Fist in the air

Morning and I have been awake for a while.

People have left for Poland and I look at the day lying ahead and all the things I need to do in it.
No too promising but let's try!

The cats are wandering around the house in utter darkness.
I haven't turned on most lights and it's pitched dark. The sun will rise in a bit, but for now it's nighttime as far as they are concerned.

Listening to light music before I dive nose first or fall from grace.
Whichever comes first!

Nothing good but just so

So it's a Tuesday
The weather outside is pleasant and the house is unrelenting in its coldness.
I feel like lighting a fire and sitting inside of it.

Today I have to fix my study room which people call studio for some reason so that I can start working there asap.

The only problem is that the room is cold and I have to do quite a bit of stuff to get it in order.
But I got to. There's no way around it.

The cats are all asleep and keeping warm and I have kept a few on top of me to stay warm. They're like tiny fur heaters.

Glitches

The sound on laptop is so much more different than the one from MacBook that I am unable to gauge the volume .
This is not good.
Also a lot of fonts are missing. I think I had downloaded those fonts? I'm not sure.
Making a few tweaks.
Let's see how things work .

Whiffs of morn

Morning Madame

Monday and I woke up late. I didn't do the usual that is making lunch etc. Nothing at all.
Right now I'm sipping tea, then workout, then shower and lunch and then editing. I finished about 40% editing yesterday and I have the rest to finish today. I hope I can do it before dinner time.

I'm still unable to find that routine where everything is seamless.

I'm also thinking of tidying up the study room and get back to working in it because the damned place is so cold, as it is placed in the corner that gets no sun and it's plenty cold all the time, but nothing that can't be solved with a heater.

Working in the lounge area has too many distractions and I am always in the mix of things instead of being isolated from the usual to concentrate.

Right then.
Today and let's go!

Argh

How fucking incompatible is apple to anything which isn't apple??!
It's infuriating.
Gods I'm trying to use my new machine and my iPhone is utterly refusing to connect to my new dell laptop!
Fuck you apple!

My review

Watched the anime movie 'maboroshi' by mappa studios.

The animation style is classic, reminiscent of good anime movies from the 2000's, sadly it's also as complicated, strange and follows a similar existential strangeness that anime movies once used to follow which at that time were the pinnacle of animation style and story telling and we loved it too, however after the evolution of it all this seems a bit dated in a way that is a bit lacklustre and difficult to follow in its complexity of plot.

Not a big fan, but the animation is simply stupendous.

What’s it then

So Saturday then.
I went out to look at stuff and ended up buying some cushion covers :)
Also, had a pretty excellent cup of coffee and came back home.
The cat is alright for now.

Dinner is a question mark.

The downside of upside

Morning and it's 8:17 in the AM.
I just had some tea in bed and I'm still sitting in bed and the entire household has been up since 6 because the cats needed feeding and also because one of the cats (nemo) refused to eat anything and in fact has been extremely down and utterly out of it.
A furball not eating first thing in the morning is rather a cause for concern and so we are just biding time and observing him in case he needs to get a check up which is why the whole family is still in bed etc.
Other than that yesterday was a good day.
It was deliciously sunny and a bit of city sightseeing was done and I wondered if this is where I'd have lived had I not opted for a more open space cuz of my babes.

Walking around the city, taking in the buzz of it all, the sights, the lively vivacity of shops and Friday night made me yearn for that busy city life a bit, the kind that I once used to have, where I'd just walk out of the house and go any place interesting.

I have no complaints living in my village but sometimes the entire village seems like an extension of my garden :)

I know I'd be complaining had I lived in the city too.

Alright then.
Today needs editing to be done and I am going to do it in my new laptop!
Looking forward to living in that 1 TB space.

Right then, more soon.

Feed me

And lunch !!

Some people :)

I get the loveliest comments

Well well

Morning and it's Thursday?!
I realised this when j heard the garbage truck rolling in and I remembered yes it's Thursday. Dear gods.
What's in store today?
Workout, recording videos and some editing.In that exact order.

And phew

And we are done with my activities for the day which was shooting.
Now I have only a couple more things to do which will be done tomorrow because today is done!

Now only cooking dinner remains and for that I have time.

Wed stuff

Morning already and I have already prepared lunch (even for me). Made enough for packed meal for people and instead of spending more time to make something new I will only make a small fish portion to go with my veg couscous.

Today I have some more recording to do.
It's better to break up these videos in a few days and I feel a bit more relaxed.

What's this day looking like?
It's not as cold and in fact raining quite a bit and I'm watching a video about how 11 year olds are doing skincare with the kind of stuff that I use on my skin now?! What the fuck is going on? Why do kids need skincare?
Also at 11 you're supposed to be listening to music and colouring books and riding bicycles and doing homework!!

Well this world is going down the drains and I'm here on the balcony seats with homemade popcorn !!

Update

Who me?

Recording stuff.
This time I'm Going to record over a period of a couple days instead of going crazy all in one day!

Also,
You tell

Monday lame

Morning and it's a better weather. All the snow has thawed and the wind is hard enough to blow my cats away.
It's not as icy cold today and thank gods for that.

