Recuperating rhymes

Today on my way

to post some cards

boxing match

a couple of chew cud stars

locking horns

a death match

but did I care

my hair looks shiny

so here's a selfie

sans fards

Today till now

I'm faking colours in my life. Hah. It's like affirmations really. Or maybe not. I don't care. Is been a rough few days, too much work.

And worst of all, stepping out of the house every goddamn day. The weather is warm, cool, warm, hot, sizzling, sunny, pleasant, blistering, odd. 

Had gone to the post office today (Gol Dak khana), and it's as kafkaesque as it gets. 

Totally surreal, and oddly romantic. 

(I never thought the insides of such an efficient system looked so rustic creak)

Felt like a philatelic freak today..and these aren't the stamps I want to lick, still in each life some rain must fall..and I've been fending tornadoes for a while. 

Lack of sleep and wedding work, multiplied by cat catastrophe, liberally supplemented by the sads can be a terrible thing. Nay, ..its woeful. 

I've a crick in my neck, and feel like a broken puppet with minimal head movements and exaggerated joker like smile. 

The crick that started as ignorable ache is now massive. To the point that I had to pop in a painkiller, but still it persists. 

 

I should rest I know, but I'd rather be exhausted numb.amnesiac. I wish j had amnesia. 

Tonight/morning

In the morning of night

when nothing is right

not even the light

of your room

so late at night 

it looks so bright

but actually it's dark

the light is slight

I'll give you what I have

flowers in a vase

pictures words and scars

scars we share

but even so

you can look at mine

I can look at yours 

sleep tight late at night

I want to throw a fit

hold in my breath

and stomp my feet

and throw a tantrum too

Ah I want to throw a goddamn tantrum

or even have a fucking meltdown

or just shout out in to the void

till my lungs pop out 

Or just fucking cry

not those simpering soundless bathroom kinds

but the ones I could scream out

till my throat bleeds

till I could drown my fucking sorrows

or go out of my mind

I want to throw curses, 

punch walls

kick Windows

slam tables

throw rocks

Chain smoke

smash phones

break glasses

ensconced in cotton sheets

calm, collected, convivial

no fits, no stomping feet

Craziness is an illusion to make yourself feel better when you're always defeated by reality. 

Leaf me

What love might look like had it been a potted plant.

Treasure on terrace tops—it's a hibiscus plant/tree, and I don't know what kind of sunlight these leaves have been feeding on because they're a rhapsody of rainbows.

 Keep staring for further inspiration. 

How does this all come to stay stored in a seed? All these colour codings of leaves, leathery red hibiscus petals, this goddamn tree..all from a silly seed? 

Wake and bake and ache and cake

I love a life full of do's and no dont's and yet in each life some rain must fall..and so it is with baking.

The only rule is you gotta play by the rules.

Precise measurements and temperature makes all the difference, and follow the recipe instructions. 

Do's and dont's of baking 

- bake often to get the hang of your oven and become friends with it.

- measure and weigh your ingredients. Always.

- mise en place. Every fucking time.

- always pre heat your oven at least 20-25 minutes before you put in anything to bake. The oven should always be hot hot hot when you put in anything, not warming up or tepid. That's a no no. 

- Be patient! The first few attempts mightn't be what you expected, but that will get better with each time you bake.

- be prepared to wash a lot of dishes in the aftermath. 

Dont's 

- don't bake halfheartedly 

- don't ever keep a dirty oven. Clean it routinely.

- don't use stale leavening agents. Baking soda and powder shouldn't be older than six months.

- don't use cheap quality throw away baking material to save on the washing.

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Baking basic must haves  

- measuring cups and spoons. Easily available everywhere online or otherwise. 

-kitchen weighing scale. ( some recipes specify measurements in cups and some in gms)

- parchment paper or butter paper for baking.

- baking moulds (silicon or otherwise)

-good quality oven mitts.

-large bowls for mixing batter.

-whisk with a sturdy hold. The wirey ones are difficult to use after a while.

-silicon spatula. Nothing scrapes wet batter as cleanly from the sides of a bowl as a good silicone spatula. 

-large sieve. 

-kitchen tissue rolls for degunging greasy fingers.

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I will write some more on baking and if I've missed out on something, I'll include it all in new baking posts, and update on my food blog.

Rrrrrrrr...rrrramble

Late night herbs and nujabes.

(Genome, ole, no way back) 

Staring contest with my cat, he creeps me out by not caring even a goddamn smidgen. Sleeps on freshly ironed dresses, doesn't respond to me sweet caresses. Not because he's a cat, but cuz he's a he. A stupid male cat, full of himself. Doesn't even know he's neutered. Stupid shite! The alpha and the omega, the gama poisoning of the goddamn genome.

..we come readily installed with a software called life, and need to keep rebooting every now and then, to keep in top condition. 

Updates happen each day, every second,  every knowing moment..and reboots are few but not rare..you're installed with a new software each time you reboot, and you wake up to a new moment in your life. A new turn, an unlocked safe house, a red pin drop, white and yellow milestone. Everything you leave behind is a beautiful scenery, and everything forward is an unknown difficulty. 

What do I know? I keep ignoring pin drops and chase stupid cars and prefer camping when it comes to full blown shoot outs. I've gotten really good at ducking and shooting and my aims are getting better. The crosshair doesn't move deliriously anymore. 

So R2 L2 R3 that's ducking and aiming and shooting. It took me a while to get used to walking wile aiming, but I'm getting better.

 The night is only a shade lighter than those irises and I'm packing wedding cards.