Who me?
Watching 'vampire in the garden' and you?
Monday, 23 May 2022
Monday, 9 May 2022
Important notice
I will not
Tolerate
Liquid hand wash bottles
in their own plastic bottle
because that kills my vibe
in the bathroom.
Tolerate
Liquid hand wash bottles
in their own plastic bottle
because that kills my vibe
in the bathroom.
Saturday, 7 May 2022
Moral lessons
My bed is a land of pillows and I am happy.
Everything feels ultra luxurious. I feel like I'm in a resort. This is what 2 weeks of living in that dungeon does to you.
I think this is a great way to stay grounded and appreciate the simple things in life. Takes away the entitlement and privilege for a while and I feel suffocated and then suddenly sweet release and I learn to love something as simple as an extra pillow.
Everything feels ultra luxurious. I feel like I'm in a resort. This is what 2 weeks of living in that dungeon does to you.
I think this is a great way to stay grounded and appreciate the simple things in life. Takes away the entitlement and privilege for a while and I feel suffocated and then suddenly sweet release and I learn to love something as simple as an extra pillow.
Thursday, 5 May 2022
Tears of sadness
I barely unlocked my bedroom door and a kid entered my room and hasn't left since.
I just want to absorb my high and stay high and not talk in a white tube light lit room.
I can't keep even my room in darkness because another kid comes and turns on all the lights and speeds up the fan and turns off my ac and leaves.
I just fucking want to be alone.
I just want to absorb my high and stay high and not talk in a white tube light lit room.
I can't keep even my room in darkness because another kid comes and turns on all the lights and speeds up the fan and turns off my ac and leaves.
I just fucking want to be alone.
Solitary.
if I don't keep my door locked then any child can come barging in and start talking without taking a hint to leave! This is a problem here if I just want to be.
One cannot simply have an alone time if the door ain't locked!
It's a bit annoying.
One cannot simply have an alone time if the door ain't locked!
It's a bit annoying.
Sweet gallows.
I am
A pond of sweat after having done a big production for breakfast in the kitchen, complete with three different foods according to demands of the household citizens and I cannot wait to stop doing this come tomorrow.
I mean why can't breakfast be a couple toasts with tea? Why does it have to be upma, buttermilk drink, cheese toast, scrambled eggs and toast with jam?
Why did I end up making so much when lunch will become just as tedious?
Granted lunch won't cater to everyone's demands but it will still be a fanfare for two different sabzi's, dahl, curd, rice, roti, salad and this is enough to sap our strength in a hot kitchen.
Of course lunch duties get divided amongst two people and it's usually me and the SIL but even so, we come out looking deathly sweaty and I try to keep her burdens to a minimum because she has two kids who suck on the rest of her energy.
I am not enjoying this one bit, not least because I don't get along the vibes of this house, nor do I enjoy my room nor do I like the fact that I seriously lack most of my comforts and I can't cook anything of my liking. There's no OVEN in this house!!
Tomorrow I'll fuck off but I see people who are a bit sad about my leaving cuz he will get bored here without me, but darling, there's only so much mercy I can spare.
A pond of sweat after having done a big production for breakfast in the kitchen, complete with three different foods according to demands of the household citizens and I cannot wait to stop doing this come tomorrow.
I mean why can't breakfast be a couple toasts with tea? Why does it have to be upma, buttermilk drink, cheese toast, scrambled eggs and toast with jam?
Why did I end up making so much when lunch will become just as tedious?
Granted lunch won't cater to everyone's demands but it will still be a fanfare for two different sabzi's, dahl, curd, rice, roti, salad and this is enough to sap our strength in a hot kitchen.
Of course lunch duties get divided amongst two people and it's usually me and the SIL but even so, we come out looking deathly sweaty and I try to keep her burdens to a minimum because she has two kids who suck on the rest of her energy.
I am not enjoying this one bit, not least because I don't get along the vibes of this house, nor do I enjoy my room nor do I like the fact that I seriously lack most of my comforts and I can't cook anything of my liking. There's no OVEN in this house!!
Tomorrow I'll fuck off but I see people who are a bit sad about my leaving cuz he will get bored here without me, but darling, there's only so much mercy I can spare.
