The updates and downs of it

The local 'French' restaurant I used to haunt mainly for baguettes and coffee back in Shanghai called 'rive de pains' which was located about 50 feet from my house has been sending me messages enquiring about my absence and telling me about their new 'sesame baguettes' and I have not the heart to tell them I live there no longer that I am not even on the same continent :(
In a strange twist of events I have literally come to the shore of loaves which is what the name of their restaurant literally translates to and I do miss the ease of walking to that restaurant/bakery to pick up a flask of coffee, something which is amiss here at least in my village that is.
I'm Beginning to think that someone who's used to a steady supply of takeouts wouldn't do very well living here since there's not a single food delivery app that delivers here.
Hah!! Oh well.

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The strange anxiety of always looking outside expecting someone to bang on my door or lean on the doorbell has greatly reduced and for the past few weeks I'm able to shower without a second thought, when earlier I would step out soaking wet several times to peek out of the window expecting someone standing outside in a hazmat suit.
I'm still unable to load my shopping cart in a grocery store to capacity because it brings back strange memories of difficult times just weeks before lockdown when the ominous signs were floating and people were panicking in superstores, stacking their carts to the skies and the stores had run dry of milk, vegetables, fruits and people were shoving each other aside and screaming and pulling things and the payment line would be over two hours long and I would be standing in shock with my friend with our carts empty of anything significant but full of whatever crap we could lay our hands on. Tetra pack milk, low grade cup noodles, bags of sugar and salt, oil bottles, frozen meat, of brand chips, garlic, ginger, water bottles.

I didn't realise how those moments impacted me until I went to a grocery store a couple weeks ago and 'people' started piling stuff into the cart and I couldn't get myself to look at it and broke down. I had to abruptly leave the place and I thought I couldn't breathe.
I think I'll slowly get over that too but in the meanwhile since that episode we have been doing small shoppings every couple days to avoid that moment from recurring.

So strange right?

I’m the moon

From last night.
It really was beautiful, however I'm not sure of it being as blue as my heart seeing how it's been a while since us..

Head baby

Today I have been in a funk because of a headache that started early morning around 4 and took two pain killers to get rid of.
The reason why it happened I am aware of and it was a posture issue and I am resolved to keep it at bay.
It's been weeks since my last headache and I am / was glad that their frequency is greatly reduced but gimme a break!

Tryouts

This is a French sauce :)
I has to try this sort of local mayo that can't keep in the fridge long as is enough just for daily sort of consumption and it's quite different than the mayo I sort of like and love (kewpie and hellmans) both of course a sort of abomination to think about it but I have grown to love their taste and this mayo, which is apparently that 'right' mayo tastes mighty different.
It's a bit sour and lot more flavourful.
I don't know if I can go back to the usual bottled ones anymore.
Fresh mayo yes please!

And today a Wednesday

Morning and I realise it's Rakhi and can't believe that last Rakhi was the next day in august as I had to leave for China after that entire lockdown ordeal and I'd stayed with him for a while and given him a Casio watch i'd bought to wear whilst in India as Rakhi :)
Time has passed since and somethings have irreversibly changed.
And I am none the wiser!
Still suspended in a strange bubble of existence I listen to Meera meow for attention.

And finale

Spent most of the evening after 5 arranging kitchen and bringing this behemoth into the house and it's been more than five hours and I'm just done re arranging the entire kitchen and transferring contents from one fridge to another and all that in the middle of a terrible mood and shitty cramps!
Ugh!!!

OUI NON

So well, seems like my work has reached a point to where it has started growing tentacles and now I need a mechanical keyboard because I need the entire setup you see.

Enough shop talk. what's happening today?

Tuesday you say? gods below, what an annoying day. 

What am I to do except not hate on everything and have coffee while at it?

Which is exactly what I am doing and also hoping to not get into one of my moods today.

Looks like I am going to receive some help to get my fridge into the house. 

Here is hoping. I really really need my fabulous fridge to come into my arms.

Also, the weather has started changing which I find utterly silly because it's not even September yet and I would like a bit more of the sunny hot weather before succumbing to coldness.

Okay then, I am off to do some stuff, I don't know what.