Sunsdeads

Who me? 

Just got back from the brocante 

Bought a figurine of vitalstatistix for my brother's  new office space. 

Other than that picked a few dvds of Poirot seasons. 

Thought bubble

There's no reason why
I didn't eat much dinner
Didn't have any dessert
Worked myself to the bone
Ate the largest lunch of this month
Feeling hungry at 11: 05 pm

:)

Am I proud? 

Yes indeed 

All that

Today I cleansed 

Saturday

Who me? 

Thrifting

And you? 

  

Sniff sniff

Harvested a whole lot of coriander from the garden and made a chutney after forever and now my hands smell of coriander .

A little dead

Yes please 

And it’s still sunny

I mean 

I am exhausted 

And I've not even had dinner yet 

Today was hectic. 

I recorded lots today

Also did a lot of gardening and cats and MIL 

It's been a solid fuck 

And now

But but it's Sunday 

And the lower part of my palm is hurting cuz I do one specific motion far too often each day. 

—/:

This painting might have some significance but it looks off for whatever reason. 

Today was ok

It was sunny and quite hot but it was a better day and a better outing than Paris. 

Supporting pillars

My source of strength to stand up for myself, to voice my opinion and demand for my existence. 

Never thought marriage would so incredibly dull my manna, that every step I would feel like I have to scream to be heard, that my existence can turn into a mere shell if I don't make myself heard. I'm not my MIL. 

I'm me. And I'm demanding. I'm also a bitch. 

Time

So done with today 

All the stuff

Yesterday
I heard MIL bitching about me to her daughter and a couple stories were totally made up.
I bristled a bit but then I let go
I was like meh it's not unexpected but it was funny cuz her daughter and I are on good terms, but I guess we all need something to talk about.

Other than that
I am listening to skullsworn and I have found engines of war audiobook. 😃 downloading it as I type.
No seeders though

The trip yesterday was so below average that my body couldn't take the inferior level of its existence in my life and I ate instant noodles for a snack after coming home.

I'm making a new drawing and tomorrow I'll start recording some stuff

Duhday

It was a below average day but the weather was good 

My little babes

Marigolds in pot of gold :) 

I am so proud of my marigolds. They've grown and every week I pluck out flowers that are almost at the end of their life cycle and I adorn it in my little vase which is actually a brass lota! 

It makes me happy. 

Also editing

Who me?
Going through the day or rather the day goes through me

About Dinah

Today
Dinner was tomato linguini
Which is a thicker spaghetti and I make it a special way beloved by everyone. It's requested quite often and depending on the availability I use different shapes: sometimes farfalle, sometimes fusilli and sometimes macaroni but usually it's spaghetti or linguini. What doesn't change is the sauce recipe which I have honed and perfected over the last decade and every couple weeks I prepare this repast, as well as each time I visit home I cook this dish, not least cuz it's easy to throw together.

Today I made the very pasta and saw the MIL pick it up in strands, not with a fork but with her index finger and thumb.
I saw her wrapping strands of linguini around the garlic bread I served, I saw her shove a mound of pasta, picked up with her fingers on the bread and finally I saw her push away the plate and not eat anymore .
To say that I gave a flying fuck would be an overstatement cuz I got to eat something I'd been wanting to for a while and cuz I'm tired of the same old
And no, I don't care she couldn't eat much cuz it's her own fault for not having a wider palette.

How it is

I needed this
I've been so low and depressed and angry and I needed some sun, I needed some music and I needed my space cuz it's no longer my comfort zone since the MIL arrived.
Today I got flintstoned and sat in the sun
Edit: my MIL is now on the lounger I was a while ago
But that's fine I'm sitting on the bench in the front yard . It's no lounger but I am sunning and chilling and the breeze is cool. If it's overclouded it's almost a bit cold but under the scorching sun it's Amrit.
And I have a thin shrug on that keeps me comfy.

Yes I feel better today.
Weed, wind, sun. With your powers combined I'm me !!!

I need this on the big speakers

When MIL sleeps 

Weather

Yes please 

And now

Watching moonrise and chilling