today because labour day holidays will soon be upon us and this is the Chinese way to keep weekends working in lieu of upcoming holidays. 

Chips

Chestnut flavoured potato chips because why the fuck not? 

Cola soda

Candies with the nicest pop artwork. 

Saucy stuff

Sauce aisle which is much much much higher and longer than what I show here. 

These are just a few choices for sushi vinegar, dumpling sauce and some gluten free choices. Really this is just a smallest fraction of every sauce for everything possible. 

Miso adventure

One of my agenda's today was to buy white miso which is much different than its dark counterpart but what I didn't realise was that every prefecture has its different sort of white miso and they're not alike. 

Some are sweet, some are salty and some are paler than others, some are less fermented, some are more pungent and I was confused because there were choices and choices. 

Dare I say I picked one which promised to be tender tasting, lightly sweet and mildly salty. It was quite the adventure. 

Lunch that was

Did I have a fantastical set Japanese meal of tempura rice bowl? 

Yes indeed I did. It was delicious to say the least. 

In the long memory of Today

Say one thing about today say I couldn't catch a damn break.
Morning happened quickly.
Wake up.
Fix breakfast pack lunch
Finish chores
Workout (yoga)
Lunch
Exit house for the planned supermarket jaunt
Come back home and that's when it all started going crazy.
So I reached home later than expected because traffic jam.
Once home it was something of an unwinding of everything.
The moment I entered the house all the cats were assembled in a semi circle, waiting for me to come in so they could ambush me with their relentless underhanded stares because they were hungry and their lunch was more of a late breakfast.
I didn't even change clothes and I began fixing their food, then cleaned their water bowls. After which all the groceries I'd bought had to be arranged, meats had to be portioned and frozen, ditto for fish.
After that a quick dough making was required because tonight was pizza and after that (mind you I'd still not changed out of my outside clothes) all the flowers I'd bought needed to be arranged in vases and that was another Herculean task because the damn flowers had far too many leaves all over and first those were plucked out after which the arrangement happened and the mess it left behind of a thousand leaves and stems which was made into another mess because the cats found it fun to kick them around;my house was a green carpet of rich foliage and utterly indescribably chaotic.
I then commenced with program cleaning and broomed everything, and then the usual evening essential oils and incense and candles rituals happened after which finally I changed into my lounging clothes (phew) and then, finally, I locked eyes with the mug of coffee I'd bought from the supermarket coffee shop.
To reheat it and add sugar to it was for me the work of moments and with a gigantic exhale I sat on the couch, put on some music, caught up with the tube and gave myself sometime before once again plunging into the deadly details of domesticity.

I am what someone might call frazzled from today's work and as I sit in bed, trying to read the last few chapters of 'the fires of vengeance' I wonder and recall how fun this night last year was.

RIP

This little baby has passed on. 

He died last night after difficulty breathing.

He was the most active, fun loving and healthy of the lot but as shit happens he ventured too close to the garbage area and entered a drainage pioe which was expelling paint. He returned home smeared in paint and though my friend cleaned him up and he resumed his activities a few days later he developed breathing difficulties, probably due to the toxins in the paint and expired yesterday. 

It feels wretched, makes me angry and I want to fight the management taking care of the garbage area and ask them why such the drainage pipes etc are open. How can this happen? 

I'm so mad. 

Crammed

Okay but now how the fuck am I supposed to sleep? 

My table

But of course Gogi likes to sit and chill in the dining table, where else would he relax? On his own bed? Pshaw! 

New things

Roasting peppers and the housekeeper looked at me like I might have gone nuts. This was very strange to her. 

On the mat

Today has been especially crazy. 

Lower body strength and death 

kitchen havoc

 That my entire house smells like a soup kitchen catering to steamed poultry would be a statement most accurate because I made chicken stock and cooked almost a kilo of chicken, both for my recipes and my cats and my house isn't the most welcoming of places right now, especially if a vegetarian walked in.

I have now lit scented candles and sprayed sandalwood linen refreshers and opened all the windows. here's hoping I rid my house of the cooked chicken smell.

Fruits of shopping

Aha my fennel bulbs that I ordered yesterday in a fit of online shopping have arrived. 

Now for some fragrant salads. 

Also Wednesday

Today is another recipe day. The weather feels clear and I've made preparations.
Phew!
Days are getting hectic and there's not even a lockdown here. Thank God's for that though cuz I can't take anymore quarantines.

Oh yum

Lunch today are two open faced sandwiches slathered with leftover salmon from yesterday and eggs salad which is deadly delicious. 

Morning rituals

My flaxseed bread from yesterday. 

