In the pink

Jewellery in a cup
My deliciously fresh carrot, beetroot, ginger and orange juice

Well well

Who me?
Not gloating cuz I finally finished my drawing.
Now to Frame it, hang it and hate all the mistakes I made in it

Oh well yuck

Morning and I have been nursing fever since yesterday afternoon.
Night was a fit of coughing and a strange hot and cold sensation.
Extremely uncomfortable.
I don't remember when I had coughing like this.
I think it was 2019 and I had quite the cold and I hate coughing hate it.
Last night I kept waking up to cough and had a spoonful of ayurvedic tulsi medication every couple hours. The medicine does reduce the coughing fit for a bit which enabled me to sleep.
But sleep was intermittent and there was a moment I woke up in sweat.
I think this was after I had a Crocin around 3 in the AM.
I woke up slightly less feverish and feeling broken in places like I were hit by something massive.
What's this gross feeling ?
The worst is doing any kind of chore which exhausts me.
I tried cleaning the house a bit but gave up midway.
Shower and salt gargles are what my day looks like.

And scene

So it is

I look around my house and it sparkles
It glints
It winks back

Musings lite

Monday and I am decided to clean out my house
Not a simple cleaning but a light declutter as well as changing up the decor some, because I need newness around.
Maybe it's just winter fatigue and the unchanged scenery of the house but I have an itch to find new lamps.
I need to visit an old stuff store for that.
I also have an itch to add more art and I am getting ahead with my drawing and it should be finished in no more than 3-4 sittings.
I am quite determined.

So what's it gonna be today?
A lot of work.
I look forward to it
Maybe I can get high and do it?
No, I'm going to take a short break because I feel good. Not terrible at all.

Apart from that
Yesterday I ate out at a Moroccan restaurant and their serving portions were meant for a family and I don't think I can look at vermicelli with a straight face again in my life.

I wonder if I shouldn't add a pop of colour to my house .

And artwork

Ceramic sculpture

Went to an exposition by a contemporary artist

Bisous

That time of night
When I look for you
Under my lamp light
And find your smile

A fry day

And lunch 

Is a fish fry with some rice 

This is morn

Morning and I woke up late
Why?
I was pinned down by 4 cats and they were snoring and I wasn't ready to break their siesta just so I could get out into the cold and prepare lunch for people.
I let them sleep on me and I slept with them as well.
And here we are.
Woke up late, having tea and listing things for the day.

How is it that I did an upper body yesterday and yet my thighs are sore?

It's a Friday.
What can be done today?
I want to get on with my drawing today
Really need to speed it up. Maybe give myself a dead line :)

In a creamy dressing

Some sun 

Some lunch 

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Say one thing about nights say I miss you

Eats

Who me? 

At an Ethiopian restaurant and it smells heavenly 

It's my first time trying this cuisine. 

So excited 

And it's so nice and warm in here 

Here I am

Who me? 

In a hotel near some Belgium city outskirts cuz people have a meeting. 

So here I am, in a room with a view of nothing 

In a cold city, where fog has engulfed everything, the weather is a delicious -5 and I am about to go out for lunch while people hang out with their office peeps. 

Dear gods

Twinkle brought by a large bird home and I don't know how to tackle this 

Edit:-

The situation is under control. I was somehow able to make this little darling come towards the door as it was frantically trying to escape through the walls. 

There's a few dots of blood on the wall and I went to check outside and it had flown. 

If it's injured I'd have to take it to the vet. 

Or at least people will but for now the little bird is nowhere in sight. 

Phew. 

My stupid head

Say one thing about my mood say it's all over the place
I have been in the worst place in my head the past few days and today it got terrible, so terrible that people had to come home during lunch.
I do not understand why I cannot seem to lock down on my anxiety and spiral to the darkest pits of my head.
I need to fix it to get better to improve and yet here I am being so extremely stupid.
Even now as I tripe this I am crying for what?
Sometimes I almost feel like a lot of problems would end if I stopped existing.
This thought sometimes sends me into such a dark space that I cannot bring myself out of it.

