This morning today

Who me?
Awake and waiting for the physiotherapist to finish his job with the FIL before finally treating my right arm which has long been under a 'tennis elbow' duress but is now almost healed.
in fact I have been awake since 6:30 which is the time the physio gave me, except I didn't realise he meant that would be the time he'd come to treat other people before finally treating me.
Like an ass I've been awake too early for comfort and upon finding no physio in the house I made the stupid mistake of asking my MIL whether he came or not and she replied in her usual morning acidic goodness 'if he'd come he'd have been visible !!'
Okay wow!
The vibes in this house are so skewed that I don't feel like being a part of this place here.
Like why does no one smile and wish good morning to each other? Why do I feel like an idiot when I do so cuz I never get any replies.
No one acknowledges each other with a satisfied nod nor smile in the morning.
It feels all sorts of oppressive and sad.

I'm not used to this sort of environment. :(

Edit: the therapist knocked on my door as I was writing the post and I left it unfinished.
Now I'm back in my room and listening to some 'Hariprasad Chaurasia' while a child throws a severe tantrum and begins to have a meltdown outside my door.

I'm coming to understand harder each day why some women absolutely refuse to live in large joint families.