The agenda for today is upload a video. So much for being able to do it twice last week.
Maybe I'll keep this Monday cycle going.

Apart from that same old.
I have to spruce up the house. My living room looks like a messy demon walked through it all.
Also, made falafels this morning. I know! That's such a labour intensive job and I pulled it off. Yikes! My lunch is sorted already and for that I'm glad.

We are salsa

Why is this so ridiculous and funny

Dick morning

Winds of winter

Weather selfie

Delish dreams

I dreamt of eating fondue
I might have to buy a fondue making apparatus soon now .

Aha

A gorgeous day for venturing out this

The zooming by

Nighttime and dear gods how did we get here?
I spent most of today being busy and editing and heavens help me my editing isn't finished.

How can I ever be on track with it if I have a life to live along with everything?
I mean I need me some time to while away too but seeing how I don't have 46 hours as requested I might have to cut some corners.

Right ho!
Nighttime and the cats think me a couch

I'm going to listen to something while I slump

Morning fits

Say one thing about mornings say they're never dull.

Nemo once again got in a bitter fight with Meera while I was preparing lunch and in between all this there was blood, medicine, anger, annoyance, exasperation and I got a scratch too all in the span for ten minutes.

Here's hoping I don't need to take Meera to the vet again and why Nemo, a friendly little darling, a sweet companion to humans refuses to get along with my cats? He only gets along with twinkle and stays away from Gogi and doesn't bother sheru, but he hates Meera and has some slight animosity towards hope and this situation has me running all day long, keeping foes separate and friends together.
This is giving me nightmares and tiring me a bit much.

But let's see.
I have tended to Meera's wounds right now and I hope it won't turn into an abscess like last time.

Yes! That's Friday adventure for you right here!!

This morn

Sweet

The French macaron is decidedly overrated but it's still quite delicious

A cheese called morbier

Cuz when in France

The need to hibernate

The weather today is unusually reprehensible.
Not that it's cold, but because there's frost, there's rain and the combination of the two has turned everything to ice!
Ice,Which is usually never an issue with me but when the roads, the pavements, the stairs outside to exit the house are all covered in a layer of slippery ice, there is much to complain.
Case in point me stepping out of the house momentarily and slipping hard in the small stepping stair outside that I nearly fell and cracked my face, except thankfully I didn't. I found my bearings in time and stood frozen and walked back meekly into the house .

I shouldn't laugh but watching people navigate their steps outside the house to the car whilst grabbing on every blade of grass to keep from falling was comedy gold .
I something about people falling on their asses is hilarious.
Anyway I am not going to leave the house until this issue is resolved.
This weather phenomena wasn't something I experienced much in Shanghai. Strangely enough despite their continuous rains.

Right then.
Onwards and upwards and maybe sideways too.

And there it is

Say one thing about today say it's been not a moment to myself
I have been shooting a video since morning and the days of shooting get so hectic because everything is multiplied twice over.

Thankfully it's been quite sunny today and I am quite happy for it.
Gorgeously sunny in fact and even though everything is frozen the sunlight that comes in through glass doors has a thawing quality to it.

I have a bit more shooting to do for today
Let's see how it all goes.

Kisses

Nighttime and the heart aches
It looks for you in drawers
Of secret cupboards
scurried in private dreams

Hello then

Whoah!
I have been editing since afternoon and suddenly it's time to cook dinner?!'

My video is still getting rendered and I am going to start my kitchen journey.
Tomorrow I have to shoot again.
I'm hoping it won't kill me .
Also the weather if freezing but it was sunny today.
The cats were happy. As was I

Misses my darling

Down with Mondays

I watched the clock tick from 6 to 7:30 as I stayed cozy in my cotton volcano of duvets. The little babies perched upon the entire length of my body, giving and receiving and together we were a bundle of fur and human warmth, until of course I could stay in the comfort no longer, only because my awareness told me that a Monday doesn't warrant happiness.

To get out of bed was a languid study in laziness and I decided that lunch cannot be packed in the present circumstances because I refuse to go anywhere near the cold kitchen.
So I sat sipping in lemon laced warm water until the house was warm enough to make tea, to supply self with some much needed love.

So here I am, tea and toast, wondering what even??!

Selfishly

2 sips of wine later I grow red

We got this or maybe not

Morning and I first opened my eyes at 6 in the AM and not wanting to wake up that early on a Sunday I resumed my semi slumber state and woke up at 8:50 with a gasp!!
What even?! I'd slept far too late into the morning and in fact I'd kept the shutter for my bedroom windows open so that I don't oversleep and yet!
It's dark, dreary and freezing.
I was out yesterday. It was frostbite weather and tiring.
Today there's no way to redeem this day except taking it easy and editing.
Tomorrow I want to put out a video and then another video again in the week.
Also, I'm starting my workouts from tomorrow.
The diligent kinds which I go on for 5 days a week.
Yes I think I have too much to handle but I'm going to handle it all.

Also..

For my podcast moment after I'm in a mood to listen

Oui mon ami

What even

And just why the fuck am I drunk after merely 2 sips of wine??!!!

