all of this and that

 Finally, after several hours of cleaning, changing, washing, mopping, wiping and vacuuming here we are in a somewhat cleaner house than what I had come to.

I say somewhat because I am still a bit undecided as to what looks not completely in synch. I know what it is, it's the windows and glass panes that need a good squeaky cleaning up and which I couldn't finish today because I ran out of juice.

I mean I was able to finally have lunch at 3:40, which is hardly a suitable time to eat lunch and almost too shamefully late.

I feel like a total novice to a keyboard. This new keyboard is throwing me completely off balance with its noise and the keys that are so extremely blocky. I am so used to the soft tap of the previous laptop's keyboard that this feels like I'm typing on a typewriter. 

So where were we?

Right, yes to the house, back from the vacation which was alright I guess, as vacations go, I'd have preferred it to be with someone other than 'people' but that what can one do?

The pitfalls of marriage are that you're destined to spend time with that one person you've got yourself societally glued to. Anything else is fundamentally wrong.

The cold has finally begun to bite and a lot of my plants have been sacrificed to the frost which has a way of turning to a thin sheet of ice over every surface these mornings. 

I found myself greatly disturbed this morning when a man in my full view hung a rabbit to a tree and skinned it while I thought it was thrashing about.

I complained about it as well but I'm not sure anyone's going to do anything about it. I mean my sensibilities getting hurt are no one's concern when a man was flaying a rabbit to eat and not on my property either.

It left me feeling angry and aggravated to a point where I think I shall not find myself being nice or civil to the people of the said family and if my hunch is correct then this is the rabbit I have been seeing inside their house for the past few months. The same rabbit they've been feeding and playing with.

Last day of the year they say..

I have no plans, not this year. Will just sit with my cats, drink some sparkling water and call it a night. 

confessions and discussions

 This year I want to go full throttle with my fitness plans, something I largely stayed out of during quarantine. Yes, I worked out but not with the intensity I like.

I want to push hard with steady-state cardio this year, harder than ever before and for that, I might include running (a task I generally dislike) but instead of a whole lot of running, I could perhaps just keep it limited to a few km after a cardio workout that is because running all on its own is not for me. I want to have already sweated enough before running because that's how my system works.

This week I will concentrate mostly on getting my heart rate up and adding small bits of strength training towards the end before cool down. 

Yes, these plans all sound so wonderful but I do have a significant hurdle to cross which is basically 'TIME" something I fall short of adequately managing.

I would love for everything to fall in place and for me to be ready for my exercise in time because then I have my own lunch to prepare, after which there are other things related to work that I must pursue before finally fixing dinner. There are four demanding cats in between all this and a house that needs constant managing what with chores et al.

How do I do this?

A question still left unanswered.

My best answer to it all is to start early!

How early I can't say but I have to figure it out because realistically speaking none of my runnings and gym plans will ever work out if don't reserve at least 1.5 hours for my workouts alone. That's a lot of time.

Once I factor in the time needed for food photoshoots the entire day feels a bit sawed off from its promised 24 hours.

But then what does one do except try to figure a way around it?

I've taken to prepping meals the night before to save on time from cooking lunch for myself the next day

and perhaps that's what I'll have to do with food pics as well. 

Maybe adapt the same strategy as I did while I was at my parents and clicking pictures full force.

Of course, it was much easier because I didn't have to cook breakfast, lunch and dinner every day.

How do I do it without compromising anywhere? I want to be able to do it all and everything.

I'm trying to find a solution and perhaps after some trial and error, I will reach some sort of answers.