Chairperson

I bought a misguided chair online for my study and for some reason it felt like a good idea and I'm trying to assemble it except I have lazy assistants. 

Till now

Fried rice > rice bowls 

But here is a rice bowl because I was a bit lazy and the lunch got so late not least because I have been at the exit entry bureau for my visa stuff since morning and after that I was at the masseuse cuz I needed it, and damn, how better do I feel? It's like my entire body has been unwound! 

 

Nope not today

Who me?
Angry as fuck because
1. I woke up at 3 in the am with a splitting headache! Why? I don't know. Could be cuz I was living through a sweat fest all day yesterday and didn't realise that I was going through the usual humid madness even though my sweat was dripping to wet the floor while cooking in the kitchen. I didn't much think when my head was beginning to rumble either. Instead I went to sleep and kept tossing in bed cuz I was still feeling hot and not quite comfortable and finally my head woke me up wanting a medicine.

2. The masseuse rescheduled the appointment for tomorrow cuz she isn't feeling well. I fell ya sista!!

3. My head is still lightly thrumming and I've got a balm lathering my forehead!

So yeah!
Tuesday in all its glory!
Come at me fucker!

Getting there

And this Monday swells

Nighttime and I think I want to melt in to my bed and never wake up

I have booked an appointment with a masseuse tomorrow and I am going to just lie down and have her hammer my entire back, neck and even face with whatever the fuck she wants cuz I need all this bad juju to get cleansed off of me.

Also, working out today and I felt that I have gained some fat in certain places.
It's minuscule but since it's my body and I am far too critical and insecure about it, I know whalers all I've lost some definition and gained a bit of fat.

I'd have been alarmed had I not learned to not be so disordered in my thinking but you know it's gonna go!!

And lunch

Just a couple open sandwiches topped with some prawns with a side of fruit smoothie. 

And done!

Restart

Today
I restart my workout
Go back to the usual.
I have lost my discipline to workout like I always used to everyday without fail
I need that back
And I have to start
So today I will
Begin with a bit of metabolic conditioning
That is low impact workouts while holding weights
And get my body used to exercises
Like it once was

Morning music and questions

I am listening to goo goo dolls in the morning, courtesy of the rock channel Germany that has been stuck since the day there was a power surplus or whatever it was when my system blew up in smoke. And since that day to this, now that the system is fixed. No one got it fixed. I just plugged it after a 4 month absence and it switched right back on, working absolutely perfectly, and still on that channel I was listening to last on that day in March!

The rock station Germany is the kind of channel that knows exactly what songs you like, and it unloads everything from Guns and roses, Metallica, scorpions, garbage to literally everything good since the 80's to mid 2000's. And no knickleback!! I mean how??

Also, how is the system functioning? Most of the sockets, charging points, cables had got fried that day, the house was full of smoke from that thick cloud of electric smelling smog that burst out of this Yamaha system and I was in quite a fix after but then last week after quarantine when I reached back home, complete with sweat and cats, the system came back to life, blinking as it always did everyday like nothing ever happened to it!
That I'm perplexed would be an understatement but I am happy and I am not changing this station which is now playing 'purple rain'.

Yuck

Morning and I woke up quite early. Sometime before six! And I am not a morning person which is why this path to Monday is strewn with decapitated skulls of anyone who smiled at me.

Tea off

This morning I was greeted with bed tea which was incidentally also one of the worst tea's people have made in their short career of tea making.

It was weak, milky and tasted of masalas.
I knew from the smell of it that people had used a masala tea mix which irked me to the point of needing vengeance.
I'd rather not have any tea at all than drink that basin water.
Even so, I smiled, graciously thanked and proceeded to pretend to sip it.
Once people had left the room I decided to drain it down the bathroom sink which I did.

Just now people beamed at me and asked me to review their tea and I have asked him to never make any tea for me ever again.
People then proceeded to ask how I drank it if I hated it so much and I told him that I threw it down the sink.
Yeah, I'm in that mood.
Stay the fuck away.

Hands up

Believe me this is a police station! 

The 'public service' part of a police station. 

The hold up cells I'm told are behind this area. 

Hot pot

Ordered a double flavoured hotpot 

Menu

A typical hot pot menu where you tick in the box whatever ingredients you wish to plonk inside your hotpot 

Ughs

I have been wrought with nightmares
As I writhed
Most part of the night
with cramps
That happened periodically
and now that I'm awake
I'm angry
And I feel like
Burning things down

Fanged

I watched 'day shift' cuz vampires and it's a waste of time but If you like vampires and snoop dog dressed as black Clint Eastwood then maybe watch it.
I am that person who will watch everything vampires and so yeah! But no dude!!

