I've come to this conclusion, and bear with me, that one can dedicate oneself to just the one task at one time. (At least when it comes to me)
Case in point story writing.
I had decided yesterday that today I'd do a bit of bread baking and I'd promised myself that I'd begin kneading the dough sometime before noon so by the time it was evening I could just bung it in the oven and hey presto bread!
I have run out of bread and it was important that I make one.
Right, noon got busy with something else and then it was lunch time after which I sat down to write this story that will probably end this week and then it was evening and no bread.
Now I'm wondering where did that time go, seeing how all my work was done in short bursts of activity throughout the day, there was sometime to get the kneading done, but hey, apparently there wasn't.
That leaves me with mornings to finish such tasks.
Baking bread isn't a big deal, absolutely not, but it's time consuming, in that there's kneading, deflating, proofing etc involved and I don't understand why I couldn't take the time out to do it.
Now I feel horrible thinking about it.
But that's the thing. If I'd gone ahead with the whole baking I wouldn't have had enough time to write on time. I mean I'd still be writing, when in fact I'm already done with dinner.
It's either the case of compartmentalizing my day too stringently, because if it had been fluid I'd not been bothered about anything else other than tasks I'd allotted myself.
But I feel like this happens to me whenever I'm stuck in an activity.
When I'm drawing, then that's all I'm doing. Is difficult to write (stories etc) or involve myself in other activities.
It could be said that one can partake in other activities during breaks, but how does one do that?
I mean I could after a few hours, but I get so desperately fidgety needing to return to whatever I was doing that breaks feel difficult to sit through.
So yes, no bread today.
Will it happen tomorrow?
I'll have to wait and find out.
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