I am resetting my default mode that had been left switched on for a while which led me to gaining weight and going off track with everything that was my regularly programmed schedule.
Unless I don't get out of the funk that I am in and get back on the path that I used to walk on, my mood and spirit will never be as they were.
I have been ignoring myself for a while and I don't want to anymore. Life is not going to be as happy as it had been for a while now and things are dangling in the depressing atmosphere of uncertainty and deep loss which will be grieved forever and in between this aura of murky sadness I find myself riding the misery tidal pool and letting go, which is unlike me.
I have to get a grip.
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The hardest part of everything is waking up and I find myself cursing the world each morning.