Try again

This was the image in the last post I don't n ke why it won't show 

And voila!

Also cold pressed juice is something I will always publicly deny to absolutely loving!! 

Pink love

Making my favourite stuff!! 

Also my oven is kaput so here we are using an iron skillet like noble savages that we were meant to be. 

Perched

Stuff like this

Uniqlo keeps updating their collection of graphic tees. If you keep an eye out you'll find something great. 

Come on!!

Dude I can't with Netflix and their forced LGBTQ agenda!
There's no subtlety, there's no reason in the plot for it but hey it's baiting the queers and we're on the woke train to hell!!

Fuck this!

Misses

Currently reading 'invisible' by Paul Auster. One among the many books left in my house by my sweet neighbour and these lines came to life in my mind, brought forth a fountain of memories that have kept me dazzled every since. 

Darling..

I miss thee 

ऽऽ

I am
Tired
Bored
Restless

Scenery again

Déjà vu 

Updated

Morning and I have to prepare to go to the hospital this afternoon to get a checkup for new visa application.
It's not a problem but the process is tedious.
Almost a repeat of what I had to go through in JBL except this time the hospital is a designated one and it's specifically for this purpose and it's clean!
But it is tedious.

In other news my cats have gotten too clingy ever since my return and Meera makes no pretence of his clinginess. He refuses to let go of me at night and any moment I've shifted my position and my arm isn't wrapped around him, he meows to snuggle and this has been happening ever since I returned.
I've not gotten much sleep cuz of him.

I'm to stay in a fasted state today till the tests are done and this is a test in itself.
I did however wake up quite early and had some tea.
There's a bit of house cleanup I gotta do now, the usual everyday chore and get on with things.

I've not set up my study room yet and gotten to that point of chilling there after work.
It's going to take me some time to get everything in order I guess.

Yeah well

Back to basics

Lunched 

Hahahaha

Finally

Oh yeah, finally made a sandwich! 

Argh !!!

Don't even get me started on heat 

Rained in

It's been raining non stop in Bhopal for several weeks now and this is the plot next to our house which I often clicked pics of because it looked so arid and full of thorny trees. 

Now it's Sunderbans! 

Hawwwt

My area specifically 

Not liking it

It is deathly hot and deathly humid! 

I have yet to see summers like these when one begins sweating a river the moment they're away from the influence of ac+fan! 

It's near impossible to sit in a room with nothing save a fan because it's oppressive, stifling and almost unmanageable. 

To work around the house especially cleaning etc is a small adventure in near death! 

There are times when I feel about ready to fall. 

My hard working cotton t shirts get soaked several times while I'm cleaning about the house and I'll tell you my washing machine is working overtime, much like me! 

Lunch is going to be a sandwich! 

It has to be! 

Dainty princess

Did a lot

I think I cleaned up for almost 4 hours and I'm done only with the lower floor, the upper floor and my bedroom and bath. 

Rest of the house still remains and that is just regular, basic cleaning. 

I've to so the detailing bits later. Exhausted! 

Gogiberry

Don't look so surprised!! 

I'm gonna kiss you a lot more 

Baby

Okay then

Packing and about to leave.
Let's hope I find a sandwich on the way cuz this place is almost 60kms from the main city and detouring to a main city and then back will cause me to get late and I want to reach the hospital and pick two of my babies asap!!

Right then!
Sans fards.
Somewhat sleepy
And really hungry.

Everything falls

There's an ultra nationalistic fervour reaching crescendo all over the world and everything is infected.

Hahahahaha, hahahaha, hahahaha

And in the latest batch of fresh hell we have insanity tipping beyond control, going over the precipice from insanity to imbecility. 

Arghhh

So there is a kid's birthday in the group that's quarantining here and her parents want to order a birthday cake which is against the policy of quarantining SOP.
So they're asking the hotel chef to make a cake and that is not possible since the hotel cook or chef or whatever has no idea about making cakes and so the entire fucking group in the group chat is trying to assuage the hurt feelings of the parents and their little baby girl who has turned 3 and everyone and their mother is wishing her a happy birthday and what not and everyone's like you're a little star, and sweet baby bla bla and the parents of the little girl in question are getting her to record thank you messages in her baby voice and posting it and honestly I have cringed right back into a shell, and if I had a fucking shotgun I would have knocked on every door of the room of the people that have been wishing this kid and put a bullet through them.
I don't know why I feel like going on a murderous rampage sometimes and just doing stuff without thinking of any consequences.
I think I shouldn't get off my meds for now.