Presently

Who me?
Sitting and editing.
Deciding which music to fit in
Also, thinking of drinking a glass of solitary wine
Dinner will be whatever was leftover for breakfast (poha) cuz I can't be bothered to cook.

Cold zone

There isn't a haunted house that is colder than my house right now.
I mean I don't get it.
The heater is switched on and the room feels warmer than the rest of the house and yet it's freezing.
My hands are cold, my feet are frozen, my nose is red and I am indoors, not like I'm standing outside!

And lunch

Such love

All for the heater

Uptits

Recording videos is kind of hellish if there are distractions all over the house.
The cats have been difficult to control and I'm having a series of mental breakdowns.

I think I have enough footage to make one video as I will be adding some farm footage from back home too.

Let's see.

Cries in front of heater

Such a lovely weather this

Simple tings

Eight in the evening and I am tucked in bed because why not?

Hearts my darling

For sunshine

This time

My bed that hasn't been made 

Isn't it sunny today for a change then? 

In the morning

The other day I saw gorgeously red pomegranates which I decided to buy but eventually I forgot to buy them cuz I kept frantically looking for them this morning to eat for breakfast and didn't find any.
I thought maybe I'd left them back at the store.
Then I fished out the receipt from the trash and checked for the goods and there were no pomegranates.
I went through this entire exercise just to satisfy myself that I hadn't left anything back at the store!
I mean what in the world! Not like I'd call them up and have them sent it to me.
Sometimes the illogical mind takes over and one can rationalise everything.
But also, I want to eat pomegranates.

Oh well

Feel like eating tempura!
Sighs

If I want to eat Japanese food I will actually have to make it myself now :(

What is it

A Monday and I sit sipping coffee and working out a plan for making new videos.
I have fallen behind and I plan to rectify it
Other than that it snowed for a bit and then it stopped and I find this winter quite strange. A bit different than the Shanghai one which was also equally cold but carried with it a certain humidity and the air felt heavy with it.
The icy chill of this winter seems dry.

Also the are less people I encounter when I go out of the house in fact I saw not a single soul when I ventured out yesterday afternoon to find the lost AirTag of one of my little ones and this wouldn't have been the scene in SH.
I think the presence of people, sounds, the quality of indoor warmth, the smell of different cleaning agents, the scent of a different reed diffuser, the touch of different furniture, the smell of pines somehow adds or maybe subtracts the feels.

This feels more isolated, something like an icy montage from a far flung place no one knows about. A quiet refuge.

And now

Three little babes for one heater 

Sablon

Back to things I have begun to love 

It’s Sunday

My fabulous mornings. 

I spent the night waking up with cramps while coughing and generally feeling like the basement of a government office building that had been left to get eaten with dust, mildew and neglect. 

I dreamt of a dream I had about crossing oceans while paragliding and the entire dream consisted of making me understand that it was a lucid dream and not reality! 

I don't understand! 

However my coughing fits didn't go unnoticed by my little ones who've never seen me unwell and they sat by me all night and even now trying to warm me let me know all is okay. 

To become French

So this is an important cheese to the French and is available during very specific time. It's called winter cheese and highly recommended that everyone eat it to become more French they say. 

I found it and I wished I could get a smaller portion but there wasn't one available and so I didn't buy it because I wasn't sure I could finish the damned thing because I read a bit about it and well..

Moods

Saturday and grocery shopping was done

It felt strange to be doing it for a house that I live in instead of one that I'm simply visiting.
Somehow it doesn't feel as frivolous and it's less fun!

Meal

And lunch 

In the wide spectrum of fuck this

Say one thing about evenings say they're dreary

—
That I got a stomach bug on the first day of the year and threw up on every layover while I traveled to a different continent makes me look at this year with zero optimism.

—
That on my first night home I came around a pee soaked house with a very sick Meera and a total turmoil makes me feel more confident about the nothing of this year

—
That I had a thin duvet on a very cold night of my return and that did little to keep me warm and I woke up shaking, cold, delirious and frozen with blue fingernails and now exist with a strange dry cough that stays with me no matter how much water I drink fills me with a strange joy of looking at everything with a murderous glare.

Yuck

I'm not looking forward to the weather I'll tell you that 

Oh come on

Okay this is new
Not least because my tumbler app shows posts from 3 days ago and won't refresh and I sit here wondering why there are no new posts since January 1st?!!
Like what even?

And here we are

The sun hasn't risen yet!
I woke up in dark
The house smells like a zoo
Meera has got a wound that's infected and he needs to be taken to the doctor
The cats haven't warmed up to nemo and everyone is fighting everywhere
There's pee everywhere
My house is upturned
And yet here I am
Sipping tea
Eating toast
Cuz my new year is resolved to not stress
I will take Meera to the vet today and things will be fine
I just know they will be

So long

At Kuwait airport and wondering why does one partake in international travel at all?
It's no fun.
The time zones are so difficult to adjust to and the weather is always different everywhere you go.
This hasn't been a pleasant journey, and my neck suffers a crick from the very uncomfortable seats.
Now there's another flight to board and I just need for it to get over with.
At 12:45 CET I will land in France and from there it's a couple hours homewards.
Also Gogi needs to get picked on the way and I'll spend the rest of the day asleep.