The updates and downs of it

The local 'French' restaurant I used to haunt mainly for baguettes and coffee back in Shanghai called 'rive de pains' which was located about 50 feet from my house has been sending me messages enquiring about my absence and telling me about their new 'sesame baguettes' and I have not the heart to tell them I live there no longer that I am not even on the same continent :(
In a strange twist of events I have literally come to the shore of loaves which is what the name of their restaurant literally translates to and I do miss the ease of walking to that restaurant/bakery to pick up a flask of coffee, something which is amiss here at least in my village that is.
I'm Beginning to think that someone who's used to a steady supply of takeouts wouldn't do very well living here since there's not a single food delivery app that delivers here.
Hah!! Oh well.

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The strange anxiety of always looking outside expecting someone to bang on my door or lean on the doorbell has greatly reduced and for the past few weeks I'm able to shower without a second thought, when earlier I would step out soaking wet several times to peek out of the window expecting someone standing outside in a hazmat suit.
I'm still unable to load my shopping cart in a grocery store to capacity because it brings back strange memories of difficult times just weeks before lockdown when the ominous signs were floating and people were panicking in superstores, stacking their carts to the skies and the stores had run dry of milk, vegetables, fruits and people were shoving each other aside and screaming and pulling things and the payment line would be over two hours long and I would be standing in shock with my friend with our carts empty of anything significant but full of whatever crap we could lay our hands on. Tetra pack milk, low grade cup noodles, bags of sugar and salt, oil bottles, frozen meat, of brand chips, garlic, ginger, water bottles.

I didn't realise how those moments impacted me until I went to a grocery store a couple weeks ago and 'people' started piling stuff into the cart and I couldn't get myself to look at it and broke down. I had to abruptly leave the place and I thought I couldn't breathe.
I think I'll slowly get over that too but in the meanwhile since that episode we have been doing small shoppings every couple days to avoid that moment from recurring.

So strange right?

I’m the moon

From last night.
It really was beautiful, however I'm not sure of it being as blue as my heart seeing how it's been a while since us..

Head baby

Today I have been in a funk because of a headache that started early morning around 4 and took two pain killers to get rid of.
The reason why it happened I am aware of and it was a posture issue and I am resolved to keep it at bay.
It's been weeks since my last headache and I am / was glad that their frequency is greatly reduced but gimme a break!

Tryouts

This is a French sauce :)
I has to try this sort of local mayo that can't keep in the fridge long as is enough just for daily sort of consumption and it's quite different than the mayo I sort of like and love (kewpie and hellmans) both of course a sort of abomination to think about it but I have grown to love their taste and this mayo, which is apparently that 'right' mayo tastes mighty different.
It's a bit sour and lot more flavourful.
I don't know if I can go back to the usual bottled ones anymore.
Fresh mayo yes please!

And today a Wednesday

Morning and I realise it's Rakhi and can't believe that last Rakhi was the next day in august as I had to leave for China after that entire lockdown ordeal and I'd stayed with him for a while and given him a Casio watch i'd bought to wear whilst in India as Rakhi :)
Time has passed since and somethings have irreversibly changed.
And I am none the wiser!
Still suspended in a strange bubble of existence I listen to Meera meow for attention.

And finale

Spent most of the evening after 5 arranging kitchen and bringing this behemoth into the house and it's been more than five hours and I'm just done re arranging the entire kitchen and transferring contents from one fridge to another and all that in the middle of a terrible mood and shitty cramps!
Ugh!!!

OUI NON

So well, seems like my work has reached a point to where it has started growing tentacles and now I need a mechanical keyboard because I need the entire setup you see.

Enough shop talk. what's happening today?

Tuesday you say? gods below, what an annoying day. 

What am I to do except not hate on everything and have coffee while at it?

Which is exactly what I am doing and also hoping to not get into one of my moods today.

Looks like I am going to receive some help to get my fridge into the house. 

Here is hoping. I really really need my fabulous fridge to come into my arms.

Also, the weather has started changing which I find utterly silly because it's not even September yet and I would like a bit more of the sunny hot weather before succumbing to coldness.

Okay then, I am off to do some stuff, I don't know what. 

What I hear

And meal

Night cap

And now my absolute favourite
Limoncello

Growing

Excuse us while we photosynthesise

Thunder and lightning

This is my current favourite combination.
Just the right amount which won't hurt my stomach and we are good!

In the mood

Say one thing about this weather say it's a bit uncomfortable to wear anything that gives easy access to cold air like a dress or skirt.
I need some trousers.
Where are my house pants at?
Also, in the mood to eat pakoras.
It's not everyday that I am in the mood for such things but there are moments when I absolutely am.
It's been a while since I ate anything such, it's been several months.
Some delicious green chutney, a bowl of onion and potato pakoras and life will be alright I think.
Why don't I make it all today?

