Tuesday, 30 April 2019
Yawn and drink
But I changed upon the ceiling and saw how beautiful it looked
T’day
Agenda includes shopping after all this walking and climbing and hiking I'm expected to shop because it's a normal thing to do here in this country but I'm not a shopper, never have been.
I mean yeah I like a bit here and there but enticing me with colours and lights and creams and cosmetics?? Hah! Good luck!
Ooh is that a funky Casio?
I mean yeah I like a bit here and there but enticing me with colours and lights and creams and cosmetics?? Hah! Good luck!
Ooh is that a funky Casio?
Pepsi
I haven't seen these too often.
I'm not drinking this however cuz beer.
Monday, 29 April 2019
A lot of all that
Fall from grace is one thing but I have spectacularly nosedived into hell.
All I've done is eat and drink and eat all over again and just walk around the city and now I'm guilty.
I was told that perhaps I have not one but two stomachs. Maybe that is true.
All I've done is eat and drink and eat all over again and just walk around the city and now I'm guilty.
I was told that perhaps I have not one but two stomachs. Maybe that is true.
Gah!!
Each time that I attach more than one image to post on my blog via email the post never gets sent.
I have over five posts that just won't go.
Am I supposed to keep posting one image at a time per mail like a Neanderthal.
Goddamit!
There has to be an easier way.
I have over five posts that just won't go.
Am I supposed to keep posting one image at a time per mail like a Neanderthal.
Goddamit!
There has to be an easier way.
Clothes
These clothes are called Hanbok and are a traditional Korean wear.
People are encouraged to wear them around the city while sight seeing.
These can be easily rented most tourist places.
Firewater
I'd pay Korean Won to watch his face get splattered with water .
Sunday, 28 April 2019
Night lights
Lights for you my darling.
Sueet
I might have added sugar to a coffee which already had sugar and now my ears are buzzing cuz goddamn I don't consume enough sugar!!
But fuck yeah how awesome is sweetness and why don't I like it?
But fuck yeah how awesome is sweetness and why don't I like it?
Nightmarish
Remember how I complained about eating sugar with eggs and omelettes in particular.
Yeah that nightmare comes alive each time I bite this sandwich which is an egg salad sandwich with raspberry jam and my cheese garlic bread has crunchy bits of sugar and the vegetable spicy sandwich also has a layer of sugar stuck with cheese.
Yay!!
Fun times!
Yeah that nightmare comes alive each time I bite this sandwich which is an egg salad sandwich with raspberry jam and my cheese garlic bread has crunchy bits of sugar and the vegetable spicy sandwich also has a layer of sugar stuck with cheese.
Yay!!
Fun times!
Plans today
From one diminishing winter to another bearing its fangs in full effects.
Its a bit of déjà vu.cold, cloudy, dark and well, there's bulgogi for breakfast so I'm not the one to complain.
My agenda in this country includes eating and drinking and that's about all I'm going to participate in.
If you see me venture inside a temple or a museum know that I've not without Korean fried chicken and soju.
Let's go then!
Its a bit of déjà vu.cold, cloudy, dark and well, there's bulgogi for breakfast so I'm not the one to complain.
My agenda in this country includes eating and drinking and that's about all I'm going to participate in.
If you see me venture inside a temple or a museum know that I've not without Korean fried chicken and soju.
Let's go then!
Saturday, 27 April 2019
Plans
That public drinking is allowed in South Korea in that you could be walking on the streets chugging whiskey or watching kids play in the park wiping your face with vodka is totally legal and that's exactly what I intend on doing, except it'll only be soju all the way in all different flavours because that's my drink of choice and not a single day shall be spent sober.
Waves
It was a long movie and it was rather nice..though not nearly as much fun as the previous part and why on earth was Mrs Potts flying around but alright it was too much of everything and maybe that was expected.
Good thing though was two most annoying characters died and I hoped to see more of Thanos in his usual menacing ways and most definitely Captain Marvel was wasted cuz she was stronger than all the Thanos' in the world but of course they couldn't show that and thankfully there are no intervals outside of homeland in movies so everything felt tight but why they couldn't rewind time with the stones like Thanos did with vision, perhaps because it was recent? Maybe. Why does one snapping of a finger kill half the world and another kill all the bad guys? Maybe it's in the thought.
Thanos was a good villain though. I'd have liked to watch him annihilate everyone all over again.
It was a grand fun movie, in fact it's funny moments were rather funny and plenty and fat Thor was pretty good too, but it was a bit of eye roll because it was far too magnificent in a way that it was oh come on!! But okay you gotta have that for those moments of frisson of which this movie was full of and Nighthawk was back and goddamit they should've both plunged to their deaths and maybe there's a bit of relief in the fact that there aren't going to be anymore ironman, captain America and avengers movies for a while.
Now I need batman.
Good thing though was two most annoying characters died and I hoped to see more of Thanos in his usual menacing ways and most definitely Captain Marvel was wasted cuz she was stronger than all the Thanos' in the world but of course they couldn't show that and thankfully there are no intervals outside of homeland in movies so everything felt tight but why they couldn't rewind time with the stones like Thanos did with vision, perhaps because it was recent? Maybe. Why does one snapping of a finger kill half the world and another kill all the bad guys? Maybe it's in the thought.
Thanos was a good villain though. I'd have liked to watch him annihilate everyone all over again.
It was a grand fun movie, in fact it's funny moments were rather funny and plenty and fat Thor was pretty good too, but it was a bit of eye roll because it was far too magnificent in a way that it was oh come on!! But okay you gotta have that for those moments of frisson of which this movie was full of and Nighthawk was back and goddamit they should've both plunged to their deaths and maybe there's a bit of relief in the fact that there aren't going to be anymore ironman, captain America and avengers movies for a while.
Now I need batman.
Updates
Who me?
At the bank, getting things done to my debit card to enable easy money procurement from atm's overseas because they need to update my phone number which I realised hasn't been update still which is surprising because I think I'd got it done but apparently they've no record and that's strange!!
and after all this there's a movie that needs watching and then clothes that need packing and a plane that needs boarding but it'll be another day by then.
At the bank, getting things done to my debit card to enable easy money procurement from atm's overseas because they need to update my phone number which I realised hasn't been update still which is surprising because I think I'd got it done but apparently they've no record and that's strange!!
and after all this there's a movie that needs watching and then clothes that need packing and a plane that needs boarding but it'll be another day by then.
Saturday Saturday
That I've already been through a horrid wringer isn't a surprise seeing how it's Saturday and my works increases two folds.
Soon I'll be leaving for Seoul and there are things that need doing before all of that, a lot of it on me because I've neglected self maintenance days and I've only today to get myself vacation ready.
Before I started with self preening I needed to get some work done around the house so I have ample time for myself without getting bothered and here's where the troubles started because other existing humanoids volunteered to help and accepting it was a mistake on my part.
Instead of getting into a detailed excursion of all the mishaps that ensued around the kitchen, on the stove, with my breakfast, with the batter that was tinkered around with promises of making it better, after I dunked the pan under running water to kill the smoke and finally having to clean the ensuing mess which ate more than a couple hours of what could have been done in forty minutes I shall just relate that the day hasn't been going as well as expected.
What was supposed to be brunch turned into a mass of garbage and I had to make a simple lunch which I had not the heart to eat and have only just now got done with giving myself a haircut and a quick mani/pedi when In fact I'd decided to to a bit of deep conditioning too but of course times are tight and I got triggered this morning.
But what am if not patient like a freaking stone and so deep breaths and self control so as not to begin lopping heads on weekend I sit ranting here, hoping my hair has turned out alright.
Soon I'll be leaving for Seoul and there are things that need doing before all of that, a lot of it on me because I've neglected self maintenance days and I've only today to get myself vacation ready.
Before I started with self preening I needed to get some work done around the house so I have ample time for myself without getting bothered and here's where the troubles started because other existing humanoids volunteered to help and accepting it was a mistake on my part.
Instead of getting into a detailed excursion of all the mishaps that ensued around the kitchen, on the stove, with my breakfast, with the batter that was tinkered around with promises of making it better, after I dunked the pan under running water to kill the smoke and finally having to clean the ensuing mess which ate more than a couple hours of what could have been done in forty minutes I shall just relate that the day hasn't been going as well as expected.
What was supposed to be brunch turned into a mass of garbage and I had to make a simple lunch which I had not the heart to eat and have only just now got done with giving myself a haircut and a quick mani/pedi when In fact I'd decided to to a bit of deep conditioning too but of course times are tight and I got triggered this morning.
But what am if not patient like a freaking stone and so deep breaths and self control so as not to begin lopping heads on weekend I sit ranting here, hoping my hair has turned out alright.
