I know this is so silly but I have to talk about it and perhaps find a way around it too, that I start feeling uneasily guilty when I miss workouts. I know I'm sick and that it's not that big a deal, it happens and that I'll get back to it next week, but it's like I suddenly feel like I'm piling on weight by the kilos each day that I don't sweat.
It's a psychological problem I concur and not very healthy either because it can lead to making some pretty terrible food decisions, even eating disorder and that's a path I do not wish to tread.
I mean I know how silly it sounds in fact it's stupid even to myself in the head but it sort of throws my mind in an overdrive of consistently being aware of everything I'm doing and not doing.
I once had a friend who did nothing save count calories all day to the point she suffered a terrible eating disorder and though I've never counted calories I do count the days that have gone without a workout.
I don't like this mental state and do not wish to be the person who's in a fixed flux of exercise dilemma.
Its hard on myself too because I disregard proper rest and keep busy, something I needs avoid if I wish to recuperate faster.
Ah, it's an annoyance to myself to always be bothered about such trivialities and there's no one to talk about this either.
If you talk about overall health, then these are the kind of thoughts that tend to be unhealthy and we are not about being sick here, are we?
I mean I have spoken about such things earlier and how they hamper well being, but we aren't always immune to our demons.
I know I know, I'll try to make this better.
Ugh.
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