Yes it was strange

Today
I defrosted my car
Using the app
I don't know what to make of anything
Also
The car was hot when I sat in

I mean what?!

Tidbits

My little twinkle and myself
Braving the very cold house
Trying to be nonchalant while my fingers feel frozen and I wonder why I didn't turn on the heating today
Oh yes that's right I've been too busy to notice until just now when I sat down and shivered.

On 30

Morning and i woke up at 5
Then slept at 5:30
Woke up at 9
Packed lunch
Having tea
Sad because I have a migraine
Today of all days

Today, have some segments to film. Some more things to do and that's that.

Now that I've done with my tea I feel angry for not making some more cuz it was delicious and now if I make again it won't turn out so good :/

A bit candid

And now

Who me? Ready for an evening out 

And you? 

Downdates

Who me?
Taking a breather
Drying my socks cuz I went out in the garden to record and it's all wet. And my feet are wet and my soft shoes are wet.
Anyway I have my feet propped up in front of the heater while I sip tea and the camera charges.

New stuff

Onwards and upwards I say. 

A bit of learning curve and extra work with the camera but we are only just starting. 

Once I get the hang of it it'll be smoother, however I am loving this new mode of filming. 

Top of the musing to you

Sitting in the study! 

High as a kite 

Last time high until I bake them. 

Gonna be sober until next high. 

🤣 

But no , I wanna be high when I'm meaning to not cuz I'm having fun. 

I want to have fun but not make it a habit. 

Holidays has ended. Life has begun. 

I want my entire life to be a holiday though 

A restart

Bought a new workout top to motivate myself to become a part of this routine more dedicatedly. 

A routine I slowly let go of after 6 years when things in life got a bit much. 

I realised that missing out on this time made me a less productive person because my discipline relaxed and I suggested to myself that it's because of the problems that had sprung up the last few years, and then after that I told myself it was the recording and editing that I don't find time but it really was me being a wimp. 

I have to stare at things hard in the face and become more resolute. 

Today I have gone back to a habit that long supported my health, my mind and body.

There are no excuses there are no reasons for me to slide away from my workouts. 

It's not abut doing my best it's about doing it and not stopping. Doesn't matter how good or bad it is, doesn't matter if it's best. I have to never stop. 

Today I started back from square one. From tight hip flexers, to cold shoulders. 

I have to keep working to the point I'm able to lift, jump, squat, bend, pull like I used to and better.

It's not a resolution, it's my solemn promise to myself. 

A run for it

Taking about eventful days! 

Slurp while I work

Lunch today is curry ramen. Late lunch yes. 

I've been cleaning since morning not least because when I came home yesterday the house smelled of a zoo in decline. 

It was terrible and I have been at it! 

Yes at it!  

I love the French

At a comic store ! 

Apartments with a view

Colder colder coldest

Fraught with fog 

Intervals

A small stop to charge, for coffee and to change drivers.

Cold

Morning frost. 

This morning on to Strasbourg! For their famous christmas market! 

Onwards then. 

A lady

The sort of curse words I wish to imbibe in my daily conversations. 

Pour moi

Trying to get my life back on track 

Babes

My tiny tigers in sunlight 

And scene

Today has been a day 

Thought of you

'I have a thing for dark hair' jezal told Munza in the infamous house of leisure and I smiled knowing exactly why he said it.

Little tings

Who me?
Ticking away the to do list of things for today and I'm close to finishing them all.

There's some sun

It feels deliciously warm on the skin
One has to be clad in two layers of clothes however to enjoy this warmth but who am I to oppose anything that sunshine brings my way.

The familiar sound of lawn mowing which is something that comes with this sunlight.
These are sounds so peculiar to these areas, houses with gardens, with grass. Funny how I never heard this music back home.

Now making some coffee and sitting for a mo. in this heavenly warmth before getting on with other things .
I think starting Tuesday I should be back to regular programming.

Fat dots

For when I want to make the bed but resistance is strong 

Voilà

Just another day 

Right at home

And now

Old habits

Cleaning done and a late lunch 

Mackerel and veggies cuz why not 

This Wednesday

I have been sleeping early, almost around 9 and waking up late, sometime around 7 and I think 10 hours of sleep is acceptable for me, not least cuz I don't nap during daytime and the days ahead are fraught with busyness.

Today the list of things to be done is long and I am happy to see my white marker board well supplied with a long list.
Unless I get the house in order I am afraid I won't be able to get on with life and the house needs order asap.