Ugh

What’s it been

Excuse me today was ridiculous
Turns out recording myself making a video is more exhausting than simply making a video alone cuz is two times the trouble.

My new vlog is about my filming process as I think this is an information I'd like to put out there to help someone like me as I was so lost when I started.

So I have been pretty much busy since the word go.
That was my Monday
Now I'm gonna take the garbage out
Just made a simple dinner
And
The rest is tomorrow as they say

The hustle

Tandoori rotis in pizza oven for dinner 

It feels right

It's 8 and I shall drink tea. 

This is how it will be

This bed shall not be made mother! 

For I slumber here and unless I decide to wake up and leave you cannot, you shall not mess with the beddings. My warmth shall otherwise disappear and you will not hear the end of it. 

♥️

One band to rule them all

You remind me

I just had to

Lunch

A load of chow mein

Who me?

Captain

I am the knight
Of this light

Meal time

And lunch
Which is a salmon burger with a side of salad

Seriously ?

Who me?
Hating myself for waking up at 8 when I'd decided to wake up at 5:30 😹

Since people have arrived the waking up in the morning to feed cats and all the little morning things are now being done by them which gives me time to not wake up.
The sweetest sleep that I somehow experience between the morning time after 5 is better than my entire night and also I am lazy, too lazy to dramatically throw away duvets and hurtle into the cold world.
I need some sort of intervention.
I did a pep talk to myself last night and it didn't work.

I need to be desperate now, desperate enough to not want to sleep any longer.
Ugh.
I need to be better.

Cat class

The cat caste system in my house. Nemo on one side, others on the other 

And now

Who me? 

About to be out and about and you? 

On a Saturday

I'm not on the same wavelength as this weather. 

I think I need to get high today. 

I've been nursing low grade headaches for the last few days courtesy my fantastic neck and nerve pinch.

Please just give me a break! 

But it was true

Apparently Instagram removes comments 

Summing up

Say one thing about me say I've been down with demons of my own making

Take for example the evening of 31st when despite feeling the tremors of hyper acidic stomach environ (a battle I deal with off an on and a war I won with great difficulty a few years ago) I drank a cup of tea before going out for the evening.
The revelries of 31st night were good. Not exceptional in that I went to a nice restaurant and had a delicious meal of pesto pistachio fettuccine and yuzu tart with a side of spritz that is some diluted Prosecco, soda and Campari.
Everything my was fine until I found myself feeling odd and strangely off.
We walked around a bit. The city was dead barring a few bars that were open and I had no interest in drinking anything simply cuz my body was shrinking within itself.

After watching the lights and what not we repaired home and slept.

My brain woke me up and it was discomforted utterly and told me to rush to the bathroom.
I proceeded to listen to it and the gorge that had been rising all evening now freed itself and I sat in the toilet throwing up.
I threw up my entire dinner including the appetiser and the dessert.

Finally I found sleep after ingesting a medicine for such events and woke up feeling better but not great.

I knew what was wrong and to add petrol to this trash fire was my neck in absolute rebel after having slept strangely all night.
It gifted me a headache. A medicine for which would be impossible under the circumstances that my stomach was in.

Thankfully the headache was low intensity and I stayed all day on the couch, eating bananas and boiled potatoes and embalming my neck and forehead in tiger balms.

I didn't move, I didn't do anything except watch whatever stuff people put on Netflix and I ended up watching two terrible movies.

My stomach is a lot better but there shall be no tea or coffee until I'm completely fine.
I mean this hasn't happened in a while and I stopped being cautious and here we are.
Caution is key as 'morveer' said and I should not forget it.

Right then.
Today, my timetable resumes.
I workout
I edit
I cook
I clean
I cry a bit

On the street

Happy New Year my darling

Très très chic