I tried everything, all the different protocols, connecting through every possible country..but No. I was in web hell for twenty four hours. How much of this world could I possibly reach out through Baidu?
I tried to sneak up on it and catch it unawares and get it connected but it wouldn't budge and kept showing me the same notification..no matter how many times I switched off my gadgets, rebooted the Vpn app, changed protocols like a digital harlot but sorry..so I gave it the finger, yelled out my favourite medieval curses hoping that they'd hex it to connect, but yesterday was a no internet zone for me.
I ended up starting a new painting, which will hopefully be over today. Listening to the audiobook 'lies of Locke Lamora' and it gets better with every chapter. There've been instances when I'm so enraptured by the story development that I'd half forgotten I was painting. So that'll continue on today.
I've been meaning to write a story too, and it should be done soon.. Imagine that.. scheduling my day to write a story which will be 2000 words at max, maybe even less. Sigh, that's kinda meh.
Had a sort of déjà vu with dreams again last night. Different script, horrible dream..patchwork movie marathon of pitiable weak moments. I woke up again in the middle of idiot hour sweating and feeling sorry for myself..forced myself to get some sleep and I was left undisturbed this morning and ended up waking up later than usual, evading the morning chores.
Probably buy a dreamcatcher of sorts, not that I promise myself anything. Maybe it's just a small night phase, and will wear out soon..or perhaps I'm thinking up all this stuff subconsciously and it comes to bother me each night. I don't know, but this has to stop. Maybe I should tire myself a lot more to get my usual dreamless sleep.
Gawd, I haven't even gotten around to making an account on Pinterest..I've a lot of pending stuff, and feels like I'm going about it slower than I should. I need to quicken my pace.
Finished a fantastic book called 'Neverwhere' by Neil Gaiman. It's so well written and efficiently woven that I'm out of praises.
Ah, made some progress on my pet project and finally been able to scrap out a lot of stuff it didn't need. I've given it a better direction, but I need to sit and just give myself up to it with zero distractions and an even zeroer life. I mean just bury my head in words and write until my pens are on fire with friction and fiction (see what I did there?) and my head oozes out brain matter in gobs and my eyes starts bubbling with tears. I really gotta give it whatever it takes and get it done with. Maybe turn myself a hermit for a while. That should work.
I've decided to do some good music next week, even record a couple new chords for my uke..and catch up on whatever I've missed with my favourite bands and the unknown ones.
Listen to discographies upon discographies until all music's a jumble in my head, and musical notes pour out of my fingers. Yup, I've to go full blast renegade on this. Man, I miss music..and strumming a bit on my ukelele each day and sometimes at nights helps with the sanity.
And lets not forget painting. There's a series of painting I've started but I'll keep interjecting with some more random ones every now and then, and I hope to keep regular appearances with the paintbrush and pens.
Maybe a couple water color ones before I start with fine liners.
Ah, I so want to talk at length about water colours, but that's a proper post for another day.
There are so many more updates and rants.. Soon.
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