Soar up and down

Here's the thing
I am angry, annoyed and totally under the weather.
My entire body feel alike it's been stuffed with straws and I can't stress enough how exhausted I feel. But on the other hand I had a whole lot of time to my drawing because my body absolutely refused to do any manual labour today and I am almost done with the spaceship.

Also I have to rant about how the neighbour dealt with chicken today. Like she touched raw chicken and simply washed her hands with water and went about touching other things with not a sense of salmonella urgency.
Like how does one chop chicken and then wash hand simply with some water and then handle other kitchen things, phone, coffee mug, computer, face?!!?
It gave me so much paranoia !
Like I was inwardly recoiling so hard I almost hit my backbone.
I mean what?!
I'd have sanitized my entire house ten times were she to ever do this in my home.
I mean wtf!

Also she let me hold her baby and he was a cute little fuck and I don't know why I wanted to cry for a second and in the same breath felt relieved I had my period.
I don't know what is up with my system, my head, my internal wirings .
Also did I tell you I'm drunk?!
Not least because I ate nothing all day save a couple bananas and a slice of toast and tea and now people ordered some pizza looking at my dead body and gave me some beer to cheer me up, and I'll tell you one thing darling. Drinking beer on a body that's not eaten much is something of a revelation.
I mean I am drunk and I had just two small glasses.