volatile

 Gah!! 

What a slow fucking day!

the weather is the only thing nice about it.

In the mood to go out on my scooter except it might rain anytime.

The skies are a bit temperamental as I see them and it brings to mind a collage of images spliced in random moments of ecstatic moans. 

muzak

This is absolutely delicious.

heavy fisted doom kissed with psychedelic tones with those long drawn sexy vocals that seem to swim along with the tenor of the music. 

Such a mood this.

 

all the updates

 So here we are, a little past four and I'm preparing to go nowhere with today because it's been a waste in terms of getting my work done, everything else has been fine.

I am slowly getting into the zone of fixing my timings especially regarding the workouts and the earlier I start the better it is. Of course, all the stars have to align for that to happen but today I was done by 11:40 which is good. I was able to do an hour-long intense cardio session with a long cool down.

The only thing I lagged behind in was lunch but still got done by 1 and I'm trying to somewhat cut some more corners so as to be able to start eating before 1 at the very least.

Tomorrow I might miss out on my workout because I'm going to spending the day with a friend who's leaving the country day after and we are making bread together so that she has something fun to eat during her quarantine and I'll make her lunch/dinner. She's very interested in eating the palak curry we make and tomorrow that's exactly what I'll do for her.

I have also cut out coffee from my days, however, tomorrow will be an exception since she's a coffee fiend and what not.

The house looks shiny, the cats are all asleep because it's cold, oh so cold today and I am in the mood for a small cup of hot chocolate.

Tomorrow is Friday..you know what that means! A large mug of tea. I mean these are little life enhancers for me and I try to stick to these wee joys in life because to me these are indeed celebratory.

My friend who was greatly peeved at me for having missed spending new years with her is adamant we celebrate it again this Saturday at a bar she has discovered and who am I if not all for festivities all the time.

Thinking about dinner starts giving me a headache and what will it be tonight?

I cannot keep coming up with different foods each night and today it will be mixed veg with paranthas because that's what I feel like or maybe I'll just make stuffed paranthas. How does cauliflower paranthas sound? Yummy!! Maybe that's what I'll make. 

Off to make some hot chocolate!!

Over and out!]

some more of nothing

The weather has suddenly dropped over 10º in one night and where I was roaming around in a tee last night I've had to don a sweater and fish out a couple of my winter friendly gears which though odd to look at are extremely cosy, and seeing how the weather is only going to get worse from now it's best to stay in control of the situation.

There is a foot warmer I have in my possession and it looks like a small furry cushion with a large pocket and what it really is, is exactly that. I can put my feet inside it while I work because in these winters it's always my feet and the tip of my nose that feel the maximum torture and I've been waiting to bust it out this season and perhaps in a couple days I will have to.

There are a couple shoes which I need to get dry cleaned and I keep procrastinating this small task.

A small mountain of clothes that have just gotten ironed and stacked in wardrobes and now I grope my way back to my workplace and get down to business, but before all of that, I need some music. Something depressing, something sexy, something that competes with today's bleak weather. 

wish

If I could
I would walk into a den of wafting hallucinogens and inhale deep until pebbles turn to gems and sand to glass.

ugh

What is this life so full of meh!
I have no time to stand and eh!

µµ

So it's deal with my insecurities o clock and I usually like some coffee to go with. 

mmmusic

This just hits the spot. Demonic riffs, old school vocals, blood spiking tracks and maniacally melodious through and through.

sounds to today

To accentuate, festoon and augment the voluptuously dingy provocativeness of today with the apt music of a fittingly opaque stygian aura.

You can't really go wrong with a name like 'sex on the grave' 

melody now

because it's lovely and calming and feels like I'm floating in the ether 

caffeine sorrow

There's a near invisible line between just sweet and a bit too sweet and I think I crossed that line with my coffee and ended up with one a bit too sweet for my liking.
Hot drinkable dessert anyone? ugh. 

Dead leaf curtain magic

Listening to Samurai Champloo ost, feeling all kinds of feverish and chilly. 

This isn't right, I know when 'this' happens, and when it does, I don't like it or hate it. 

It just flows through, singeing every follicle beneath my skin, like electromagnetic tremors and waves, transferring through each cell of my living system, echoing in ripples, crashing and heaving in molecular tsunami..it affects my thoughts into deranged fantasies and delirious wishes.

Strange sensations of pining, accentuated with the summer smells of this month from some time past, invoking a rapacious need to relive memories and hurt.