Banana me banana you

Have you stared lustily at a ripe banana only to peel it and hear that ripping noise which comes from peeling raw bananas?
Well, I have and I'm not happy.

Here's the thing: I like eating ripe speckled bananas, you know the ones that are just a few days from turning mush, which are spotted on the surface with that undeniably smooth texture which peels off rather easy yet holding its structural integrity because they haven't turned to mush yet..right, so those are the bananas I do love indeed, and for the past few weeks when I bought ripe banana they turned to mush the very day they started looking speckled. Most curious this oddity, for never do bananas do that.
I guessed it must be the particular brand of bananas and those were the only kind I bought and found locally and felt sad when they turned into soft goo.

I do love soft overripe bananas. They're perfect in smoothies and for the longest time I ended up using those bananas in my smoothies as opposed to my morning banana ritual, because this one time I peeled a mushy banana it fell to the floor with a soft plop smattering into a pulp of disengaged fruit in a smear of banana..not a lot of fun cleaning it.

So a couple days back I went to the fruit vendor and bought bananas that were still in their rich uniform yellow form, a few days still from being ripe and at least a couple more after from turning speckled.
I watched their progress into ripening with growing anticipation and today, as I saw a couple dark spots form on their skin, I immediately began peeling it to feed my morning hunger only to hear a scraping sound indicating that the banana was still sort of raw.

I rage ate the damn thing while sobbing in my sleeve. It tasted chalky, just as an unripe banana does.
It broke my heart to be deceived by this bunch of yellow lovers. How could it be speckled and not be ripe? Come on!
Now I wait again, and feed my smoothies with frozen bananas that I pluck from frigid garden of previous refrigeration.

Sobs.