Friday, 26 April 2019
watching
Currently, I mean in the past two days I have found, it was actually recommended to me by the nosey people of Netflix a series called 'happy!' based on a graphic novel and having finished 'my husband won't fit' I needed something to watch during moments of de-stress and you are aware of my fondness for visual treats be it movies or series and so I clicked play and here I am four episodes in hooked and weirdly fascinated by the absolute madness that it is.
There is violence like violence should be. The kind I like. Not the glossy make believe kinds but the gory madness types that are only short of snuff and has a note of disbelief to it because it's meant to be funny. Oh yes, it's supposed to be dark and it is along with being wtf?!
There is violence like violence should be. The kind I like. Not the glossy make believe kinds but the gory madness types that are only short of snuff and has a note of disbelief to it because it's meant to be funny. Oh yes, it's supposed to be dark and it is along with being wtf?!
Flower beauty
Who on earth gifts carnations???
But they're flowers and so I like them but even so.
Feed
Salad in question is made of leftover chicken and vegetables from yesterday jeujed up with a bit of yogurt and chickpea chilla is the easiest thing in the world, gluten free to boot and seeing how dinner is going to be homemade pizza, I think a bit of morning righteousness is in order.
Gnngnngnn
After 45 seconds of lunge pulses I saw god and then I saw the floor.
It's just never gets easy.
After all this time it's still just as difficult.
The only difference being that once I couldn't do two and now I do four sets but there's never a smile on my face.
I curse, I turn blue, I hate this world and then I swear to never put my body through the wringer again and as always after ten minutes of stretching I forget all the pain only momentarily though because the soreness makes itself felt like a heartache only it dissipates in a day.
It's just never gets easy.
After all this time it's still just as difficult.
The only difference being that once I couldn't do two and now I do four sets but there's never a smile on my face.
I curse, I turn blue, I hate this world and then I swear to never put my body through the wringer again and as always after ten minutes of stretching I forget all the pain only momentarily though because the soreness makes itself felt like a heartache only it dissipates in a day.
Morning mess
This morning started with an intention to create something that appeared to me as an apparition the other night, that of making potato and vegetable pancakes infused with paneer and spices.
A power packed lunch and a new recipe and why let go of a chance to experiment on an in-house Guinea pig and so I woke up early, while it was still dark, shivering may I add because the weather has suddenly cooled down considerably and so I began my endeavours with the recipe I had in mind.
Everything was fine until I laid the flat cakes in the pan and lo! They fucking stuck!!
That was anticlimactic.
Much energy was spent trying to scrape them out of my fantastic seasoned cast iron skillet that never lets anything stick to it.
What I ended up with was a scramble of sorts and I was approaching a meltdown and trying to hold back tears that were ready to start jumping out of frustration and failure but I was told they smelled incredible and that I should pack them just as and even though I had not the heart to pack something so unsightly I did after getting urged in to do so.
So yes my morning began with disappointment.
How often can one say that?
I'm going to workout and burn all the anger I currently harbour.
A power packed lunch and a new recipe and why let go of a chance to experiment on an in-house Guinea pig and so I woke up early, while it was still dark, shivering may I add because the weather has suddenly cooled down considerably and so I began my endeavours with the recipe I had in mind.
Everything was fine until I laid the flat cakes in the pan and lo! They fucking stuck!!
That was anticlimactic.
Much energy was spent trying to scrape them out of my fantastic seasoned cast iron skillet that never lets anything stick to it.
What I ended up with was a scramble of sorts and I was approaching a meltdown and trying to hold back tears that were ready to start jumping out of frustration and failure but I was told they smelled incredible and that I should pack them just as and even though I had not the heart to pack something so unsightly I did after getting urged in to do so.
So yes my morning began with disappointment.
How often can one say that?
I'm going to workout and burn all the anger I currently harbour.
Thursday, 25 April 2019
Morons
'I don't know about you' they'd say
'But I'm into such and such'
obviously something so eclectic
something pulled out of their ass
to show them so different
something no one's ever experienced
not that anyone would care
cuz they don't know about others
except their singular lives
unique in their priorities
making everything mundane
except their atypical days
that are virtually all the same
'But I'm into such and such'
obviously something so eclectic
something pulled out of their ass
to show them so different
something no one's ever experienced
not that anyone would care
cuz they don't know about others
except their singular lives
unique in their priorities
making everything mundane
except their atypical days
that are virtually all the same
Night notes
It's exhausting this whole trying to live while existing bit.
Few things I hate more than the missionary position and that is wondering what to cook for breakfast tomorrow.
Oh yeah you gotta think of these things beforehand because come morning and I'll be a grumbling mess moving about like a zombie with an existential crisis and I need to be like an automaton and know what to do exactly instead of thinking because if I begin thinking so early in the morning I'd perhaps begin dismembering people.
Right, where was I? It's night! What the fuck!
And I haven't even mentioned how I greedily salivated as my rolling eyeballs mentally processed the gorgeousness that was deep maroon and off white wound up with black.
Darling! Magnificent!
Few things I hate more than the missionary position and that is wondering what to cook for breakfast tomorrow.
Oh yeah you gotta think of these things beforehand because come morning and I'll be a grumbling mess moving about like a zombie with an existential crisis and I need to be like an automaton and know what to do exactly instead of thinking because if I begin thinking so early in the morning I'd perhaps begin dismembering people.
Right, where was I? It's night! What the fuck!
And I haven't even mentioned how I greedily salivated as my rolling eyeballs mentally processed the gorgeousness that was deep maroon and off white wound up with black.
Darling! Magnificent!
After dinner
There are days when only a piece of deliciously dark 70% cocoa dark chocolate would do.
The way its matte surface sombrely glints at me, urging me to chomp down with gluttonous need.
The way its matte surface sombrely glints at me, urging me to chomp down with gluttonous need.
Inner piece
Family trauma is the worst drama however there ain't much of it that I've had to deal with or maybe I didn't care to think of it enough to deal with it.
I think our generation was mostly made up from families that didn't have an understanding of how to deal with offspring's .
Perhaps they weren't prepared enough or maybe thought of children as necessary items that had to be brought into the world .
I think I've seen mostly dysfunctional families growing up and even now when I meet some people and see their now aged folks I can't help but feel sorry for them.
Of course they're all great fodders for gossip.
Then there are balanced families so much so that it's boring to be around them.
No family is without its share of problems. Some problems are superficial and easily noticeable and some are deep seated which seem invisible.
I'd known an entire family for a near decade, never visited their house but was acquainted with the entire clan in a way that we exchanged greetings and I thought they were a rather nice bunch of people.
Their son was sweet, the father was genial and the mother usually a bit lost but she seemed okay.
One day there was what felt like an entire police force outside their house.
They'd apparently kept a domestic help who was imprisoned and regularly abused by the entire family. Son and father mostly.
Now that was an eye opener.
My brother often used to play badminton with an ever smiling gentleman who often called our intercom to ask about him since they were doubles partner for almost a year.
The man moved to Noida.
He has since been sentenced to death along with his domestic help in the Nithari serial killing case and to think I've had tea and snacks in his house and present there were other members of his immediate family.
Now that made me shudder.
Families can be strange I guess.
—
The thing about travel is that it's a lot more fun while it's happening.
Something to do with not having to deal with problems that could've been and instead dealing with newer issues.
Coming back to the house, the same smell that you'd left, same old chores and timetable begins to feel irksome but it passes because we tend to forget the past few days of newness since it was a thin veil compared to the veritable thickness of reality.
This too shall pass as they say.
I think our generation was mostly made up from families that didn't have an understanding of how to deal with offspring's .
Perhaps they weren't prepared enough or maybe thought of children as necessary items that had to be brought into the world .
I think I've seen mostly dysfunctional families growing up and even now when I meet some people and see their now aged folks I can't help but feel sorry for them.
Of course they're all great fodders for gossip.
Then there are balanced families so much so that it's boring to be around them.
No family is without its share of problems. Some problems are superficial and easily noticeable and some are deep seated which seem invisible.
I'd known an entire family for a near decade, never visited their house but was acquainted with the entire clan in a way that we exchanged greetings and I thought they were a rather nice bunch of people.
Their son was sweet, the father was genial and the mother usually a bit lost but she seemed okay.
One day there was what felt like an entire police force outside their house.
They'd apparently kept a domestic help who was imprisoned and regularly abused by the entire family. Son and father mostly.
Now that was an eye opener.
My brother often used to play badminton with an ever smiling gentleman who often called our intercom to ask about him since they were doubles partner for almost a year.
The man moved to Noida.
