Today

Monday and the morning began as usual except around 9 when I was just about to have a cup of tea I heard a loud thud in my background and heard Meera wailing.
I ran towards the sound and found him thrashing on the floor with a sort of seizure.
Suddenly he stopped thrashing and went still and his eyes were wide.
I thought I'd lost him but then he started breathing fast and stayed motionless on the floor. I kept trying to bring him back to consciousness but he couldn't react to anything.
Slowly his eyes started moving and he could love his face as he responded to his name.
A few minutes later he began to slightly move but not completely..
I didn't know what to do.
I was scared, worried and couldn't react.
Thankfully people had still not left for work and we immediately left for a nearby vet.
By the time I loaded Meera into the car he had started moving and walking albeit shakily and couldn't completely stand up.
The nearby vet told us that they couldn't do such full fledged check ups and after I told her about the seizure she kindly brought him into the hospital and did some peripheral tests.
She informed us that his lower limbs were quite cold and that it couldn't be thrombosis.
Or that perhaps he's ingested some toxic substance.

We were told to go to the big hospital in the city and once we reached there Meera had resumed most of his movements.
His lowers limbs were still cold and the doctor doesn't think it's thrombosis but they feel it might be some toxins in his system that he ingested.
He is now at the vet hospital for the day while the doctors run some tests on him and we will get a full breakdown of his condition today evening.

Ugh!!!
I am so upset and sad.
Upset because the whole vet situation here is new to me and I don't know where to easily go as I used to back in Shanghai.
I was able to manage it all but here I'm still quite amazed that small clinics don't do things that big clinics do and an emergency situation can get a bit complicated.

I'm very angry with myself because I don't know what suddenly happened to my darling Meera. He who has braved several cat fights and bites and never fell sick once suddenly had a seizure.

I am scared and for a moment I stood frozen because a few years ago I lost my 'jugnu' after witnessing a similar seizure and today at that moment all I could think of was what if my Meera was suddenly dead. Which he isn't but I cannot explain how deliriously startled and scared I was.
My poor darling.
All I want is for my little family of fur to be okay. Is it too much to ask for?