Meh

Morning and I was subjected to the last test in this quarantine!
Tomorrow onwards I have a volley of other tests to follow simply to be able to live in this city.
I can't!!

Eugh

So I used to enjoy watching Brooklyn 99 except now the new season is out and it's woke as shit and the worst part is that it's far too in your face.!!
There is stuff about BLM if it's not about bisexuality and white appropriation.
They're just throwing around terms like George floyd, police brutality and what not and it's cringe max.
Will I be able to power through and hope that it's just the first episode or so sprinkled with this wokeness?
I sure hope so!

Deep sighs

What I wouldn't give to eat a sandwich!!

I think once I'm home I'm gonna make me sandwiches every day for a week!!

—
I'm also kinda fed up of listening to so many voices on online meetings almost 5-6 times a day.

:\

It was almost nearly edible. 

Day after morning I leave for Shanghai!! 

Yawn

Morning and I sip my tea
In me bed
A luxury not accorded often
Except the tea is made out of teabags
And is quite horrible

Yuck

Disgusting as usual 

^^+

When I'm free
I
Refresh

What do you think?

I didn't know when to stop 

In other news

Vomitarium

what is this pallid crap?! 

Yuck

My night or perhaps this early morning (?) was wracked with the most obnoxious, vile, abhorrently sickening dreams!

I woke with a start when one of those so called dreams exploded into a narrow lane of repugnance into a supernova of horror!

That I was swaddled in duvet on a comfortable bed was a moment most assuaging despite the quarantine and what not!
I've still been thinking about the remnants of those filthy dreams, stuck like dirty little rags into crevices of my today and I hope to forget them once I have a handle on understanding as to exactly why I got those dreams!

Come on brain!
Show me something nice for a change for gods sake!

Ola

Maddening

People who abandoned their pets should be ostracised from civilised society.
They shouldn't be made friends with or have any of their family members married to or chosen as life partners because what kind of vicious hearted venomous heap of garbage person must one be to abandon an animal????

I hope they all get covid and die.

:/

My room cold
My hair unwashed
My heart yearning

Lol

This is how people are talking from window to window! 

This is possibly the weirdest funniest thing I've seen all quarantine. 

This and that

Apparently people have never eaten cup noodles and as I watch them struggling to figure out exactly how to eat noodles out of a cup I can barely suppress my laughter cuz this is comedy gold!

Right then! Monday! Like I care but even so.
The world out is scorching and my windows are open letting in the heatwave and the air conditioning is turned on as well which is quite the paradox.
It almost feels like I'm sitting on a hill station on a warm day.
Strange!

Update on Hope- she is doing better. The doctor informed me that this issue is often caused in felines due to stress :(
I have a couple friends who're now visiting her in the hospital to take a better assessment of the situation and soon we will all be reunited.
For now the doctor has kept hope in the same room with Gogi, and I was informed that her general attitude is much better from yesterday and appetite has improved as well.
For all this I'm glad and lucky to have support when I need it most.

Kill me instead

The one series which no one should ever watch and I say this because I'm watching it because it's so idiotic is 'who killed Sara'
It's silly to the point of frustration.
Except for the soundtrack which is pretty fantastic there's nothing good about this series whatsoever.
The plot has holes the size of a small country, there are mindless sex scenes crammed in every time the loop holes get too obvious, and the clichés, stereotypes and acting a slap on the face of all that is cinematic.
This is a series that was created for goats who watch as they mindlessly munch their fodder, or for people with hay for brains when they're on a mission to destroy their singular functioning grey cell in a fit of fury.
Who killed sara starts with a question, then moves to a coma, then proceeds to an exclamation point and is now an integer of negative values!

There is Jean Reno in the final season and the mind boggles at the moronic simplicity with which most complex situations are handled and executed.

No! Just no.

Come on

Eating chips!
At 10:30
What's wrong with me?
Nothing!
I'm in quarantine

Hot hot hot

I mean come on!!

Morning stress

Morning and I have been coordinating the transfer of my darling hope to the hospital.
I got a frantic message from my friend who's been cat sitting my babies that hope had blood in her urine.
This has happened about two years ago when my baby had a UTI.
I got the driver to pick her up from my friends house and take her to the same hospital where Gogi is and I've asked the hospital to keep her there until she's well, because there will be a course of antibiotics, and my friend is quite unwilling to administer medicines because she's afraid that the cats might 'bite' her!
That's fine!
She can stay back under medical care until she's fine and maybe by that time I'll be free as well.
At least hope can hang out with Gogi. He must be missing her.