He has since been sentenced to death along with his domestic help in the Nithari serial killing case and to think I've had tea and snacks in his house and present there were other members of his immediate family.
Now that made me shudder.
Families can be strange I guess.
—
The thing about travel is that it's a lot more fun while it's happening.
Something to do with not having to deal with problems that could've been and instead dealing with newer issues.
Coming back to the house, the same smell that you'd left, same old chores and timetable begins to feel irksome but it passes because we tend to forget the past few days of newness since it was a thin veil compared to the veritable thickness of reality.
This too shall pass as they say.
bits and bobs
To coffee or not to coffee but before you answer let me make you aware that I've already had a small cup after lunch and yet somehow I still crave it.
What madness be this?
I'm not sure if it's the coffee I feel like drinking or its aroma that I want wafting around me because I most certainly like the way it smells and all the residual beans get filled into a jar and sit in my washroom scenting that space like Starbucks which does at times confuse many a guest.
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I have reached a certain breaking point of neurosis wherein I've begun weighing sugar by the spoonful that I will allow myself to consume each day and I think this might be the onset of some sort of psychological sickness.
Maybe I should talk myself out if it or teach myself to drink sugarless tea and coffee but somehow I need my caffeinated beverages that are exactly two in a day or sometimes three, none exceeding more than 170mls to be sweet. Not sickly sweet but sweet. Say 1.5 tsps per beverage.
Ah, I need to clear my head and contemplate something other than coffee or maybe I'll just say screw it. Who knows?
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I hate that I've lost photoshop and I do not seem to have fallen in love with editing photographs on gimp. It just doesn't have the same comfort for me.
maybe I'll try downloading photoshop on another windows laptop because at this stage with the work that I'm doing it's absolutely necessary.
What madness be this?
I'm not sure if it's the coffee I feel like drinking or its aroma that I want wafting around me because I most certainly like the way it smells and all the residual beans get filled into a jar and sit in my washroom scenting that space like Starbucks which does at times confuse many a guest.
----
I have reached a certain breaking point of neurosis wherein I've begun weighing sugar by the spoonful that I will allow myself to consume each day and I think this might be the onset of some sort of psychological sickness.
Maybe I should talk myself out if it or teach myself to drink sugarless tea and coffee but somehow I need my caffeinated beverages that are exactly two in a day or sometimes three, none exceeding more than 170mls to be sweet. Not sickly sweet but sweet. Say 1.5 tsps per beverage.
Ah, I need to clear my head and contemplate something other than coffee or maybe I'll just say screw it. Who knows?
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I hate that I've lost photoshop and I do not seem to have fallen in love with editing photographs on gimp. It just doesn't have the same comfort for me.
maybe I'll try downloading photoshop on another windows laptop because at this stage with the work that I'm doing it's absolutely necessary.
tell us then
Today started with a frenzy and it's only now I have a moment to myself.
There's work pending and some more work half done and yet more that needs completion and amidst all that I find my curiosity piqued.
One can't leave such cryptic messages.
Details, plot points, spoilers, updates.
I need everything.
There's work pending and some more work half done and yet more that needs completion and amidst all that I find my curiosity piqued.
One can't leave such cryptic messages.
Details, plot points, spoilers, updates.
I need everything.
Wednesday, 24 April 2019
Shut it
There are some fonts I immediately take a dislike to.
It's like the moment I see something written using that/those fonts it makes me quit that page..there are people who speak in those fonts. every word spilling out of their mouth is uttered in that exact font and their pin prick is like a bunch of tooth picks hurtled at my weeping ear.
It's like the moment I see something written using that/those fonts it makes me quit that page..there are people who speak in those fonts. every word spilling out of their mouth is uttered in that exact font and their pin prick is like a bunch of tooth picks hurtled at my weeping ear.
Sleepless thinks
Sometimes I think about the concept of karma and wonder why did we ever come up with a notion so hilarious.
It ceases to be abstract the more I think of it.
Do we expect this universe to have a sense of morality?
Or that its morality agrees with ours?
If that's the case then this universe is a sham and it hasn't made up its mind because it tends to agree with every religion's values and spiritual aesthetics and perhaps being politically correct is its true motive.
It ceases to be abstract the more I think of it.
Do we expect this universe to have a sense of morality?
Or that its morality agrees with ours?
If that's the case then this universe is a sham and it hasn't made up its mind because it tends to agree with every religion's values and spiritual aesthetics and perhaps being politically correct is its true motive.
:/
The stars looks at us all alike, whether we're in gutters or palaces and they don't give a flying fuck cuz they're just gassy masses of plasma going through their own issues.
/-//
My sleep is crowded with waking moments.
Nighttime and the air feels heavy
laden with promises
flimsy yet inviting
Nighttime and the air feels heavy
laden with promises
flimsy yet inviting
Duality
Getting live updates of a cousin's marriage complete with photographs and gossips is why I sometimes miss family events and sometimes I don't.
Problems
My phone won't recognise my face because I'm wearing a sheet mask and now I've to push in random numbers to unlock my phone like a barbarian.
Anticlimactic
It's precisely when you're on the lookout for something specific that you can't ever find it.
Case in point my quest for random fabrics and other materials that I'm looking for and to say that it's been a successful attempt at foraging would be an overstatement of sorts because I have only been mostly underwhelmed by the things I've come across .
I thought I could find some tablecloths that approximated the image in my head and I was wrong, I thought I'd find some table mats with a woodsy aura and I found most things made of plastic that imitated the wooden finish and I don't do plastic so that wasn't happening.
I was also looking for a crochet piece which I found in either paper or plastic so that was a no go.
There was a certain recycled paper rough edged textured sheets that I knew would exist except it was available as a plastic table cover and I think I want to give up on plastic altogether. It's bothersome.
I did find some wonderful pieces of China and slate plates that I've made a mental note of to buy once I'm back from my travels because the combined weight of those was a bit much to lug back on a leisurely walk and so I think next time I'll bring a larger bag and buy them.
What I did find however was poster sized textured sheets of sketching paper and I think I'd like to experiment photographing with those because they're non reflective surfaces and I've worked with them before also.
Found a large bamboo pillow case that paralleled the wooden textured background I had in mind however it's not the exact shade of wood I was looking for but I'll give it a shot.
Also bought some monochromatic table mats that I have a feeling might not be large enough for my artistic endeavours but we shall see.
Now I sit in a coffee shop that is really a truck with two chairs laid outside and watching the world nonchalantly go by because I don't feel like returning back just now.
Case in point my quest for random fabrics and other materials that I'm looking for and to say that it's been a successful attempt at foraging would be an overstatement of sorts because I have only been mostly underwhelmed by the things I've come across .
I thought I could find some tablecloths that approximated the image in my head and I was wrong, I thought I'd find some table mats with a woodsy aura and I found most things made of plastic that imitated the wooden finish and I don't do plastic so that wasn't happening.
I was also looking for a crochet piece which I found in either paper or plastic so that was a no go.
There was a certain recycled paper rough edged textured sheets that I knew would exist except it was available as a plastic table cover and I think I want to give up on plastic altogether. It's bothersome.
I did find some wonderful pieces of China and slate plates that I've made a mental note of to buy once I'm back from my travels because the combined weight of those was a bit much to lug back on a leisurely walk and so I think next time I'll bring a larger bag and buy them.
What I did find however was poster sized textured sheets of sketching paper and I think I'd like to experiment photographing with those because they're non reflective surfaces and I've worked with them before also.
Found a large bamboo pillow case that paralleled the wooden textured background I had in mind however it's not the exact shade of wood I was looking for but I'll give it a shot.
Also bought some monochromatic table mats that I have a feeling might not be large enough for my artistic endeavours but we shall see.
Now I sit in a coffee shop that is really a truck with two chairs laid outside and watching the world nonchalantly go by because I don't feel like returning back just now.
Lunch love
It's a lot and I plan on devouring everything.
Morning moods
Today is a no recipe day in that I'm not doing any cooking but getting on with my life and will step out for a bit to find some interesting things that'll aid me in my future photography endeavours.
Let's see I'm already late in the day because I haven't started working out yet because I'm feeling lazy because I've been up since really early and just finished a lot of chores.
Onwards and upwards as they say, and it's raining out so I'm still considering the whole stepping out bit but for some reason I'm hoping that rains wouldn't play a damper on my spirit because I woke up this morning and craved shrimp tempura.
What is even up with these cravings and so I will fill myself up to the gills to keep away from getting tempted but you never know.
I tend to eat a lot and my stomach works overtime in keeping me hungry.
Right, so workout!
I think a bit of Pilates and light strength training is in order today.
Let's see I'm already late in the day because I haven't started working out yet because I'm feeling lazy because I've been up since really early and just finished a lot of chores.