So today will be the last leg, the longest and exhausting leg of everything.
I hope to have everything in place so that starting Monday I can start my routine as I want.

Also, the Bluetooth headphones got fixed.
Something about finding the right charging cable.
I don't know why suddenly it stopped reacting to every charging cable, even ones that dedicatedly used to charge it before.
It took me about 4 different wires to find the one it enjoyed getting connected to.
I had to find a brand new cable from the storage and voila!
Strange since every other gadget is working on the old cables.
Anyway the problem is sorted and I am happy!

Lemonrock

I am
Amazed
That I have forgotten
The schedule
For my everyday
Here

The what wait

So beautiful sunny from inside and not so comfortable to sit in outside.

I think of my Shanghai noons during winter that I passed in balcony safe from the windy chills of winter.

Now I watch the light sift in through windows of my house which I have arranged and cleaned to some extent.
The final bit of cleaning will be done tomorrow.

What goes on today?
A Tuesday

New is better

Definitely the G shock is quite ugly  

:)

A birthday gift from Netflix 

The misses

6 in the AM and I have a cup of tea in one hand while someone steadily snores in the background.
Woke up at 4
Fed the babes
Lurked around the house since it is too cold
Fed the babes again around 5
Put their dishes for washing
And made tea
Now I'm tucked in my duvet
Sipping tea
And thinking
Of
You.

Same new

A very cold morning. 

Still in bed 

My internal clock is set to my heart

Despite being sleepy and dying in bed around 11 last night 

My habits woke me up at 5

I woke up thinking I was in my bedroom back home 

For a moment felt extremely disoriented to realise the furniture and room settings were completely changed 

Took a while to register I'm in a different time zone 

The house is tundra 

But my view is magnificent 

A friendly face

Bestie overseas 

Here I am

Time zone same same 

Little bits

A bit of an update

Ah then the long path

Say one thing about existing say it sucks!

Morning started with me being unable to as much as stick my foot out from the bed and when I woke up it was late.
To get on with my day amidst the crimson tide was for me a thing of the moment.
Oh and I forget to mention that the broiler went kaput today and so no hot water !
Electrician has been in his way for a while now

I have been recording too.
And now I am so done I cannot bear to stand and have to large cooking segments to film.
Which I will do later. Maybe after an hour.

Having coffee and overthinking.

Eye roll

Every day there's something someone wants to tell me 

Eyebrow raised

Just why the hell was this an ad for me while I browsed Reddit?? 

Why? 

Didn't we talk about this exact person a while ago? 

What ? 

Feeling good and you?

It's a Friday
And who am I?
High !!

And now

As I do a bit of important work today 

And what do we have here

Today a Tuesday
My vlog should be up around afternoon.
I have had some trouble with my machines, my keypad, my software and people who have a back issue that escalated to the skies during weekend, and to say that I was swamped would be an understatement.
The moment one person in the house who's an active member of chores during weekend decides to not show up, the weekend turns a bit bothersome.

The only silver lining?
I was giggling all through it cuz gummy!

Right then.
I think the rainy season has started here. I wish for some more sunny days before the weather goes upside down.

To learn

Say one thing about cats 

Say they lounge the fuck out! 

They're my true inspirations. 

Tell me

Guess?? what am I ? 

Thumbs up

Why the fuck is my editing better when I'm high?
Or maybe I feel too confident :)

And ode

What is with this weather???
It's so glorious
I can't

I see

Recently the shop where I bought my jewellery in Antwerp, one of their customer service people was 'the stereotypical gay' from the movies.
His mannerism was so far at the end manliness spectrum of gay that it resembled a caricature.
It was so unbelievable that I was internally flabbergasted while maintaining a genial poker face.
It was funny

This mo

Who me?
Brunching
And you?

8:17 missives

Woke up early to start the day off with a bang!
The earlier I get done with everything the faster I can be at my computer editing stuff but I just checked my calendar and today is marked for an appointment with the vet!

This is regarding the lab results for gogi which were absolutely fine, but there was a small contradiction which has always been a part of his lab results ever since Shanghai and no doctors back then worried over it, however this doctor wanted to be sure and so she took time to consult with the senior vet at the bigger hospital and today is the day she will discuss it with me.
And I have to be present at her clinic at 9:30 !
Right!
I will hopefully get back by 10:30 or 11:00 and then lunch and work!
It's funny but I'm going to prep for lunch right now so that I don't have to sweat about it later.

