Thursday, 31 January 2019
Aha
That people here are called 'Murugan, Narsimha, Katappa, Venkateshwara, Chitralekha, Manmohini, Sridevi warms the cockles of my heart.
Aggretsuko
Perhaps another few days and I'll have to come back to make arrangements for the post op patient in their family home which would involve me cleaning the entire house to make it conducive for his recuperation and I'll tell you one thing which is I'm not the person for this job, not least because it is a mammoth task to clean that house but also because I'm not ready to burden myself with that chore and mostly not prepared to get jibed at small issues I might raise which has been the case in past.
Of course I'm there to help and no I won't be alone but that part comes in much later because until then it's only going to be the two of us to make preparations for the rest of the contingent that'll come after and 'sanitised' is the word that is being thrown around rather freely making me smirk each time someone informs us about the necessary precautions needed because that house is exactly the antithesis.
In fact these people are an anathema to cleanliness.
Cleanliness is an attitude and whoever has it will keep a clean house no matter the circumstances and one who doesn't can never keep the house clean no matter how favourable the kismet and in this case the latter applies.
I know I'm being bitchy, complaining about something like this but who else can I tell what I feel?
I'm usually seething at small such issues but of course there's a smile on my face often confused with empathy but little do they know how I scream inside, denouncing everything.
Of course I'm there to help and no I won't be alone but that part comes in much later because until then it's only going to be the two of us to make preparations for the rest of the contingent that'll come after and 'sanitised' is the word that is being thrown around rather freely making me smirk each time someone informs us about the necessary precautions needed because that house is exactly the antithesis.
In fact these people are an anathema to cleanliness.
Cleanliness is an attitude and whoever has it will keep a clean house no matter the circumstances and one who doesn't can never keep the house clean no matter how favourable the kismet and in this case the latter applies.
I know I'm being bitchy, complaining about something like this but who else can I tell what I feel?
I'm usually seething at small such issues but of course there's a smile on my face often confused with empathy but little do they know how I scream inside, denouncing everything.
Wednesday, 30 January 2019
TIL
Things I didn't know due to me very limited hospital experience is that when you buy blood from hospital you need to donate some as well and so I saw bottles getting filled with my beloved O+.
The operation meanwhile has been successful and the rest we will know tomorrow only. The doctors excel in expectation management, in that they do not say something overly optimistic so as not to get hopes up in case things get worse but overall it's alright and the rest only tomorrow shall know.
The operation meanwhile has been successful and the rest we will know tomorrow only. The doctors excel in expectation management, in that they do not say something overly optimistic so as not to get hopes up in case things get worse but overall it's alright and the rest only tomorrow shall know.
Today and tea
No morning tea today. Is that why I'm so cranky, it doesn't show however but I am agitated.
On a positive caffeine related note South India is a hub for all that is coffee.
Cafe Coffee day every ten steps and perhaps that is where I shall seek solace in some tea because god help me I do not like tea shop chai's for their unrestricted addition of cardamom and continuous boils that lend tea a certain horrible flavour taking away the teaness, replacing it with a thick acidity.
On a positive caffeine related note South India is a hub for all that is coffee.
Cafe Coffee day every ten steps and perhaps that is where I shall seek solace in some tea because god help me I do not like tea shop chai's for their unrestricted addition of cardamom and continuous boils that lend tea a certain horrible flavour taking away the teaness, replacing it with a thick acidity.
Prelude
Morning and I'm sitting inside of a ward.
It's recently been disinfected and everyone's been asked to keep from touching anything all the better for me because it is morbid, this entire debacle.
How does one keep a straight face and smile through, looking at everyone else who is talking about mundane topics and I am unable to crack as much as a sentence only because I don't know what would be appropriate to say, also because I just can't find myself feeling happy while sitting in a place so obviously doleful.
Of course the near cheerful facade hides distress and everyone here only tries to keep up appearances so as not to worry the person soon to be ushered into surgery and I'm weak company because surely were I left on my own I would depress the sense out of patients which is why I'm better as a potted plant in the background.
Nodding and agreeing.
Let this all be over soon.
Soon.
It's recently been disinfected and everyone's been asked to keep from touching anything all the better for me because it is morbid, this entire debacle.
How does one keep a straight face and smile through, looking at everyone else who is talking about mundane topics and I am unable to crack as much as a sentence only because I don't know what would be appropriate to say, also because I just can't find myself feeling happy while sitting in a place so obviously doleful.
Of course the near cheerful facade hides distress and everyone here only tries to keep up appearances so as not to worry the person soon to be ushered into surgery and I'm weak company because surely were I left on my own I would depress the sense out of patients which is why I'm better as a potted plant in the background.
Nodding and agreeing.
Let this all be over soon.
Soon.
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