Onwards and upwards as they say, and it's raining out so I'm still considering the whole stepping out bit but for some reason I'm hoping that rains wouldn't play a damper on my spirit because I woke up this morning and craved shrimp tempura.
What is even up with these cravings and so I will fill myself up to the gills to keep away from getting tempted but you never know.
I tend to eat a lot and my stomach works overtime in keeping me hungry.
Right, so workout!
I think a bit of Pilates and light strength training is in order today.
Tuesday, 23 April 2019
Sleep cycles
That time of night again when I just can't sleep.
There's a cycle and I need to figure it out.
There are some days in a week or in fact every fortnight when sleep eludes me for days an end and then there are some lucky days when I get sleep like normal people.
I mean I've been up for almost eighteen hours now, surely there must be some sleep somewhere or maybe my body doesn't tire out enough and perhaps I should keep working late into the night until I'm fatigued enough to call it a day.
Either ways this is an issue that I need to understand.
It's not a recent occurrence either.
I've know for this to happen for almost a decade and it only gets worse sometimes.
Let's see..I didn't sleep until it was almost a couple hours after midnight yesterday, ditto the day before and now today as well.
I think I might need to keep a diary.
There's a cycle and I need to figure it out.
There are some days in a week or in fact every fortnight when sleep eludes me for days an end and then there are some lucky days when I get sleep like normal people.
I mean I've been up for almost eighteen hours now, surely there must be some sleep somewhere or maybe my body doesn't tire out enough and perhaps I should keep working late into the night until I'm fatigued enough to call it a day.
Either ways this is an issue that I need to understand.
It's not a recent occurrence either.
I've know for this to happen for almost a decade and it only gets worse sometimes.
Let's see..I didn't sleep until it was almost a couple hours after midnight yesterday, ditto the day before and now today as well.
I think I might need to keep a diary.
Dim
Nighttime and the lights are dimmed
in a soft warm glow
I watch the cat lick himself to sleep
he watches me
read myself to sleep
distractions that we both need
him out of necessity
Mine out of echoing indifference
in a soft warm glow
I watch the cat lick himself to sleep
he watches me
read myself to sleep
distractions that we both need
him out of necessity
Mine out of echoing indifference
Endeavour samples
Also playing with adjustment of lenses and light.
Chai test
It is a bit sour in a way that some tart apples tend to be and the first thought that comes to mind after the barest whiff of this tea is cinnamon.
Because it's apple streusel, cinnamon had to be the main spice and apart from that it imparts a beautiful colour but the flavour falls short of wonderful tipping the scales in 'ok' range.
Not something I'd buy again.
Indoor greens
Nothing wrong with that or maybe it's just green clutter .
About pics and such
It was after this that I began investigating more and investing a bit extra in photography paraphernalia.
I bought a DSlr, lenses, tripod, reflectors, fabrics and I think I'm going to have to do it all over again.
Food realisations
I wish I hadn't eaten so much because the will to cook anything ebbs.
Today is amaranth vegetables and bean soup with lots of veg.
This will be a vegan/gluten free recipe and I'm planning a trip to the antique market soon to get a nice table because the furniture in this house is too modern and chic that I left no place for rustic in it.
I'm thinking perhaps some fabrics that are more monotone in subdued whites and greys to add to the background.
Maybe some crochet work napkins and now that I look at my crockery I realise how white it all is.
Maybe I'll get a couple of colourful bowls. But not too colourful cuz I can't eat in coloured plates and bowls.
I have that in mind for now but let's see how it evolves.
Looking at food websites is a good idea but the point is those ideas rarely translate into reality, also I have a lot of pictures in various food sites.
I'm a regular on foodgawker.
It was this site which made me realise that clicking food pictures is no joke and I've tried to up the click game consistently ever since but even so I feel like I do lack in pizzazz department.
Instead of letting food do the talking in food photos the setup, background and arrangement has taken precedence no matter the food and so now perhaps I need to add that to my pics as well.
Today is amaranth vegetables and bean soup with lots of veg.
This will be a vegan/gluten free recipe and I'm planning a trip to the antique market soon to get a nice table because the furniture in this house is too modern and chic that I left no place for rustic in it.
I'm thinking perhaps some fabrics that are more monotone in subdued whites and greys to add to the background.
Maybe some crochet work napkins and now that I look at my crockery I realise how white it all is.
Maybe I'll get a couple of colourful bowls. But not too colourful cuz I can't eat in coloured plates and bowls.
I have that in mind for now but let's see how it evolves.
Looking at food websites is a good idea but the point is those ideas rarely translate into reality, also I have a lot of pictures in various food sites.
I'm a regular on foodgawker.
It was this site which made me realise that clicking food pictures is no joke and I've tried to up the click game consistently ever since but even so I feel like I do lack in pizzazz department.
Instead of letting food do the talking in food photos the setup, background and arrangement has taken precedence no matter the food and so now perhaps I need to add that to my pics as well.
Late lunch
Semolina batter with yogurt and lots of vegetables with tofu and spices cooked to a crisp on a pan topped with fresh mozzarella cheese and lashings of sriracha.
Sugarless
Say one thing about coconut sugar say it tastes horrendous in coffee.
I felt like a small cup while prepping for my lunch and put in a bit of coconut sugar because I'm feeling righteous and I'd rather just drink coffee without any sweetener now.
I felt like a small cup while prepping for my lunch and put in a bit of coconut sugar because I'm feeling righteous and I'd rather just drink coffee without any sweetener now.
Crave crunchy crisp
I woke up and craved a crunchy pancake.
Something like a chilla but crispier.
I think I'm going to make something delicious, pancake like and with lots of veg and tofu.
Get my roughage and protein for the day and some level of satisfaction too.
The point is how to make something crispy without the addition of extra fat?
Maybe make it in semolina?
Something like a chilla but crispier.
I think I'm going to make something delicious, pancake like and with lots of veg and tofu.
Get my roughage and protein for the day and some level of satisfaction too.
The point is how to make something crispy without the addition of extra fat?
Maybe make it in semolina?
Sweat sweat
It'll take me at least half as much time to get back on track as the time off I took from workouts.
If there was another way to get fit, build muscle and stay lean without working out I'd definitely do it.like say there were some miracle pills.
Ah, then the entire world would be a fitter place.
Monday, 22 April 2019
Night doll
It's a highway to hell
that opens up in heaven
much like the gutters
that join
a holy river
I hope these nights
bland and basic
serve a higher purpose
to dispatch me
at the altars
of a budding universe
that opens up in heaven
much like the gutters
that join
a holy river
I hope these nights
bland and basic
serve a higher purpose
to dispatch me
at the altars
of a budding universe
Sisyphus kiss
I wish it didn't have to happen
But each night it does
the burden of sleep
that is obliged to bury me
each night
so that I wake up on time
the next day
and begin the morning
by chopping vegetables
toasting breads
warming milk
feeding cat
packing lunches
making breakfasts
begin anew
with a clean slate
and scrawl on it
the same affirmations
the previous night
had washed away
But each night it does
the burden of sleep
that is obliged to bury me
each night
so that I wake up on time
the next day
and begin the morning
by chopping vegetables
toasting breads
warming milk
feeding cat
packing lunches
making breakfasts
begin anew
with a clean slate
and scrawl on it
the same affirmations
the previous night
had washed away
Thoughts
Tomorrow is another day another recipe.
My entire issue is not with the recipes but with the photographs .
I need for them to tell a story but somehow I'm
Unable to exactly showcase my thoughts in my image.
I spent an entire day fiddling with photos today but the end result was a bit disappointing.
I think and I never thought I'd say this but I need some more props .
In that a few more fabrics, textured base and instead of letting the images talk I need to coax them to sing and for that a bit of pomp is necessary .
I know I know who am I even? Right?
But these aren't for my food blog and even those images I try and make them pop out but it also depends on the food and what I'm cooking tomorrow is not known for its beauty but its heartiness.
So yes I think a bit in the nature of going all out is needed.
My entire issue is not with the recipes but with the photographs .
I need for them to tell a story but somehow I'm
Unable to exactly showcase my thoughts in my image.
I spent an entire day fiddling with photos today but the end result was a bit disappointing.
I think and I never thought I'd say this but I need some more props .
In that a few more fabrics, textured base and instead of letting the images talk I need to coax them to sing and for that a bit of pomp is necessary .
I know I know who am I even? Right?
But these aren't for my food blog and even those images I try and make them pop out but it also depends on the food and what I'm cooking tomorrow is not known for its beauty but its heartiness.
So yes I think a bit in the nature of going all out is needed.
back from outer space
In other news, I'm finally at my desk.