It's deliciously crunchy, hearty and so very different than my usual tall loaf.

Night soon

Nighttime and the yellow striped cushion which sits atop my lap to rest my iPad on which I read my book begins to stare back at me, wondering when I'd sleep and I tell my darling cushion to stay propped for a while more. My eyes aren't exhausted yet. The words still not blurring, the lines still not muddling, the sleep still not sinking.

Darling darling

Just as you undress me bit my bit so did you undo the strings of my being, a little every day and entered my system, infesting it with a phantasmagoric sensation of limitless warmth that bounces through my every nerve through random smiles and lip biting twitches, blooming in my gut blossoming through my heart, fluttering into my spine.

Tender bliss

That time of night
when I'd have you on one end
while the world shot up in flames

And night

My duvet pink
My room dim
My heart aching

Yeasted hearts

Nighttime and I'm baking bread. 

This is a flaxseed bread loaf and let's see if we can make this shape happen. 

Online moments

I might have done a bit of online shopping more than usual, but my lord it's only because I got notified of a new cat food that promised to makes the coats of my cats silkier than ever and just like that I was sucked into the black hole.
I ended up buying two different types of cat foods, a high gluten unbleached flour, speciality Nori sheets, fennel bulbs for salads, Japanese rice and a strange type of South African leafy green that is all the rage these days in health food restaurants but I never see them being sold by vendors on the usual .
So yes, maybe I did go a bit overboard but this is a rarity, in that I only ever buy cat foods and some type of flour online. Not ever anything unnecessary..yet here we are.

Lunch bae

Lunch today is exactly what I'd made for the recipe book which is a miso glazed salmon with mango salsa and it's every bit delicious as it sounds .

Definitely something of a celestial feast. Both exotic and familiar and how can I get enough of this? 

It's late lunch granted. Very late but what you gotta do? Days can get hectic and something can't be cooked a day in advance. 

And so then

Death in the day 

Wake up. grab a brush and shove it in his eye socket

I woke up angry and didn't care to wake up early to fix any lunch and I'll tell you why, because last night I got into such an argument with people.
It wasn't as much as an argument as it was a fight and there was a time in that moment when I felt like slapping people and so I walked out of the room and slept in my study. I wasn't disturbed.
The olive branch extended to me this morning was burnt to cinders and I slept longer.
Of course none of this makes me happy but do I want to do it? Yes! Because I'm angry.
Sometimes I don't care to make things up and be nice and let things be in the past and let's be nicer to each other bullshit.
Anyway so that has been so.
Now for some banana, a cup of tea and maybe a small cookie.

Leaving now

Who me? 

About to be out and about and you? 

Get up and do it

I have insecurities and not always am I able to appreciate myself the way I wished I could but that doesn't mean I don't love myself. 

I want to get better and that path isn't easy. It's got hurdles, constraints and limitations but it's not impossible. 

There are things one can change and some others one can't and it's alright and saying that to yourself can take a while but you'll get there eventually. 

Once I realised that I am a sum of all that's me and my life is mine to build and resurrect, my insecurities with my body eased a lot, not least because I was able to see myself through the lenses of my own making. 

Wanting to be the best is a bit misleading because what on earth does it even mean? 

Being the best of yourself is more like it and once you start tweaking and fine tuning yourself to that music you begin to appreciate yourself better. 

Don't fight yourself. 

Love, nourish, cherish and take care of the body you have. 

Lunch bliss

Lunch today is a heaping mound of salad with egg whites and some croutons with a drizzle of low fat yogurt and mustard dressing with a grazing of pecorino romano. 

Gotta keep macros in control for the big dinner tonight. 

Tea time

Yes please 

Today Monday

Monday morning and I stayed half sleepy half lazy in bed not even willing myself to wake up because my mood was dark and my heart wasn't in doing anything this morning.

The weather looks to be deliciously sunny and I hope the streak continues.
Today is a busy day in that I have a dinner reservation with a friend at a South American restaurant and my heart is so not in it.
It's apparently a ladies night tonight and she's been urging me to go for a week almost.
Might as well get this done and over with I thought and here we are.
What I don't understand however is why does one have to leave for dinner at 16:30? What kind of dinner are we doing?
Anyways I'm in no mood to argue and I just want this to get over with.

I've some plans for uploading recipes and starting on some new ones in the coming days and I'm giving myself another month to finish everything regarding the cooking so that we can go ahead with other things in life.
Right then.
Some music, some tea, some workouts.

