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Morning and I am exhausted!
Didn't sleep much last night not least because all the @%#*<@ rituals got done with around 1:30 in the AM. After that I was required to clean the stove top and throw away or rather feed the cows, the dogs and other wildlife as it says the leftover food from yesterday and after that finally I was required to fry some sweet dough balls to mark the ending of something and the beginning of another thing.

I don't know what anything was about as I'd switched to the automatic mode and mechanically went about doing all that was asked.

Finally when I hit the bed around 2:15 in the morning the sleep I'd been feeling since 10:30 was all but gone.
I kept shifting positions in bed, trying to find sleep as my entire body craved some rest but couldn't find any.
It was too late to pop in a sleeping pill and when I found myself swaying with sleep I was woken up because the mosquitoes in the room had made their presence felt.

After 3:30 it was pretty much me against the mosquitoes.
I had switched on the lights and tried looking for the bastards that kept singing their song every time I wanted to shut my eyes.
This went on till about 6 in the morning and after that I finally slept for a couple hours and found myself in the kitchen making tea at 8:30.

My entire body is screaming for rest.
That's the only one thing I want which is to get a long uninterrupted sleep after my entire day of shenanigans.
That's my new mantra and my coping mechanism and the main reason behind my staying energised and inability to fatigue through the day.
I need at least 7-8 hours of sleep and if I don't get it my body simply doesn't recover from the long exhausting days I bind myself to.

I am currently looking like a roadkill wrapped in floral cotton clothes.
I hate it.
I just want this to end.
I don't want anymore rites and rituals and I can't take living with people I barely know and am not ingrained to understand.
I am so out of my comfort zone I almost want to cry.