It's been a while.
To think I was almost getting used to working on my dining table all these days.
It just didnt' feel right to sit on my worktable when my heart wasn't solely dedicated to working, but that has changed and I feel better.
It's been a while.
To think I was almost getting used to working on my dining table all these days.
It just didnt' feel right to sit on my worktable when my heart wasn't solely dedicated to working, but that has changed and I feel better.
madness this
Say one thing about today, say it feels like tomorrow.
I stare at my fridge that feels like it's been stuffed by a maniac hoarding for the apocalypse because how does one stop themselves from going full mental at the wet market and that was my mistake because I will be gone for ten days come next week and that means I have to finish al the crazy produce I've greedily bought by Saturday.
Alright, it won't be easy but not impossible and so gear up for heaps upon heaps of vegetables because roughage is all it's going to be at the next few days.
What did I get myself into?
I stare at my fridge that feels like it's been stuffed by a maniac hoarding for the apocalypse because how does one stop themselves from going full mental at the wet market and that was my mistake because I will be gone for ten days come next week and that means I have to finish al the crazy produce I've greedily bought by Saturday.
Alright, it won't be easy but not impossible and so gear up for heaps upon heaps of vegetables because roughage is all it's going to be at the next few days.
What did I get myself into?
Uneasy
In fact the easier think it might be the harder it is to get through.
Tomorrow I will have to try a new approach.
But hey!
One down!
A hundred or so more to go.
Groan
No sleep for the wicked even when they toss and turn waiting for night to turn into day.
Tonight my bed isn't the right fit.
Tonight my bed isn't the right fit.
Sunday, 21 April 2019
Nightmiss
Nighttime and the heart creaks
each time
it lets out a beat
weary as it is
from being on the verge of
aches this week
each time
it lets out a beat
weary as it is
from being on the verge of
aches this week
Cravings
This is hardly the time to crave limoncello and yet here we are.
I stare at the golden bottle of yellow oomph and wonder is it really that late?
I stare at the golden bottle of yellow oomph and wonder is it really that late?
Lost times
There was a time a thousand years ago when I spent almost a week in Chandigarh and why suddenly I remember going to a superstore called RLCR in sector 18 wherein I'd bought a tub of mascarpone cheese and some provolone along with some Italian salami which didn't turn out to be so good but it wasn't bad and all this to cook a small Italian dinner in the guest house is because I just came across that entry in a small diary from that time which also includes a small map on how to reach the market and wise cracks about stereo nation with whom I'd been touring through Punjab.
What was that life?
I can only remember through diary entries.
What was that life?
I can only remember through diary entries.
:)
Now those would be some flower arrangements I'd like to see.
You slay me, oh you slay me over and over.
You slay me, oh you slay me over and over.
Eye roll
I cannot absolutely cannot abide by desi patriotic movies .
It's rather eat bland food for a week than watch 'Uri' but that's just me and sometimes this house isn't a democracy .
It's rather eat bland food for a week than watch 'Uri' but that's just me and sometimes this house isn't a democracy .
What on earth?
South India cinema is colossally awful.
Sure it's professional and the ideas are often different but for whatever reason there are some underlying nuances that are at absolute odds with most of the value system I know and seem to have been brought up with.
For starters they are all mostly misogynist where the male lead often stalks, threatens to hit, aggressively proposes, assaults and even insults the woman he loves and the woman in turn finds it all the more alluring and ends up falling in love with the said man.
Also his love interest finds it thrilling when the lead actor heartlessly beats up, even murders other men in front of her.
How bloody romantic.
Every actor no matter how far or out of shape is Thanos on steroids.
I don't know how that comes to be?
Movies start from point A and end at a fraction on another planet.
Killing and mauling is absolutely run of the mill. Everyone is doing it because what's even law and order?
Men have this incessant need to protect everyone .
Why? Because they're men or because they don't think anyone can be equal.
It's like patriarchy on loudspeaker and no, I'm not an SJW or third wave feminist. It's just that these are themes which are mostly redundant and hold no water these days or at least the portrayal should be such.
Sure it's professional and the ideas are often different but for whatever reason there are some underlying nuances that are at absolute odds with most of the value system I know and seem to have been brought up with.
For starters they are all mostly misogynist where the male lead often stalks, threatens to hit, aggressively proposes, assaults and even insults the woman he loves and the woman in turn finds it all the more alluring and ends up falling in love with the said man.
Also his love interest finds it thrilling when the lead actor heartlessly beats up, even murders other men in front of her.
How bloody romantic.
Every actor no matter how far or out of shape is Thanos on steroids.
I don't know how that comes to be?
Movies start from point A and end at a fraction on another planet.
Killing and mauling is absolutely run of the mill. Everyone is doing it because what's even law and order?
Men have this incessant need to protect everyone .
Why? Because they're men or because they don't think anyone can be equal.
It's like patriarchy on loudspeaker and no, I'm not an SJW or third wave feminist. It's just that these are themes which are mostly redundant and hold no water these days or at least the portrayal should be such.
Sighs galore
Why does it feel nice to know that I've a lipstick in the exact same shade as the gorgeousness you currently wear, my darling.
How many did you slay today?
How many did you slay today?
Night a heart
Now now darling night
would you not be so trite
and come dressed in something nice
perhaps a new star bright
as I've seen you
all too many times
to pick out when exactly
you're going to let me fight
or when you'd overpower me
with your dreamy might
would you not be so trite
and come dressed in something nice
perhaps a new star bright
as I've seen you
all too many times
to pick out when exactly
you're going to let me fight
or when you'd overpower me
with your dreamy might
Night tunes
My days fire away
with the energy
of a livid sun
the recoil
from the grinding gun
hurtles me back
amidst spent casings
of empty nights
with the energy
of a livid sun
the recoil
from the grinding gun
hurtles me back
amidst spent casings
of empty nights
Saturday, 20 April 2019
Friday, 19 April 2019
Misses
The tugging of my belt
The pulling of my pants
shirt scrunched in a pile
and not for a moment
Did I think of the mess
we let ourselves into
on a non complaining bed
where clothes were sent flying
in blessed directions
To sanctify that time
spent in satiating
an inconceivable notion
that came to happen
The pulling of my pants
shirt scrunched in a pile
and not for a moment
Did I think of the mess
we let ourselves into
on a non complaining bed
where clothes were sent flying
in blessed directions
To sanctify that time
spent in satiating
an inconceivable notion
that came to happen
Shunted
Does it come far too often
Much too soon this blighted night
Different yet same
And I sit on the same side of bed
Talking of nights
Hating and loving
Balancing
wishing dreaming knowing full well
It won't change
and maybe that's alright too
Much too soon this blighted night
Different yet same
And I sit on the same side of bed
Talking of nights
Hating and loving
Balancing
wishing dreaming knowing full well
It won't change
and maybe that's alright too
Night
Who me?
Just cancelling on Friday night plans because I'm so not in the mood to go out and isn't staying in the new going out anyways?
Also I don't feel like dressing up and stepping out tonight. Just one of those days.
I know I know it's so unlike me but uhhh I feel exhausted.
Just cancelling on Friday night plans because I'm so not in the mood to go out and isn't staying in the new going out anyways?
Also I don't feel like dressing up and stepping out tonight. Just one of those days.
I know I know it's so unlike me but uhhh I feel exhausted.
Needs
Weird cravings.
I want to eat fatafat!
Haven't eaten it in years and suddenly my tongue seeks the taste.
I want to eat fatafat!
Haven't eaten it in years and suddenly my tongue seeks the taste.
About foods
Hearts abundant for encouraging words. You're the petrol to my morale.
these aren't really beginner or intermediate starter meal pack.
These are compilations of healthy recipes.
Ones that are nutritionally dense and compensate for repetitive meals that we do not always want to eat.
Moreover there are more chapters which include sauces, breads, desserts etc and having those handy makes these preparations easier .
Basically it's like a ladder with different chapters that makes cooking more versatile, healthier and varied.
I have coined the term 'fit meals' for these recipes I posted but that's open to changes.
It's a beta version and I'm going I eliminate some, add some and make a final blue print.
It's inclusive in that there are vegan, gluten free, vegetarian and meat options.
It's a lot of madness but I think it's high time I put it out there.
these aren't really beginner or intermediate starter meal pack.
These are compilations of healthy recipes.
Ones that are nutritionally dense and compensate for repetitive meals that we do not always want to eat.
Moreover there are more chapters which include sauces, breads, desserts etc and having those handy makes these preparations easier .
Basically it's like a ladder with different chapters that makes cooking more versatile, healthier and varied.
I have coined the term 'fit meals' for these recipes I posted but that's open to changes.