Wednesday, 4 May 2022
Small tings
The weather here is so dry that me and one of the little kids is suffering from dried nose and watery eyes phenomena.
This is a symptom known only to those with extremely dry skin whom dryness hits differently especially when the AC is on at night.
It's quite a peculiar issue resolved only by the presence of a small humidifier in the room.
Two more days in the trenches and then I'm out of here.
Yay I say.
This is a symptom known only to those with extremely dry skin whom dryness hits differently especially when the AC is on at night.
It's quite a peculiar issue resolved only by the presence of a small humidifier in the room.
Two more days in the trenches and then I'm out of here.
Yay I say.
Grumble
this morning as I opened my eyes and looked around the room bleary, I found people awake and staring in the distance.
'I hate Jabalpur' he mumbled under his breath and I adjusted my eyes to find his face looking irritated.
He got out of bed after muttering his two cents, I went back to sleep and that was that.
'I hate Jabalpur' he mumbled under his breath and I adjusted my eyes to find his face looking irritated.
He got out of bed after muttering his two cents, I went back to sleep and that was that.
Tuesday, 3 May 2022
On this note
Every time I'm here I get the feeling that the only thing that women do in this house is spend time in the kitchen and assuage their children both old and young.
I don't think I can keep doing this!
It's like why are we chopping veg, stirring, soaking and boiling things from morn to evening?
If it was just the women then we'd probably not make so many elaborate meals but it's the men who need to be fed and kids who have different needs and wants that have to be catered and pandered to.
It's quite annoying cuz the weather is anything but kitchen friendly and I feel bored chopping my weight in onions all the time.
All I really want is a nice big sandwich, the kind I make at home but with the limited amount of produce and condiments and styles of bread which is a small toast I am unable to fulfil my fantasy.
Imagine that. Fantasising about bread. How much in touch with reality do I need to get?
On a sweeter note my parents are coming day after and that means I can fuck off from here on 6th.
What does that mean?
A lot more US time!
I don't think I can keep doing this!
It's like why are we chopping veg, stirring, soaking and boiling things from morn to evening?
If it was just the women then we'd probably not make so many elaborate meals but it's the men who need to be fed and kids who have different needs and wants that have to be catered and pandered to.
It's quite annoying cuz the weather is anything but kitchen friendly and I feel bored chopping my weight in onions all the time.
All I really want is a nice big sandwich, the kind I make at home but with the limited amount of produce and condiments and styles of bread which is a small toast I am unable to fulfil my fantasy.
Imagine that. Fantasising about bread. How much in touch with reality do I need to get?
On a sweeter note my parents are coming day after and that means I can fuck off from here on 6th.
What does that mean?
A lot more US time!
This morning today
Who me?
Awake and waiting for the physiotherapist to finish his job with the FIL before finally treating my right arm which has long been under a 'tennis elbow' duress but is now almost healed.
in fact I have been awake since 6:30 which is the time the physio gave me, except I didn't realise he meant that would be the time he'd come to treat other people before finally treating me.
Like an ass I've been awake too early for comfort and upon finding no physio in the house I made the stupid mistake of asking my MIL whether he came or not and she replied in her usual morning acidic goodness 'if he'd come he'd have been visible !!'
Okay wow!
The vibes in this house are so skewed that I don't feel like being a part of this place here.
Like why does no one smile and wish good morning to each other? Why do I feel like an idiot when I do so cuz I never get any replies.
No one acknowledges each other with a satisfied nod nor smile in the morning.
It feels all sorts of oppressive and sad.
I'm not used to this sort of environment. :(
Edit: the therapist knocked on my door as I was writing the post and I left it unfinished.
Now I'm back in my room and listening to some 'Hariprasad Chaurasia' while a child throws a severe tantrum and begins to have a meltdown outside my door.
I'm coming to understand harder each day why some women absolutely refuse to live in large joint families.
Awake and waiting for the physiotherapist to finish his job with the FIL before finally treating my right arm which has long been under a 'tennis elbow' duress but is now almost healed.
in fact I have been awake since 6:30 which is the time the physio gave me, except I didn't realise he meant that would be the time he'd come to treat other people before finally treating me.