Argh

Live updates are as follows:
My father might have gotten infected with COVID almost 10 days back and perhaps my mother too. Mom didn't have any much symptoms but dad had fever and turns out he's got typhoid which ain't exactly typhoid while the report for corona is pending and the doctor says that the newest corona positive patients test positive for minor typhoid which is actually COVID.
Sounds confusing and it is and I'm upset and angry at my parents, especially my father who exercises his male privilege and didn't get tested or rather refused to get tested when testing were happening in his office precinct. Almost 20 people had come out positive that time and who knows my father would have been one of them but no sir! Being the dinosaur male that he is he didn't care for it and for the last 10 days has been feeling weirdly flu like.
Claps.
Assholes these fathers!

Cafe sunday

And now. 

Home. Cats. Coffee. 

Saved by the day

Today wasn't fruitful in ways that I wished however I got a few things to keep me happy and make for the waste that today might have been. 

:(

And now. 

Went out to get my gold Parker pen repaired because its dropping tube has ruptured. The rubber being so old that it broke and I've had no luck. 

Couldn't find any, not even the official Parker store to replace or repair the pen. 

Sighs. 

Oops

Since when did 'I'm just gonna wear some lip balm and call it a night' turn to a full face? 

Sometimes I get carried away 

Chip chop

Last night as I strolled about a bit buzzed around midnight, I happened to enter a 24/7 shop because people wanted an ice cream and happened to chance about these chips flavours. I didn't buy any of course but what on earth. 

This is Hawthorne and a Sakura flavoured lays chips .

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As I lay down to sleep
Darling
Tell Me nice things

Foods

Izakaya which is a rough translation for a gastro pub has an array of snacks and foods that go well with drinks. 

I have here a chilli skewer, beef skewer and potato croquettes. 

Weekend

My absolutely favourite place. 

Izakaya 

Winged

I got me some golden wings 

And now

Who me? 

About to be out and about and you? 

Trash finds

Found near trash cans. Him and 4 other. 

Baby

Born last week 

Babies

Born last Friday 

Wee

My little fudgelets. These are moist little chocolate and nuts dotted cakes. 

the audacity of this world

 Who me?

Baking a quick small cake because I've just been invited for coffee and I've nothing to take along.

small kittens have been found near the garbage and the garbage collector told us that if no one takes these kittens then they will be thrown in with the wet garbage, which is the organic garbage.

This is most cruel to think that small helpless animals are trash!! These are 2-week old babies for god's sake.

They don't have a mum or maybe if there is one she isn't aware that someone has put her kittens inside a box near the trash cans.

They are now safe in my friends garden whose house I'm going for coffee to see them and also rallying some support from homeless shelters and other friends who have friends who want to adopt kittens because right now my cat friend is overwhelmed with cats. Her house currently has 22 cats.

10 of which are her own and the others are strays, their babies and newborns.

We will also go on a neuter drive soon once the mums have recovered and are done feeding their babies because damn this can't go on.

How many more little lives will perish for end up in the garbage?

I will put up their pics here.

Lower body strength

Death death death with a smile 

This morning

My moment to myself 

/:\

Say one thing about you say I love you

{}

My heart thumping
My legs twitching
My needs mounting

Slick

That I get startled shivering into my spine when out of the blue I feel your skin on mine.
Some sort of epidermal memory that gets invoked within my system which my brains responds to with goosebumps and urgent need to have your tongue lap my face, trace my body like a map, leaving wet streaks of need all over me.

:;/

The pit of my stomach begins to roil with lusty butterflies thunking against my veins pulsating blood into my heart and cunt every time I think of your hand on my neck your Palma slamming on my cheeks.
Harder please.

I scream

I've cream. 

The top one is cream cheese icecream and the bottom two scoops are mint and strawberry. 

Homemade and utterly delicious. So I'm told. 

Next time I think I'll make one with coconut milk so I can eat some too. 

Incidents

Gravity you utter bitch!

I fell face first tangled in my cats who wanted food while I got caught on a back foot and I'll tell you one thing, I'm hurt not a bit!
I mean it was crash boom bang and I'm fine but it could have gone either way.
Phew.

zoom on

 Thursday again.

That time of the week when my house gets a bit disturbed in ways that the aftermath leaves it spanking new and shiny, but the first couple hours when the housekeeper is turning my house upside down are most agitating.

I'm usually vibrating from one place to another, either finishing other chores in the same duration or trying to have lunch. Usually, it's both.

The cats launch themselves all over the house, ducking under covers, trying to find a refuge where the atrocious vacuuming sounds are minimal and mostly they actually run out.

Only one or two very sleepy cats stay indoors and that is rare.

Right then.