And then

Last night the music finally got turned off around 2:15 when people couldn't take it anymore and this despite me getting pressurised to change the genre which was a mix of 90's pop on full volume.
But until that time the din was tolerated by everyone around.
No complaints to speak of.
Not that I know of and I know it was quite loud cuz when I'd stepped out around 10 last night I could hear music blasting out of my house from near the Marie which is the local municipality office.
That's right! Music is tolerated, parties are tolerated but lawn lowers aren't!
What even?
Now I need a proper local to talk this with.
I think I'm going to spend some more time understanding it all.

Things

There was a freakin DJ for their damned party. With lights and everything.

Also have you watched 'the glory' on Netflix?
It's very satisfying and quite interesting and delicious with revenge!!

Shaking fists

Today I'm determined to play loud as fuck music until late night, even early morning or until someone makes a complaint cuz I am pretty upset about some neighbours having a birthday party in their backyard and playing the music which was fucking loud till almost 3 in the morning!
It bothered me so much cuz you can't mow the fucking lawn after 5 on weekends but you can play horribly loud music while cheering on and screaming like idiot maniacs. And these weren't kids or young people mind you.
This was a mixed company of older than middle aged people drinking and having fun which I'm not against but heavens you gotta lower the volume after a while or it gets obscenely annoying!!
So I've strayed my fun and I'm playing Marilyn Manson and I'm gonna get progressively worse after this.
There will be gojira, there will be slipknot, there will be system of a down, there will be Korn, there will be coal chamber, there will be devildriver, there will be cannibal corpse.

Come for me!

Daily dairy

Also I just cannot get over the cheese aisle here. 

And evening

If there's one thing I've fallen immensely in love with here it's 'crème chantilly' 

I put a dollop of it on my coffee and life feels gorgeous. 

I mean come on

Just randomly remembered that my brother made me take an off from work to watch 'Ghajini'

Now listening to

Absolutely one of my favourite songs out there

Fridayday day

I dreamt that I was stuck at sea while my ship was sinking and I was trying to swim towards the ship to sit on it for a while before getting lost at sea again. I had nothing save a lifebuoy to cling on to and the ocean was dark, vast and eerie. Best part is that it was all happening at night.
It was real in a way that I felt wet, suffocated and so scared I had to wake up just to breathe.
It was unbearably horrific.
Other than that, seems like the seasonal changes have begun.
The sun set a lot earlier around 9 at night yesterday and each day it's going to start setting earlier than usual until there's a time when the sun comes out for just a few hours every day.
Not sure I'm looking forward to that.

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Today I'm going to deep clean the house after working out.
Kinda glad I found my exercise rhythm and loving my daily sweat sessions.
Also, here's a picture of my little darlings enjoying the light.

And food

Lunch today.
Omelette with potatoes doused liberally with mascarpone and Gorgonzola cheese. Not pictured is a bowl of leftover rajmah chawal that I shall also eat.

Untoxic negativity

Thinking maybe I need to lose some weight

And this morn

Morning from Muizon.
The weather feels a bit overcast
Everything feels fresh except my marriage
What a lovely day to find someone to bury

It passes

What do I say about today except that it vanished in the blink of an eye and everything is set to do I didn't!
I mean to wake up earlier tomorrow and correct the mistakes I made today.
As if!

Waiting for Meera to come back home so we can call it a night.

Rest day

Who me? 

Making a sandwich cuz look at this delicious salami I just got from the deli and fresh bread from the Boulanger 

Wind down

Pasta

Radiator shaped pasta called radiatori

And yum

And lunch is an open chicken sandwich which seems to have gotten draped with emmental cheese.

Post workout

Who me?
Juicing
And you?

Lifts curtain

Say one thing about today say it got busy to the point of no return.
I had my foot sticking in so many places I was almost an octopus and now I finally find time and it's late night.
Bed time feels like my personal playground somehow. Everything that morning might and can be is callously ignored once I'm in bed at night. I worry about waking up but that thought is immediately forgotten and replaced with my need to catch up on things I missed during the day. Reading and or surfing!
I cherish this time. Absolutely love it.

And lunch

Is it Monday

Yesterday evening

Bleurgh

That I've has to shower twice today is on another level of bothersome not least because I would love a bit of that sweet aircon chill and all I've got is a fan right now.
It was hit it was sultry it was annoying.

And also

Also had an affogato!! I know I don't eat ice cream and it's going to be detrimental to my health but I had to have it. Probably my last time but it's worth it.

And lunch

Yes please.
And I ate all of it!!

Morning from Muizon

Night sky

Skies

It was so silly

What on earth dreams!!

I dreamt that I was given a death sentence for something rather trivial and that too not in a court but some civil court where I'd shown up cuz there were posters around the time out for my arrest for keeping expired makeup or something similarly dumb!!
So I show up, the judge sentences me to death and that I'm expected to die in a few weeks and it's killing me. I wake up to Meera's crying and thank the gods to be awake in my bed.
Phew!