It's a beta version and I'm going I eliminate some, add some and make a final blue print.
It's inclusive in that there are vegan, gluten free, vegetarian and meat options.
It's a lot of madness but I think it's high time I put it out there.
Cont..
Sample set
Morning post
The kind of morning that makes me wonder whether I should call it a day or run headlong into making this dreary darkness a fabulous weekend.
There are questions, there are confusions and I have recipes to compile.
Very soon I'll start my food blog endeavours as well along with other things and my excuse that I've been unwell holds no water anymore because I'm much better now.
I never want to forget those moments of sickness because I don't want to take my health for granted. Granted it was just common cold but a long spell like this is most uncommon for me and I have to learn to respect and understand the environs I am in to stay as far as possible from similar such situations because it's a waste of valuable time, loss of energy and it bothers me that I haven't been able to work out ever since I returned from my trip.
Everything that needs rectifying begins today.
—-
I have been asking dozens of people about their food habits, things they'd like to eat during moments of health bouts, post and pre workout meals, snacks, healthy meals and I have not received very encouraging answers.
For one, few people like to cook food these days.
What on earth is going on with our generation and the new crops are worse because of the swiggy's and ubers and foodpandas and zomato.
Ones that don't order out eat a lot of processed frozen foods like sausages and salami's and the influx of so called health foods in market which is actually a disguise for horrible unhealthy sugar laden foods is consumed by our average health nut and they're all the more happy for it because it still beats cooking.
'It's very stressful to cook' one person told me.
'Making roti is too much work' another told me.
'I just order salads cuz I like to eat healthy' was another reply.
'We usually just order out' was a common reply.
'You think I'm gonna cook?' Was an odd question.
'I just eat whatever our Maharaj makes' still okay I guess but I know for a fact that family goes through drums of refined oil.
'I don't mind cooking once in a while' I was told with a righteous tone.
It's funny how the same people will message me to ask idiotic things like how many calories does a brownie have? Or is it okay to eat multigrain bread sold in markets?
But no one will bother rectifying or at least attempt a conversion to a better lifestyle just because it means more work.
But what do I care?
I mean I do but what of it?
There are questions, there are confusions and I have recipes to compile.
Very soon I'll start my food blog endeavours as well along with other things and my excuse that I've been unwell holds no water anymore because I'm much better now.
I never want to forget those moments of sickness because I don't want to take my health for granted. Granted it was just common cold but a long spell like this is most uncommon for me and I have to learn to respect and understand the environs I am in to stay as far as possible from similar such situations because it's a waste of valuable time, loss of energy and it bothers me that I haven't been able to work out ever since I returned from my trip.
Everything that needs rectifying begins today.
—-
I have been asking dozens of people about their food habits, things they'd like to eat during moments of health bouts, post and pre workout meals, snacks, healthy meals and I have not received very encouraging answers.
For one, few people like to cook food these days.
What on earth is going on with our generation and the new crops are worse because of the swiggy's and ubers and foodpandas and zomato.
Ones that don't order out eat a lot of processed frozen foods like sausages and salami's and the influx of so called health foods in market which is actually a disguise for horrible unhealthy sugar laden foods is consumed by our average health nut and they're all the more happy for it because it still beats cooking.
'It's very stressful to cook' one person told me.
'Making roti is too much work' another told me.
'I just order salads cuz I like to eat healthy' was another reply.
'We usually just order out' was a common reply.
'You think I'm gonna cook?' Was an odd question.
'I just eat whatever our Maharaj makes' still okay I guess but I know for a fact that family goes through drums of refined oil.
'I don't mind cooking once in a while' I was told with a righteous tone.
It's funny how the same people will message me to ask idiotic things like how many calories does a brownie have? Or is it okay to eat multigrain bread sold in markets?
But no one will bother rectifying or at least attempt a conversion to a better lifestyle just because it means more work.
But what do I care?
I mean I do but what of it?
Thursday, 18 April 2019
Yum Yum
Absolutely gorge!!
The blue and the yellow set a perfect tone and mango motifs seem to bring it all together.
The purple toned magenta is fantastic too.
Good picks I must say.
Will need to see a full picture soon. The whole works top to bottom.
The blue and the yellow set a perfect tone and mango motifs seem to bring it all together.
The purple toned magenta is fantastic too.
Good picks I must say.
Will need to see a full picture soon. The whole works top to bottom.
Waka waka
I just fail to understand the concept of Wakanda.
It's like tribals with nanotechnology or something.
Having said that they are all pretty fit with gorgeous skin, an impeccable taste in fashion and they know how to colour coordinate their outfits really well.
It's like tribals with nanotechnology or something.
Having said that they are all pretty fit with gorgeous skin, an impeccable taste in fashion and they know how to colour coordinate their outfits really well.
Q’s
As a man who finds himself in alien territory when he enters a kitchen what are the sorts of food cooking/prep/meal plans that you'd be willing to partake in?
Uhh
Who me?
Neck deep in recipes and I've compiled around 115 of those.
Now all I have to do is make them.
Neck deep in recipes and I've compiled around 115 of those.
Now all I have to do is make them.
Get on with the program
I have just spent two hours watching a Japanese series on Netflix called 'my husband won't fit' and it's exactly what you think.
Why am I watching it instead of getting on with my work is beyond me, but perhaps because it's fun and extremely well made and just strange but what else was one to expect?
Why am I watching it instead of getting on with my work is beyond me, but perhaps because it's fun and extremely well made and just strange but what else was one to expect?
Pains
They have a lovely lawn, a luxury every ground floor resident has claims to and yet for the past almost one year ever since they moved in this lawn has been in such shambles.
By the looks of it they were prepared to embark on a grand setup something they probably gave up on before it even began assembling.
A case of gargantuan aspirations and weak will?
Hit the morning running
It's on days when I resolve to wake up earlier than usual that I almost always wake up late.
Case in point this morning when I made my internal clock promise me to wake me up at five but instead it pushed me out of bed after six and that's when my lunch plans didn't wholly go as planned.
Before I begin let me talk a bit about lunches that I pack in the morning.
Usually, almost six times out of ten they need no prior meal prep that is if they're sandwiches or fried rice or noodle salad etc and the ingredients are immediately available in the fridge or pantry they can be used just as.
A bit like plug and play but many a times when the lunches are in the nature of salads that involve legumes that need soaking and boiling like chickpeas, lentils etc or even black rice and such then the prep has to be done a day in advance.
Same for dishes like Idli or dosa for which the batter has to be made prior to the day of preparation.
I'd planned on making falafels for lunch today because that way even I can have the same for my meal..I'd been craving it and thusly yesterday was spent making yeasted whole wheat bread dough for pita and soaking chickpeas for falafel, the rest of the accoutrements like sliced vegetables for filling could be taken care of this morning, morning which I didn't wake up on time and so with the manic speed of sound I hit pots and pans, doing a bit of dj work on all my hobs with falafels getting cooked in one pan and pita breads on another I regretted not being early enough to get everything done in advance.
I had exactly forty five minutes in which I'd to prepare at least two pita breads.
Make at least half a dozen falafels
Make the sauce
Chop vegetables that were avocado and cucumber
Assemble everything into pita pockets
Pack into lunchbox.
And oh, cooking breakfast was not an option this morning.
Right, so the assembly couldn't be done even though I prepared and chopped all that I could on time and what I eventually packed was a deconstructed version of falafel, wherein all the elements were individually packed and all that was needed during lunchtime was a bit of DIY.
How does one exhaust themselves so early in the morning?
I'll tell you. Wrong decisions, failure to set up alarm. Irresponsible behaviour and taking time for granted.
However I now have the leisure to rectify these errors and make myself a languorous, luxurious meal.
Case in point this morning when I made my internal clock promise me to wake me up at five but instead it pushed me out of bed after six and that's when my lunch plans didn't wholly go as planned.
Before I begin let me talk a bit about lunches that I pack in the morning.
Usually, almost six times out of ten they need no prior meal prep that is if they're sandwiches or fried rice or noodle salad etc and the ingredients are immediately available in the fridge or pantry they can be used just as.
A bit like plug and play but many a times when the lunches are in the nature of salads that involve legumes that need soaking and boiling like chickpeas, lentils etc or even black rice and such then the prep has to be done a day in advance.
Same for dishes like Idli or dosa for which the batter has to be made prior to the day of preparation.
I'd planned on making falafels for lunch today because that way even I can have the same for my meal..I'd been craving it and thusly yesterday was spent making yeasted whole wheat bread dough for pita and soaking chickpeas for falafel, the rest of the accoutrements like sliced vegetables for filling could be taken care of this morning, morning which I didn't wake up on time and so with the manic speed of sound I hit pots and pans, doing a bit of dj work on all my hobs with falafels getting cooked in one pan and pita breads on another I regretted not being early enough to get everything done in advance.
