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I had never ever seen nor witnessed nor been a part of any of these rituals which I had to perform today and still have to once some people return from the cremation ground.
Unwashed as is required and cleaning house and even putting 'gobar' in places.
I don't question, I don't hesitate, I just do what the pandits tell me to do and what the people of the house require of me.
Throwing water out of the house entrance, putting neem leaves, applying colour to the deceased's forehead and face!
I mean I don't know how to process it at all.
I did have an anti anxiety medicine though!