And now

Rosé today 

This morning

My fabulous morning

And lunch

Slow it

Not even noon yet and all I did was wake up half an hour early. 

Phews alive

And dead 

This morning

Morning from Muizon
The clouds look ready to spill and the babes are out for a chill
I don't mean to rhyme

Distance

Nighttime and the heart feels alone
These days
You feel so far off
Where are you

And the update

Today has been unkind in ways that some days are.
Busy, lots of chores, dishes, work, running after cats who have been terrorising the neighbourhood and I'm this close to getting complaints lodged against me in the local municipal.
Also, the house looks to have been assembled quite a bit.
The fridge is still in basement and I have to work around it on Weekend, also my bedroom is still not done in that there no bed in it and I'm still sleeping in the guest room.
Apart from that yes, a lot is done.

And lunch

Morning from Muizon

And the neighbours wake up quite late late because they have only just opened their blinds which means they probably just woke up a while ago.
Or maybe it's common for Europeans to keep their blinds shut and live in utter darkness unless they feel it's time to indicate to the world that they're open for life!

Humph

The problem with parasites is that they always remain parasites.

On a Tuesday

Today I spent my day making a giant lunch for 15th august as is the wont of my family since my mom always cooks up a feast and I do too and also spent the rest of the day fixing up my study which somehow still looks unfixed.
I need a place to put my roomba and some place for my speakers.
I mean I need to connect my speakers.

How lucky

My absolutely lovely neighbours gave me these delicious fruits and a tart because I helped them pack as they're shifting and offered them all the packaging boxes and bubble wrap I had from my packing. 

These fruits which even the tart is made up of is called 'mirabella' my nickname for Meera. :) 

Gimme tiger

Is this some known energy drink?
Looks funky.
Though I'd not try it

This and today

Turn out French people don't like working in a Amin day when Tuesday is a holiday and so 'people' were alone in the office until someone told them to leave for home cuz that's just how things are and so people came home while I was working out and gave me such a scare o almost thee my dumbbell on their face.
Nothing happened but I had to make lunch for two instead of my usual one person fare :(

Right, in the mood for coffee but dressed up to go out for some grocery shopping cuz I need to buy cat food and also gotta get me some veg.

After that I've got an entire study room to fix cuz damn it's full of stuff in boxes spilling out I'm the floor and it needs to get done so that I can start downing more time in my study than lounging in the living area.

Also tight lining my eyes after almost two years with black liner

Sunlit grove

Camouflage kitty

Ah yes oh yes

Oh yes!
It is absolutely delightful.
So dark in its aftertaste and strangely confusing in that delightful manner wherein the first taste feels like lemongrass and by the time it's dissolved into your mouth you wonder if it might be cherry.

Please fuck me with a dildo made out of this flavour.

Day and a half

That I've had a busy day would be an understatement and I didn't even realise it was Al it's 9 at night and the entire Sunday passed without a glass of wine! Gah!! What a shame! 

What was I doing? 

Doing stuff around the house. 

Figuring out stuff about fridge 

Feeling too full after eating so many dosa's 

Also, hope tried to kill and eat the neighbours pet rabbit. 

That was an entire issue of its own. 

More of it later. 

Ugh! 

Ah from a time that time

Look what I found. 

Guitar picks from leaves eyes and another off shoot band of theirs which the members had very kindly offered me. 

I still have them and sometimes they pluck my ukulele 

Ah from a time that time

Look what I found. 

Guitar picks from leaves eyes and another off shoot band of theirs which the members had very kindly offered me. 

I still have them and sometimes they pluck my ukulele 

Umm okay

Morning and I sit in the garden sipping tea and eating toast.
Life for now feels good.
The grass is wet with dew and the birds are chirping above.
Surely nothing can be this blissful for no reason. Right?
I don't know.
I've begun to think that nothing is meant to give you any happiness.
Sunday then!
Cheers to weekend ending.
But wait it's a holiday here on Tuesday.
So yeah.

Yum

Friday night 

Some things come back

Dewy Morning 

Pho yourself

WTF

Watching Bridget jones while having lunch and one of the reason why everyone thought this movie a big deal was because renne zelwegger had gotten fat for the role!
Watching it now and wondering why did anyone think she was fat?? She looks pretty regular sized and in fact her weight is the same as mine in the movie and she's resolved to lose 20 pounds.
Was something wrong with that time or am I fat?

Seriously

The television however is fucking gigantic 

Argh more

Who me?
Aghast at why things don't just fix themselves and having a late lunch of pasta before getting back into the thick of things.
I am a bit miffed about designing style right now.
I want my coffee machine in the kitchen but people think it's more 'chic' to have it in the living area like some freaking hotel buffet!!.
I don't like it.

How was I living?

Why do I not have space for my meagre stuff? I think the universe ain't enough to house my bowls and cups :(

Morning from Muizon

Morning and my house looks like an explosion of randomness. 

Argh

My kitchen currently!! 

What the fuck?!