It isn't sunny today and the weather is suddenly cold, it's overcast and I'm a bit upset because this is putting my photograph clicking plans on ice. But what am I if not indefatigable and so maybe I will shift the table towards the windows and click pics there? That can be worked upon I think.

Right then. 

First a bit of coffee and then some photography.

Tenet

Wow!
Darling we have some absolute mismatched views about tenet.
Remember how I bashed the movie and said it was worse than even Wonder Woman which itself was pretty bad.
Haha.
Okay.
Glad you enjoyed it.
:)

Okay then

Tenet is a movie where some people are going backward while the others are going forward.

Best wishes watching it.
Do tell how you like it. :)

Mood

Done for

Who me? 

Dead on the mat and you? 

Instant kaboom

I was lying on the ground. Wounded perhaps. The others who lay around me were dead. Shot with a single bullet by a man flanked by three goons.
He wore a suit, had a grey beard and looked like he was about to attend a black tie event after the shooting.
I lay still waiting to get shot as the man pointed his gun at me.
At that moment I couldn't think of anything other than how much it would hurt to get a bullet in my back and how it would eventually kill me.
His gun had gold trimmings near the trigger which matched a fat good ring on his ring finger. I kept trying to steal a glance at the final moments of my life through that mans eyes.
I was wincing, waiting for the bullet to get fired. It was terrorising. Slow torture since I was more afraid of the pain that would cripple my back upon the bullet entering my body. The suspense was mounting and for a fleeting moment I thought to get up and run.
It was a silly thought.
The hulking henchmen would need exert no effort to catch me and anyways I felt like I couldn't get up.
My yellow clothes, billowing and beautiful lay gathered around my person and I waited.
What was taking so long?
I looked back at the man who was about to bring forth my death and saw him loading a new magazine in his gun.
I braced. Took a deep breath and there was a deafening gun shot.
I felt nothing.
No pain in my back.
Maybe because I have no prior experience with getting shot and my dream couldn't conjure that pain and have me flinch as I dreamt.

I opened my eyes.
Had a sip of water and felt my back with a finger before going back to sleep.

॥॰

आप के ख़यालों में डूबते रहें
हमने तैरना ही छोड़ दिया
जो ग़लती से तैर भी लिए
तो साँस रोक लेते हैं

++=

Dusted in nightly ashes my dream go for a twist of the unnatural amongst sleepy beds of pink fermented colours like rose petals doused in vinegar

Misses

Nighttime
And the heart wants what the heart wants
Which is you
it's always you

Psst

Darling
Did you know
You have
A gravitational pull

**

That time of night
When you're all I want from life

And now

Who me? 

Watching 'the way of the house husband' and you? 

phew baby

 Such a Tuesday this.

I've been on the move in my house. From the moment I woke up until now, there's just been one activity after another and I have hardly had a moment to sit myself down and breathe.  

Today was a workout day proper after almost more than two weeks. We will not take into account the 20K steps that happened daily while I was on vacation because I am talking about exercise that involves that sweet bit of punishment and gasping for breath.

Today was cardio as will tomorrow be as well before I start strength because I need to get into that mental frame and galvanize my entire body before getting back on track.

My left hamstring is tight and I need to work on that before lifting weights.

My heel situation isn't as bad but it isn't recovered or healed completely and so I have now changed mats and most workouts I do on thicker spongier mat which I don't like because my balance is really off on that, but what can one do?

I'm adding shoes to my routine now because maybe that is needed. Ugh to that!

Anyway. 

Today was a bit of an eventful day, in that I clicked pictures, made preparations for tomorrow's packed lunch and now all that is left is folding heaps of clothes that have been staring me in the face for a couple days now, I know! 

so yes, folding, then cooking dinner and maybe collapsing on the bed at night. That's about all I can muster.

I'm watching a true-crime series on Netflix called 'Dirty John: the Betty Broderick story' season 2 and it's fantastic. Also because I'm such a sucker for true crime and it's dramatized extremely well and has pretty good actors 'Christian Slater and Amanda Peet' and they've done an exceptional job.

Usually, before I start reading my book, this is what I usually watch. 

It's like a slow transition from a hectic day to melting into the bed.

Right then.

Laundry

Feed the cats

Dinner

Photo of today

Baked beans for the recipe book. 

Low calories, high volume. 

Holes

I mean my bread has come out fabulous and all but why in earth is there a freaking hole in it? 

The rising wasn't right? 

Was it my folding? 

This ain't a deal breaker but m just curious. 

Perhaps I'll have to consult my baking mentor. 

Lunch bliss

And lunch! 

Whitepink

Also, white strawberries. 

Aren't they pretty?