ugh ok but ugh

An ode to waking up on a Monday, only to clean the debris of days gone by. The piled up excesses in the wreckages of the weekend, slovenly sullying the taintless demeanour of pristine surroundings with the leavings of greedy exuberance that somehow tends to concentrate in a forty-eight-hour debacle of lavish overloads, aided and abetted by passive dilatoriness.
Oh, to wake up under a fullsome pyramid of crumbling redundancy, noticeable decayed moments perishing in corners collecting wisps of microscopic tumbleweeds, collecting momentum, gathering dust.
Absoluteness for the need to begin anew hitting hard; the punctured mien slowly disengaging from holiday abstractions of eschewing existence into palpable constructive solidity.
Sighs.

enough for today

In desperate need to not do anything, so here I am, sitting at my desk, looking for distractions because some days are meant to be spent in an absent minded stupor.

I could write a poem, but don't feel energized enough. I could edit some pics and update my blog, but don't feel motivated enough.
there's a dearth of 'enough' today and maybe that means something.

There's a story I've been meaning to write, but can't tax my brains enough..

The only things I know I can do and want to is read something that'll numb me enough.

Sitting in this dour air of sombre cheerlessness, and wondering when will it ever be enough.. sigh, can't get over my pessimism today.

Could be the season change. the advent of summers in their most horrific humidity has me bothered..the fact that a piece of cheese began moulding in the fridge has me bothered, the fact that everything including my soul begins moulding in this humidity has me bothered.

What I wouldn't do for a really dry heat wave? well I'd do all sorts of things, beginning with doing absolutely nothing, as I'm resolved or rather resigned to do today.

Mayhaps watch a new anime I've downloaded..more on that later though..

but today, ah, today,Goddamn Friday!

Hmph..later!

Woe is all those things I need to do and how I learn to pursue procrastination with a passion.
Falling off a determination wagon and into the idle arms of prolonged lingering.
Delving into a questionnaire realm of the why of things and coming out besmirched with an answerless grin.
A simple shrug, shoulder roll, eye roll, yawn and thus commences and auto kill switch mode, one that shuts down all sources of will and tenacity.
Blame the weather, the languorous onslaught of incoming weekends which even though a couple days away is still enough to bring out a haze of permeating dilatoriness, a miasma of sweet sweet negligence.

--to--d--a--y

An irregular night that smeared itself all over today.
Did I sleep did I not? I did wake up puffy eyed and incredibly unhappy.

What am I today?
a nurse.

there isn't much to look forward to today, except that we're going for dinner to someone's house. Do I look forward to it? not exactly. sigh. ugh

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Someone told me my writings are kafkian, and that sort of made my day. Talk about painting nights black.