Today began exactly seven hours ago and this is a small moment of Phew in a lost list of exasperated gasps that is today because the matriarch and I travel to another city where her husband is soon to be operated upon and this has increased the stress and strain on our already existing fragile relationship because there needs be someone to act as a cushion for all the excess painful baggage and what am I if not uncomplaining when I need to be.
Like patience on a monument I begin the day walking the dog while the sun is still beginning it's ascent and that moment onwards it's either this or that. Like an engine cranked up from the moment of ignition driven to despair until it splutters and stops.
Something simple as having a morning cuppa tea which is my only moment of calm is punctuated with demands and needs to get nefariously boring household chores done which can wait a long while seeing how up until the moment of my arrival they lay procrastinated but this isn't the time to quip and thusly the tongue is held under lock and key replaced by an assuring nod.
Maybe once I'm in another city the strain will ease and there will be others to share and support letting me off the hook for a while.
Hopefully all turns out swell but until then fingers crossed.
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