I had exactly forty five minutes in which I'd to prepare at least two pita breads.
Make at least half a dozen falafels
Make the sauce
Chop vegetables that were avocado and cucumber
Assemble everything into pita pockets
Pack into lunchbox.
And oh, cooking breakfast was not an option this morning.
Right, so the assembly couldn't be done even though I prepared and chopped all that I could on time and what I eventually packed was a deconstructed version of falafel, wherein all the elements were individually packed and all that was needed during lunchtime was a bit of DIY.
How does one exhaust themselves so early in the morning?
I'll tell you. Wrong decisions, failure to set up alarm. Irresponsible behaviour and taking time for granted.
However I now have the leisure to rectify these errors and make myself a languorous, luxurious meal.
Wednesday, 17 April 2019
Glimmer
The light of night
sets me alight
with tiny sparks
of shivering jolts
that is your name
in secret morse
sets me alight
with tiny sparks
of shivering jolts
that is your name
in secret morse
Re: answers
There were answers and some pointers, some information all too endearing.
Chicken breast, fruits, nuts, caffeine.
Got it!
I only ask because I'm currently compiling a list of recipes and it's good to know what people look for when they talk of pre or post workout meals or what they'd like to eat in terms of nutrition and diet.
Makhane is a good addition. Personally I love them too. Roasted and spiced.
Chicken breast, fruits, nuts, caffeine.
Got it!
I only ask because I'm currently compiling a list of recipes and it's good to know what people look for when they talk of pre or post workout meals or what they'd like to eat in terms of nutrition and diet.
Makhane is a good addition. Personally I love them too. Roasted and spiced.
Dichotomy
Fire needed, should be tepid at best
Coolness wanted that's slightly warm
Open your heart but not too much
tell me everything silently
scream, my love, in whispers please
hold me tight and keep it loose
your laughter is best when it's a smile
let's talk while I snore
Coolness wanted that's slightly warm
Open your heart but not too much
tell me everything silently
scream, my love, in whispers please
hold me tight and keep it loose
your laughter is best when it's a smile
let's talk while I snore
Dreams
I wish sometimes
there was no one around
And I could sleep till late
Naked in bed
and wake you up with a message
an urgency to talk
and we could both be staring
At our phones
smiling
there was no one around
And I could sleep till late
Naked in bed
and wake you up with a message
an urgency to talk
and we could both be staring
At our phones
smiling
Answers
I've been meaning to ask talking of recipes what are the kind of foods, meals, soups, snacks or smoothies do you like pre or post workout or an ideal easy meal that you might want to eat in your lunchbox?
What kind of breakfast do you love or one that you'd most definitely like to eat?
Tell me everything.
What kind of breakfast do you love or one that you'd most definitely like to eat?
Tell me everything.
Herbs and spices
:(
My throat somehow never got to being bad and for that I'm glad however I keep with the routine of warm salt water gargles every night, having eliminated my nightly teeth brushing, perhaps I can add turmeric to my gargles every now and then.
Twice a week I brush my teeth with turmeric too and add to that turmeric tea each morning, I might need more turmeric I think .
Talking of turmeric, this post uses a lot of that word, I've been meaning to buy fresh haldi rhizomes to add into curry bases but I think they're not as readily available here. In fact I know for a fact they aren't available here since turmeric isn't a common ingredient for Chinese cooking at all.
My latest trip to Borneo had me visiting their wet market and it blew me away to see mounds of fresh turmeric that was being sold there.
It's common to add a couple inches of fresh turmeric rhizome into Malay cuisine while making varied curries into their cooking base which includes a lot of curry leaves, lemongrass and shrimp paste and the end result tastes divine.
Pandan!
Now that's another flavour I have over the years come to love.
It's a leaf really, you can see them standing vivid green upright in a bucket in this pic and they've a sweet aroma that goes so well with desserts, beverages and even rice.
I have a good lot of dried Pandan leaves but not easy buying fresh ones here either.
Ah, sigh.
T time
Drinking what promises to be a throat soothing orange infused caffeine free herbal tea but somehow it smells like one of those orange candies we had as kids which makes me crave an orange ice lolly.
Phone wink
The thing about these new strain of phones is that there is no fingerprint recognition and somehow I've had a horrible experience with the whole fingerprint business.
I don't like staring at the phone to unlock it either and it unlocks with my side profile too.
I don't know if I like this phone yet but I'm sure it'll grow on me..
I know dying will definitively quell most of my worries and were someone to unlock the phone over my freshly dead body I'm sure it wouldn't be any of my problem but by the heavens it'll give my biographer a whole lot of delicious nuggets of juicy gossip.
I don't like staring at the phone to unlock it either and it unlocks with my side profile too.
I don't know if I like this phone yet but I'm sure it'll grow on me..
I know dying will definitively quell most of my worries and were someone to unlock the phone over my freshly dead body I'm sure it wouldn't be any of my problem but by the heavens it'll give my biographer a whole lot of delicious nuggets of juicy gossip.
Medication time
It's all rather confusing for me seeing how I can barely discern any flavours currently but the taste buds are in a bit of overdrive with their cravings albeit they have poor understanding as of now, but hopefully that will change.
Burn baby burn
Perhaps a roasted pepper sandwich with a middle eastern flare .
Maybe tahini and yogurt spread .
Can't decide but look at these gorgeous colours soon to be charred.
Hmm
I think of the futility of this face recognition software.
Anyone could unlock my phone hovering over my dead body.
Anyone could unlock my phone hovering over my dead body.
Happy and sad
I breathed through my nose the entire night and for a moment this morning whiffed everything.
Burning toast, banana, morning sandalwood incense, rosemary, Hugo Boss, composting bucket, orange peels, last night's spinach and mushroom curry, ashwagandha tea, hand wash, residual coffee in knock box, fabric softener, lemon scented floor cleaner and I rejoiced.
Delighted with all that I could discern, running from room to room, sticking my face inside cupboards, holding soap bars to my nose, smelling body milk's, inhaling deep the aromas of fruits.
Jubilant as I was, this happiness was short lived because just a short while later as I whistled while mopping the floors my nasal congestion slowly came back, like a forlorn mountain trekker returning to base camp and all the odours and aromas I could spy began vanishing and now I hold a cup of chai, inhaling deep its gingery vapours that my brain refuses to register.
Burning toast, banana, morning sandalwood incense, rosemary, Hugo Boss, composting bucket, orange peels, last night's spinach and mushroom curry, ashwagandha tea, hand wash, residual coffee in knock box, fabric softener, lemon scented floor cleaner and I rejoiced.
Delighted with all that I could discern, running from room to room, sticking my face inside cupboards, holding soap bars to my nose, smelling body milk's, inhaling deep the aromas of fruits.
Jubilant as I was, this happiness was short lived because just a short while later as I whistled while mopping the floors my nasal congestion slowly came back, like a forlorn mountain trekker returning to base camp and all the odours and aromas I could spy began vanishing and now I hold a cup of chai, inhaling deep its gingery vapours that my brain refuses to register.
Morning gamble
Sunlit skies
momentarily
the greying clouds
Trespass
like liquid cement
they begin
to solidify
it's a game of chance
will it stay bright
Or will this morning
turn into night
momentarily
the greying clouds
Trespass
like liquid cement
they begin
to solidify
it's a game of chance
will it stay bright
Or will this morning
turn into night
Tuesday, 16 April 2019
Soulheart
Not only did you kiss my lips
but you traced my heart with your tongue
and nibbled at all my wishes
drenching my needs with your cum
but you traced my heart with your tongue
and nibbled at all my wishes
drenching my needs with your cum
Two tone
A folding table that doubles as a piece of art.
I absolutely adore!
Also love how retro its vibe is. Something to be said about perfect looking squares layered with shades of same.
I absolutely adore!
Also love how retro its vibe is. Something to be said about perfect looking squares layered with shades of same.
Sweets
The cat and I share a strong bond, that of love and apathy but I do draw a line and a straight one at that at him smelling like kitty litter and that is exactly what he was smelling of which is to say literal shit even though I was unable to discern it owing to my clogged nasal passage but an exaggerated 'eew' emitting from another life form co existing in this house made me fill up the tub and dunk poor kitty in it because not only was he stinking but he was also dirty, like he'd just vacationed in a landfill and now my darling indifferent little fiend has take being aloof to new heights because not only is he upset but also ignores my every effort at placating him.
Al I want for us is to be our normal copacetic selves wherein he neglects me with a bit more panache as opposed to this absolute cruel callowness.
