Is it this or that

That time of the day
When I contemplate
If I should drink another cup of tea
Or just jump into the workout
Which I don't think I can do
The workout I mean
Because I feel dead
The crimson tide is on its way
And I feel lethargic
Run down
In a hormonal carnival
I try to breathe
There's things to be done
And perhaps another tea to be made

Sighs

Today
Has been productive
In ways I am used to
Nothing exceptional
I'd have rather liked
Had I been able to make new headways
Create a milestone
Break my daily typecast
And emerge a victor
But alas
Here I am
In the usual Mundane
Which I try to love
And learn to embrace

And lunch

Lunch which is some oyster and cream feuilleté with a large side of salad.

Lethargic notes

Monday morning and I woke up feeling someone had beaten me while I slept. My legs were hurting, my entire body was broken but it wasn't real. It was phantom pain I think because when I woke up and stepped out thinking the first step into the world will have me crumbling, I realised I was absolutely fine, a bit tired though.
I haven't slept well the past couple days and I want my delicious uninterrupted 8 hour long sleep .
I think I woke up multiple times last night, turned on the bedside table light to check if any cats were fighting.
Apparently that bit of issue around the house isn't resolved and it's making my life sort of hellish.
I keep finding tufts of fur almost always mingled with black fur which show everyone's picking on Nemo these days.
Sighs.
Anyways, tea, toast, upper body strength and I will be good to go!! Lots of editing today.

Hola

Saturday and I'm exhausted.
Exhausted with everything!!
People are sick, I am tired of doing everything all the time.
Today finally, I got done with the recording, something which was supposed to get done by Thursday!
Alright then.
People want to eat guacamole and chips, I want to eat burrata salad and that means I'm gonna have to make both things tonight! And then dinner?
Whoops!!

Unwind

Nighttime and I sit in my duvet tent, my feet still cold, although at night I know my feet still search for those cold spots under the duvet.

Tired, my feet sore from standing all day and working on the recording and then cooking and doing things around the house cuz people are quite unwell.

Now?
I am reading a book, my entire body trying to calm down, wondering about what all has to be done tomorrow.

It’s not new

Morning and I woke up on the wrong side of bed today.
Apparently people are down with 'shingles' and they were meant to take an off but this morning I was in such a foul mood that people opted to go to work instead, despite feeling worse for wear.
Well, now we know I can drive a man to kill himself just by being in a terrible mood.

Alright then, workout done quite early, now I must shower and get on with my day at by includes some recording for new video and then the usual usual.