Sighs.
I hope she gets better soon.
My little hope.

Not a dream

Finished watching 'the sandman' and I don't think justice was done to the comics whatsoever.
Apart from the black washing and the unnecessary woke moments shoved into every nook and cranny they couldn't fill, it was the loss of abstract which the comics possessed that the live action didn't.
Nope!
A solid nope!!

Watershed

and it rains 

In other news

Lunched

As horrible as quarantine food is on most days, sometimes it's nearly passable and today it was almost delicious. 

*<

That time of night
when I sit under a quarantine night lamp
By its sickly white light
and pour out a verse
For you

|~

Imagine all the frolic
We'd be up to
In this vast empty room
That serves
As my quarantine

Misses

Midnight
And
The heart wants
You

Dinah

And now

Who me?
Back to the drawing board.
I think I will be making some good progress today.
Let's see how I finish this drawing with minimum art materials on me.
I have just some watercolours, one brush and not even a palette to mix colours.
Let's go then.
—
Bald head becomes thee.
tell me nice juicy things.

All that’s on

Just when things looked halfway doable someone tested positive and the last few hours have been spent in stress since there was quite a bit of commotion outside what with announcements on loudspeakers and a general feeling of unease amongst everyone, including hotel staff and quarantined people. 

The group chat has been abuzz with consolation and queries since some people from the close contacts of the positive have also been taken to the hospital, even though they were probably negative. 

There have been questions regarding seat numbers and what not and I was just keeping myself updated. Strangely I didn't panic! 

But this has been the development so far and I wonder how after two nights and several tests did someone test positive randomly. 

Apparently here the SOP is such that an inconclusive test result is also viewed with suspicion and the officials err on the side of caution and hospitalise upon inconclusive results as well. The person concerned may test negative several times after but they are released only after the mandated 14 days of quarantine. 

Now this is the kind of stress and idiocy I am unwilling to put up with. 

This sudden tension of being a close contact of a close contact of positive person and worrying about what might happen. 

Just when things start looking a bit normal there is this fucking landfill of anxiety and worry dumped all over your head. 

I don't like this at all .

I am so done! 

In other news, the moon looks gorgeous tonight. 

Misses

That time of afternoon
When I want to stick my head
Inside yours

(Tell me lots of nice things)

Within without

These are the only views I have. 

After three hours of watercolours and many a layers I've decided to give it a rest because i need  something to do for the rest few days. 

Now I'm going to read another Simon Beckett book, one that has 'David hunter' and then I will watch stranger things because due to vpn and region changes my Netflix ain't showing me the shows I usually watch. 

Watercolours

Who me? 

Back to the drawing board and you? 

1 in the Am

https://youtu.be/foUATcfD9rg

Absolutely loved this treasure of a debate of which I'm sharing some snippets, between Peterson and a fantastical Yugoslavian philosopher called Slavoj Žižek. 

It's wonderful to see Peterson's facade of cumbersome intellectualism crumble in front of this man's supercharged powerhouse of in-depth knowledge and clarity of ideas. 

Nothing gives me more joy than to watch Jordan Peterson stammer and stutter to form sentences and try to wing his way out of this utterly watchable debate. 

News

Well whaddya know, we made the news! 

Evening all

All I can do is peek outside and click pics 

Idiot daisy chain

This group travel is most annoying. 

At least in the last quarantine when I wasn't attached to any group chat I was living a happier, non interfering, peaceful two weeks!! 

Right now there's this mess of a confusion in group chat regarding food! 

Yes, food. 

Someone wants pure veg cuz Jain, someone wants only halal, someone wants more fruits cuz fasting, someone wants milk cuz little children, someone wants veg but eggs, someone wants Indian food and the issues go on. 

I am this close to writing a scathing message to everyone here. 

I mean this is a fucking quarantine! What the hell were they expecting? 

What kind of noobs am I stuck with? 

I am okay with whatever nonsensical food they stick me with. 

People have a food preference and I have already informed the hotel and my issues are pretty much resolved, but that's me they say! What about others? 

I don't know about others. And frankly my dears I don't give a damn! 

A room

Thankfully this time I didn't get just a room with a window overlooking the shaft. 

No sir, I got a lovely large room, with large  windows that can be opened. Yup! They're not bolted. I'm thinking the staff here ain't aware of that. 

And I'm thankful. 

Yes it's a sort of B category resort. 

Ugh

Second time around!! 

I don't want to do it 

Argh

Why the fuck am I a part of this fucking circus?? 

I'm not even from Yiwu!!