All for figurines

All the molten joys

A chocolate tasting station at the museum where one could literally put a spoon (provided by the museum) under these molten chocolate pods and taste them.
Apparently this ruby chocolate is a recently discovered naturally pink chocolate that comes from the pink chocolate pods and is quite delicious.
You can read about it on the board here!
Who knew :)

Chocolate and more chocolate

Inside a chocolaterie 

 

it’s a Thursday

Say one thing about these days
Say it's autumn!

Today was spent being extremely busy, not least because it was Gogi's checkup day, which happens every six months.
The appointment was at nine in the morning and I had to be up and about and on my toes. Also, because today in about another couple hours, I leave for Antwerp for the weekend.

Definitely looking forward to this trip because it's been awhile since I went anywhere and I just sort of need to get out eat something delicious outside for once for a change and just you know walk around. Have fun, maybe get high.

Also missing your updates, so please, darling. Let us know everything.

I’m so curious

Oh my my my
Tell us everything
I am so excited
Extremely so
A high darling
has my heart

And now as well

Who me? 

Lounging 

And you? 

Just a few things

Found a few things today 

And now

Who me? 

Ready for brocante 

And you? 

What say you?

I have come to a realisation after much deliberation regarding the content and YouTube and while perhaps YouTube ain't doing me any favours I feel that my content definitely needs improvement.
There are a few things I have noticed
And maybe it's not true but maybe it is and that I haven't tried to make it quite as engaging.
There might be some issues regarding thumbnails but also the last few times I feel like I didn't really invite the audience as maybe I did when I started.
When earlier there was a lot of myself that I gave away I realise that maybe I have reduced that exact part of my vlogs?!
Tell me if I'm wrong or if I'm right!

Anyway
So now I have come up with new strategies in not just my storytelling but also the shots I film.
The audience likes to watch me get on with my day and not how the day surrounds me.
I have to surround the day!
I feel that maybe this was amiss?

Maybe I'm wrong?
But please tell what you think.!

Drawbacks

This is far too assisted driving 

How does one go back to autonomous driving 

And now

Me now. 

How about you? 

Had the consultation? 

It’s too early

Brunch is a heaping salad with a side of baked chicken thighs because why not? 

The forever ghastly

Today and Saturday
There was a wee run to the superstore that keeps my cats' favourite food and from there I bought some essentials (dishwasher etc) that were needed.
People wanted to visit another store which is strictly only for specialty food and nothing besides and I put a spanner in the plan cuz I didn't think anything more was needed.
I should have Guessed people really wanted to go there cuz I was asked about three times and each time I said 'we don't need anything else' and so we came home.
I went back to my study to edit stuff and came downstairs after a couple hours to find hungry cats and an absent spouse.
The car was gone.
What did that mean?
He left for the speciality store!
It's never my policy to call up people and ask their whereabouts but today, for some reason, with the PMS in full swing and my mood beginning to rupture I called people!

Of course he was aware why I called him and to allay my annoyance people said that they'd come to the store to buy those mackerels I really like!

What?? Such absolute garbage for a vegetarian to be actually bothered about my need for mackerels??
Of course he wasn't there for my mackerels but that's the excuse because anything else would put him six feet under.
Bah!
I slammed down the phone.
I can't.
I cannot.
Let's see what mackerels he picks out ! He doesn't even exactly know what that is.

Feels

Can somebody please just make me some splendid fried chicken served with a side of salad and a glass of wine and wash the dishes later?

I am still trying

Why did I go into the rabbit hole of a crime library that somehow detoured towards Hollywood misconducts which then routed me towards an asshole of the internet where I found stuff about Armie Hammer. 

Maybe I was living under a rock (which I was happily), but somehow I missed this scandal that passed a couple years ago involving the actor Armie Hammer and honestly I don't recall watching his movies except Facebook movie and that guy has a serious problem. 

If you thought our stuff was intense and crazy then please be humbled. 

There's more madness about him wanting to eat the skin off his girl friend after she's cooked it for him, and using her blood as lube for anal, but I put this screenshot cuz I mean excuse me! 

Please find an asylum and quarantine. 

:)

People are watching TV 

My camera is in the way 

No one doing anything about it 

Rant

I think one of my drawbacks in life is that I cannot make fried food. Not least because I find it unhealthy but also because it's too cumbersome for me and I have begun to believe that maybe in some aspects I am lazy.

