I have taken up browsing amazon for the lack of anything better to do especially when I'm just sitting by myself in between things.
I've been feeling the emptiness of my routines that comes about by a sudden disruption in life when you're not expecting anything to suddenly spiral.
This doesn't feel like a vacation, it's more like an extended time out and I feel the fatigue of it.
My comforts as I left them do not translate the same way here and so I have to terraform everything around me to feel more cozy and at home which brings me to browsing amazon.
I was browsing for essential oils because that's one ritual and an almost daily routine that I loved to set time apart for, not that it took more than two minutes in total but having my entire house smell of delicious different things each day felt so comforting.
Today I craved the usual warmth of tangerine melted into a whisper floating about me, probably as I would on a normal day back home, and I had no similar essential oil in the house except sandalwood and that wasn't what I needed that moment and so I let it be.
Sighs galore.
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