Sunday, 4 October 2015

Wounds

Nights are weary now
they go back and forth in infinity,
destined forever to birth a new day, everyday,
and kill it before birthing the next.
now they've lost their shiny veil
moth eaten and slashed in places
gaping wounds that tell a tale

wounds so large they ooze of pain
and dark viscous matter—some say it's ache
as soon as night prepares to slaughter
the remnants of an ageing day
the wounds dilate, bleed agonizing misery
ectoplasmic tar of ancient history

The night weeps with grief
and stifles the day
tears a trickle of sigh and woe
dark pain a river of hurt
that finds a way into your sleep
shrouds of gloom to dismember your dream
and if you are awake
they become your ink.








Saturday, 3 October 2015

Night bulb

There's a white bulb peeking out of the clouds tonight.

A silver ball zipped through the night sky, leaving a trail of blazing white streak behind, like mad speck of silver dust ripping through wormholes in a blinding haste. It suddenly stopped dead in its tracks, mesmerized by the blue orb below— and stared and stared at it, until It stood still forever. 
Goddamn moon, Byronic asshole, sweet poetic, stupid idiotic, alluring, pathetic, lovely, distant.

Friday, 2 October 2015

Blue bird

There's no novelty about Twitter anymore. Same people keep saying the same stuff over and over. 
The few good voices left out there seem to be drowned in the same old same old
Twitter has turned to a placid battle ground scene where novelty has died a painful death and started to rot, and foul political stench hangs like an aura. It feels ravaged and massacred by everyone who can type on their phones, sadly no one has anything to say. 

Kids still dangling onto their umbilical chords have encroached that place with their nonsensical understanding and make conversations with little sense all over the goddamn TL.
Too many opinions and too few good words.
The gossips are stale, conversations banal, and it feels like a sparring hipster turf.
How long are you going to drag that dead joke and keep RTing the fuck out of it? How many times must I see the same gifs? Black jokes, white jokes, whatsapp memes, conversation screenshots, fuck it all. 
Twitter was fun once, but now it feels overcrowded with stragglers from other social media platforms.
Maybe there'll be a day so desperately cliche that Twitter will remove its 140 character limits. That's the day you know you run from that quagmire. 
Twitter is done with me, and I'm done with Twitter.
 Au revoir little blue bird. 


It could bee.

"Sleep a little more, it's too early for you to wake up" said the cloud from a distant hushed voice, reaching his fingers to lightly touch her forehead.
  In between pulling her covers to fit in more snug, and giving the cloud a half dead gaze, the sleeping bee let a flicker of smile dance on her lips— so sweet and dutiful.
 The cloud nodded with a responsible fondness and smiled back.
"I shan't be long, I have just a few places to rain. Have a good day today, and don't go buzzing too far. Your wings are but dainty" and having said this,the cloud wafted off, leaving the now asleep bee sprawled carelessly on her spotless cloud bed, snug and protected.
The sun was up when the bee was still trying to halfheartedly fight her will to leave her bed; her shiny bright comfortable pristine room; Made of white wisps of dew and invisible cloud flakes. She peered down at the greenery far away, away from the blues and whites of her house and skies. 
"That's where I'm going to be about today" thought the bee, preening her gossamer dainty wings, eyeslashes still matted in sleep, from under which peeked a pair of searching eyes.
 
By afternoon, the bee was fully awake, she brushed her polka dotted bodice and loosened her wings..diving deep, straight and right into the distant greens. 

The greens were lush and lovely, and the bee soon tired of prancing around..found herself steering towards another bee.
"Such a strange bee, it's so big and yellow and orange, and black and gold. Does it it fly too, or does it just stare like so at the sky?" thought the bee, as it circled this strange large bee and soon came to know that it was a sunflower.

Days passed and the bee didn't realize when she'd silently sneak out of her cloud to meet with this strange sunflower bee.
"I love you so dear flower, I love it here with you. You're a bee like me, and together we will fly"
The sunflower assured her, loved her, bathed her in honey and stroked her wings. 
"The cloud feels white, cold and dull, and there's never any honey" the bee often complained.
"I understand, for my soil is cold and clammy", he'd assure her and they'd laugh and love. 
Days were merged into nights and nights were a daze, when one day the bee burnt a wing. 
Hurt and alone and writhing in pain she decided to fly to her flower bee, and ask him to leave her soil "I'll ask him to fly away with me. Always be mine. He doesn't like this soil, just as much as I don't like the cloud. 
We could be free and flying and happy" she allowed herself a little selfish thought. "Yes, this is not wrong" she consoled herself 

"Look bee, see, I've a little bud", she suddenly heard her sunflower's voice. Her darling flower was talking to her; ripping a hole through her soul with these words. Her darling flower bee brooding and glinting under the summer sun. His voice left a trail of laughter most  exquisite.. "Look, my own little bud. From our soil"

"Oh" she said 
"Come with me, we can fly" she wanted to say, but "I'm such a silly bee" was all she thought.
 
   So, back she made her way. Back to the cool loft of her cloud, back to its familiar chill.
"A bud, a bud, a bud has sprung, and I have a burnt wing" she mused.

"Dark Amber, sweet sweet honey, I leave behind now as I fly, for my wings are burnt and they need to mend. And the honey is sweet, the honey is kind the honey we shared, will always be mine..in memories..—now we have some other place to be"— she knew where she had to be,  as she looked up to see the cloud blow gentle breeze to soothe her singed wings. 

 



Fat cat

The cat has gotten fat
mother overfeeds him
and he brings her gifts
corpses and shit
he's taken to sleeping all afternoons
and he's up the whole night
a demon really
in furry delight 
no idea what he ever wants
and if he wants he wants it right now 
now now now now now
now now now now now
or until you wake up
give him food
fresh water
a gentle pat
a morning kiss
and then
It's fuck you time 
Fuck off I'm sleepy
Fuck off don't touch me
Fuck off don't come close to me
Fuck off don't look at me
Fuck off from my life




Thursday, 1 October 2015

Day day day

It's slow day
a fast day
Lazy and hard. 
day is a day
24 hours
Morning to night
breakfast to lunch,
no dinner big brunch
full of chores and lists
things to do
that and this
take out the trash
wash your car
Go to work
do some art
Write few words
live two places at once

And one day
you gotta chill 
do nothing just chill
Just chill and chill and chill 
lay down sprawled upon a bed
no one to bother you
Dead doorbells.




Lily sigh