Like an ass I've been awake too early for comfort and upon finding no physio in the house I made the stupid mistake of asking my MIL whether he came or not and she replied in her usual morning acidic goodness 'if he'd come he'd have been visible !!'
Okay wow!
The vibes in this house are so skewed that I don't feel like being a part of this place here.
Like why does no one smile and wish good morning to each other? Why do I feel like an idiot when I do so cuz I never get any replies.
No one acknowledges each other with a satisfied nod nor smile in the morning.
It feels all sorts of oppressive and sad.
I'm not used to this sort of environment. :(
Edit: the therapist knocked on my door as I was writing the post and I left it unfinished.
Now I'm back in my room and listening to some 'Hariprasad Chaurasia' while a child throws a severe tantrum and begins to have a meltdown outside my door.
I'm coming to understand harder each day why some women absolutely refuse to live in large joint families.
Monday, 2 May 2022
New heights
That the head lady of the house doesn't let the housekeeper use the generic 'dishwashing liquids' and instead gives her a few teaspoons of washing powder or a 1/4 bit of dishwashing soap to clean a mountain of dishes and then goes on to complain about the measly job done just goes on to highlight the utterly stingy nature of my MIL.
I cannot begin to rationalise this behaviour, nor can I express my total annoyance and surprise at this scene when it happened this afternoon.
What is she trying to save?
10₹??
Ugh!
Heavens. Please help. !!
I cannot begin to rationalise this behaviour, nor can I express my total annoyance and surprise at this scene when it happened this afternoon.
What is she trying to save?
10₹??
Ugh!
Heavens. Please help. !!
Absence of fur
Every time I get updated on my cats doing well I begin to cry because I'm so happy and also so sad because how incomplete do I feel without my little babies.
My family is broken and spread all over in hospitals and houses.
My little darlings!
I love them so.
My family is broken and spread all over in hospitals and houses.
My little darlings!
I love them so.
Sunday, 1 May 2022
Warm hate
I might have to do some more in depth study on this issue.
Case in point being the white lights in the house which I cannot stand and so I've been on the hunt for a warm bulb to install in my ancient table lamp in my room.
Upon knowing my wants for dim warm lights my SIL looked at me wide eyed and asked why and how can I stand warm lights when it's so damn 'depressing' and then it was my turn to look wide eyed.
I love warm lights I told her and she told me that she cannot bear to stand anything yellow or orange light inside the house because it made her feel sick and depressed and then went on to elaborate how she and her husband got every warm light changed to stark white.
This gave me a bit of a headache, but now I want to know why some people absolutely detest warm lights.
Case in point being the white lights in the house which I cannot stand and so I've been on the hunt for a warm bulb to install in my ancient table lamp in my room.
Upon knowing my wants for dim warm lights my SIL looked at me wide eyed and asked why and how can I stand warm lights when it's so damn 'depressing' and then it was my turn to look wide eyed.
I love warm lights I told her and she told me that she cannot bear to stand anything yellow or orange light inside the house because it made her feel sick and depressed and then went on to elaborate how she and her husband got every warm light changed to stark white.
This gave me a bit of a headache, but now I want to know why some people absolutely detest warm lights.
Shadi death
Someone somewhere is getting married, but the entire neighbourhood has to know!
The noise has firmly lodged itself in my room and I can't not hear it.
If I could shoot the fucking speakers with a gun, I'd be so happy.
Almost feels like I've put terrible music on my Bluetooth speakers inside my washroom.
If I can't sleep tonight then I'll be extremely upset and I'll hunt down whosoever is getting married and wish the choicest curses upon them.
The noise has firmly lodged itself in my room and I can't not hear it.
If I could shoot the fucking speakers with a gun, I'd be so happy.
Almost feels like I've put terrible music on my Bluetooth speakers inside my washroom.
If I can't sleep tonight then I'll be extremely upset and I'll hunt down whosoever is getting married and wish the choicest curses upon them.
Soft tomato
This kitchen is hotter than the surface of the sun on its most shiniest day!
I can't! I don't want to!
I am high.
I can't! I don't want to!
I am high.
After hi
Who me?
Eating one of those Cadbury silk chocolates in the bubblegum flavour and help me gods cuz I love it!!
Eating one of those Cadbury silk chocolates in the bubblegum flavour and help me gods cuz I love it!!
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