Lazy because I don't know what I'd do with all the leftover oil and if I'm a frequent fryer there's be too much leftover oil and it's not easy to keep getting rid of it.
Moreover I buy some big bottle of refined oil for frying purposes and it sits forgotten for months.
It takes me close to a year to go through a five ltr bottle of refined oil cuz I I just don't fry up anything!
I mean I do. But maybe about once or twice a month, and I find it such a battle too.
Agh!

So confused

One of my friend who I thought was utterly sane apparently freezes flavoured ice cubes .
It's like I don't know who this person is anymore.
She's at the deep end of cuckoo and I can't help but purse my lips.
Cuz, I mean putting edible flowers in rose shaped trays and filling with sprite????
Putting little raspberries (so expensive in India) and covering with orange juice to get a twin tone effect.
That's an unforgivable waste of delicious berries that she probably gets from some import shop. I don't know. I mean maybe use some seasonal fruit like jamun or jujube ?

Why did this happen? It's like do I even know people anymore?

Dumpling salad

Who me? 

Lunching 

And you? 

The usual

Today's been alright I think

Lazy baby

Why yes
I did get one
And lounged on it all day yesterday

Do you know this?

I have a crippling inability to understand YouTube and I sit and look at analytics trying to understand what's going on and one thing I know is that my regular viewers aren't getting a notification of my channel
However I want to understand this specific thing and I need someone to explain it to me like one would to a single cell organism
What on earth does this mean and imply?
If you know please tell us
Because I have watched this steadily go down and each time it's low the video gets a beating.
When it's high the video does relatively better.

All the everything

Cooking lunch,
Having coffee
Collecting skins of onions and garlic
For composting
Listening to audiobook
This is almost chaotic

Hmm

Going in with the first thumbnail cuz the other one doesn't have the relaxing summery feel apparently

Hmph

Today is the day that people get their root canal done
How could I forget about it?
Also today is the day when there will be no water from 9am -4pm
Got a message about it just last evening
Yikes.

Because why not?

Headugh

Who me?
Convulsing on couch
With a bout of migraine
How could it happen?
Why did it happen?
Checking my journal to see what went wrong? When was the last time it happened? Is it the usually pattern or is there a change?
Did I eat something I wasn't supposed to?
Why???

Fugh

One thing I have realised is that men do not like listening to tales or stories or anything about friends of their wives.
It's just not interesting to them at all.
Men are assholes

Monsieur

How's my evening going

It’s a Thursday

Morning and I have been up since almost 5 in the AM as my cats decided I'd had enough sleep and it was time to be awake and at it.
Now it's 8:35
I've had tea
I'm still in bed
It's a holiday here
Everything is shut
I'm in no mood for anything
Also I have to get in with recording
It's not easy to short while people are in the house cuz something or the other keeps happening.
Let's get on with it then

I cannot

Remember how I made a big fuss about sleeping downstairs in the spare bedroom?
Well last night I did it
Except I didn't plan on having everyone else sleep with me too.
The bed is enough for two people in that it's smaller than queen size but two regular sized people can sleep comfortable, however it will not accommodate 2 people and six cats which is exactly what happened last night.
I don't understand why everyone wanted to sleep together when there are so many other vacant places and beds.
The entire night was spent tossing and swerving around the sleeping babes and I barely slept as Nemo's presence around the bed created discontent and loud aggressive meowing.
Nope I haven't slept.
Also the next few days are holiday here.
Which means the house will be infested with spouse who's already writhing in agony over a toothache.
There will be a root canal but it'll happen next week!

Argh!!

Ugh

A heatwave
Without an AC
Just a fan
That keeps throwing the same warm air
All over the room and face
I cannot take it
Slept in a hot oven of a room last night
Sleeping is putting it rather generously
Cuz I felt even the air sticking to me
Today
I will
Sleep in the downstairs guest room
Upstairs is hot
And I am angry

Meh

There's a heatwave today
And I hate it
There's no AC
Only a couple fans and not in every room.
I am drawing
Seething and annoyed
But also high so it is okay

Things haven’t been great

That my weekend was spent stressing over people's toothache that took a strange turn from comic to serious would be an understatement.
These days have been most unkind cuz one person was writhing in agony over an ache that couldn't be fixed so much so that there was no sleep for past two days.
Right now people are at the dentist and I'm home looking my at my YouTube analytics and seeing the below par performance of the new video and wondering what's going on even??!

Okay yes

Excuse me
I'm watching this now