Oh come dear cat, know I love you.
I love you..you do know that.
Hearts always.
Al I want for us is to be our normal copacetic selves wherein he neglects me with a bit more panache as opposed to this absolute cruel callowness.
Oh come dear cat, know I love you.
I love you..you do know that.
Hearts always.
Shrugs
Found my journal on the dining table this morning and got a bit of a stroke only to later realise I'd woken in the middle of the night and fished it out to write something which somehow makes no sense right now.
Inner talks
That I want to chomp down my weight in pizza is saying something.
It's just this need to eat something crusty, cheesy even though I'm unable to discern flavours and tastes but cravings are mad aren't they?
A large bowl of oats with fruits is hardly the kind of meal I subscribe to but so angry was I at myself, my nasal congestion, my stupid condition that I scarfed down a whole lot of oats as a punishment and now my body seeks vengeance with cravings.
It's been an unproductive day and I have nothing save self loathing derision reserved for me.
The anger I've been feeling for myself the past few weeks has been mounting and I'm this close to a meltdown.
I don't know how to get past it.
I can't seem to focus and I don't want to pity myself.
There's no space for feeling sorry for my own stupidity and I'm angry for all that I'm not doing right now, yet the drive to make it alright isn't gaining momentum and how long am I going to keep telling myself that my sickness is to blame?
It's just this need to eat something crusty, cheesy even though I'm unable to discern flavours and tastes but cravings are mad aren't they?
A large bowl of oats with fruits is hardly the kind of meal I subscribe to but so angry was I at myself, my nasal congestion, my stupid condition that I scarfed down a whole lot of oats as a punishment and now my body seeks vengeance with cravings.
It's been an unproductive day and I have nothing save self loathing derision reserved for me.
The anger I've been feeling for myself the past few weeks has been mounting and I'm this close to a meltdown.
I don't know how to get past it.
I can't seem to focus and I don't want to pity myself.
There's no space for feeling sorry for my own stupidity and I'm angry for all that I'm not doing right now, yet the drive to make it alright isn't gaining momentum and how long am I going to keep telling myself that my sickness is to blame?
Bloody hell
I'm not happy with the fact that I'm still breathing through my mouth and that I can barely smell anything still.
I mean yes I'm fine but not entirely and it's a bit of a bother because it's been almost a week.
I can't imagine why I'm supposed to stay this choked up anymore.
I am resolved to see a doctor if I don't regain my sense of smell in another couple days.
I mean yes I'm fine but not entirely and it's a bit of a bother because it's been almost a week.
I can't imagine why I'm supposed to stay this choked up anymore.
I am resolved to see a doctor if I don't regain my sense of smell in another couple days.
Monday, 15 April 2019
Nightlight
Hungry it ate
feasted till late
belly full
It swallowed today
until the light
was all but night
and so it ends
a billion different ways
feasted till late
belly full
It swallowed today
until the light
was all but night
and so it ends
a billion different ways
Celfee
That I can see
mango motifs
swirling around
your delicious bosom
a smile to kill
a smirk to die
the heart is greedy
help it survive
mango motifs
swirling around
your delicious bosom
a smile to kill
a smirk to die
the heart is greedy
help it survive
Uhh
The only problem with lying to yourself is that you know it isn't the truth and that is such a bothersome issue and yet we try, hard.
Tidbits
You know what they say about marriages.
Send pics. Yours I mean. :)
Somehow I was never as vested in my marriage as I was in my brother's and even though life had at that time of that year decided to douse me with everything inflammable and drunkenly danced around me with a flame the entire routine, rituals, days that followed up to the wedding were much fun..could also be due to the fact that I love organising things and perhaps in part because it was my brother who was getting married and I wanted to do everything that I could to make it fabulous, even though most of the times I played his psychiatrist when I wasn't wearing the wedding planner robe, it was rather fun.
It's the hectic madness that I happen to love which was perhaps the reason why I was so attached to my job. Marriages and other such similar functions find everyone is happier spirits which is why even relatives whom you're not particularly fond of come beaming at you with extended arms and how can one not smile at that?
The best way to deal with all this dementia is to dismantle the brain and experience a full body immersion in festivities.
—
Talking of life coach.
This is getting a bit out of hand and I need myself to get into the mix of things.
I find myself getting complacent at times and it's not a good look.
An inner monologue had me shuffling around a few things to get back into the thick of things as they say and I hope to keep the momentum alive for as long as I can.
End of this month will have me travel to South Korea for about ten days and I intend on getting a goodly bit of work done and out of the way.
—
I refresh like a maniac my darling. I miss thee like an animal.
Send pics. Yours I mean. :)
Somehow I was never as vested in my marriage as I was in my brother's and even though life had at that time of that year decided to douse me with everything inflammable and drunkenly danced around me with a flame the entire routine, rituals, days that followed up to the wedding were much fun..could also be due to the fact that I love organising things and perhaps in part because it was my brother who was getting married and I wanted to do everything that I could to make it fabulous, even though most of the times I played his psychiatrist when I wasn't wearing the wedding planner robe, it was rather fun.
It's the hectic madness that I happen to love which was perhaps the reason why I was so attached to my job. Marriages and other such similar functions find everyone is happier spirits which is why even relatives whom you're not particularly fond of come beaming at you with extended arms and how can one not smile at that?
The best way to deal with all this dementia is to dismantle the brain and experience a full body immersion in festivities.
—
Talking of life coach.
This is getting a bit out of hand and I need myself to get into the mix of things.
I find myself getting complacent at times and it's not a good look.
An inner monologue had me shuffling around a few things to get back into the thick of things as they say and I hope to keep the momentum alive for as long as I can.
End of this month will have me travel to South Korea for about ten days and I intend on getting a goodly bit of work done and out of the way.
—
I refresh like a maniac my darling. I miss thee like an animal.
Argh
Only I can do what I need to do which I'm not doing!!
I need a serious life coach right now who can push me to get things done.
My sickness is almost healing and it's no more an excuse.
Get on with the program which I've planned which I'm procrastinating and running from.
What on earth is my problem?
I need a serious life coach right now who can push me to get things done.
My sickness is almost healing and it's no more an excuse.
Get on with the program which I've planned which I'm procrastinating and running from.
What on earth is my problem?
Morning mess
To say that I was a bleary eyed mess checking a horde of notifications this morning while still embedded in bed, shards of dreams sticking out of my skull and wondering if this is the end would be a statement most accurate because a slew of messages on almost all my messenger apps turned my new phone dyslexic.
It started early this morning when perhaps it was still midnight in motherland and two people whom I happen to know very closely have gone on a tirade of verbal attacks, exchanging a volley of unkind words and threats.
As always the causal root is money. Lots of money and where one party is slandering the other on social media the other is threatening to sue for defamation on the same and the ensuing hatred is all summarised in rather colourful words and sent as lashings of messages which I had the misfortune of reading at around five this morning.
What on earth? Why? To think both the parties are long standing collaborators, fraternising like chums and yet here we are.
The bickering is nonsensical, childish even debased and I wonder why I happen to know such immature people who are almost a decade above me in age.
Can this not be sorted like civilised folks in the privacy of four walls? Washing dirty linen in public and watching its filthy waters flow is perhaps far more satisfying, maybe it gives them a sense of power but for me as someone who is far away from this mess yet always knew that this might eventually happen have no advice, no opinion and no interest whatsoever..however I have suggested they discuss this matter with a good lawyer, one that can help them reach a plausible outcome and weight both pros and cons and thankfully there is one rather able, trusted and level headed lawyer that I know of.
Ah, good morning.
It started early this morning when perhaps it was still midnight in motherland and two people whom I happen to know very closely have gone on a tirade of verbal attacks, exchanging a volley of unkind words and threats.
As always the causal root is money. Lots of money and where one party is slandering the other on social media the other is threatening to sue for defamation on the same and the ensuing hatred is all summarised in rather colourful words and sent as lashings of messages which I had the misfortune of reading at around five this morning.
What on earth? Why? To think both the parties are long standing collaborators, fraternising like chums and yet here we are.
The bickering is nonsensical, childish even debased and I wonder why I happen to know such immature people who are almost a decade above me in age.
Can this not be sorted like civilised folks in the privacy of four walls? Washing dirty linen in public and watching its filthy waters flow is perhaps far more satisfying, maybe it gives them a sense of power but for me as someone who is far away from this mess yet always knew that this might eventually happen have no advice, no opinion and no interest whatsoever..however I have suggested they discuss this matter with a good lawyer, one that can help them reach a plausible outcome and weight both pros and cons and thankfully there is one rather able, trusted and level headed lawyer that I know of.
Ah, good morning.
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