Fog off

And my flight is delayed by 3 hours.
Thankfully I didn't leave home.

Augh

The MIL supervising my packing of bags! That she's sitting on a chair outside my door watching me pack and instructing me is getting on my nerves.
I should have shut the door before beginning this sesh but who'd have expected this?!

I know I'm being too dramatic but I don't like this.

Fatty feels

I keep feeling
The folds of my fat
And realise
I have to get rid of some excess weight
Perhaps around 3-5 kilos.
No I'm serious
I need to get back in shape
I need to find my rhythm
I need to relive my routines

What’s a day

I think I have got the laziness bug
I do no thing much all day long
Watching people sleep all day makes me wonder how much sleep a human can actually get in a day?

No no zone

Stuff

There are several pairs of broken scissors, rusted old razors, expired lotions, layers of dust from 1990, combs without teeth, drawers full of rusted hair clips and sticky rubber bands but there isn't a single ear bud! Not one! Nope not a single ear bud.

Yawns

Morning and my MIL started today by getting angry with her dog and giving me a lengthy talk about her housekeeper not cleaning the dishes properly.
Her gripe with housekeeper's lack of enthusiasm in keeping the house clean and the dishes pristine is legendary, since it's consistently the one topic of conversation I never cease hearing.
It's everyone else's job to keep the house clean .Everyone's! Except the people who actually live in it.

अंदाज़न

मैंने लाइट जलाई नहीं की लाइट बुझा दि गई।

मौजूदा हालात

लाइट बंद
खिड़कियाँ बंद
दरवाज़े बंद
उम्मीदें बंद
चाहतें बंद
तम्मानाएँ बंद
इच्छाएँ बंद
ज़रूरतें बंद
ख़ुशियाँ बंद

क्योंकि कराहते हुए ज़िंदगी गुज़ारने की बात ही कुछ और है

Little things

People have taken to living horizontally in this house and I think this is his default position and his only idea of relaxing!
I don't care!
The good thing is we've appropriated separate bedrooms for ourselves to spend time as we want separately instead of doing what each other wants .
I think it works quite well.

Pop visions

Who me?
Sipping my morning tea and recounting a sweet dream

My dream started with me going to some place with an xyz person and somehow I was on a train
But on the train I was sitting next to you and soon it got congested and I ended up sitting on your lap.
I asked if I'd be too heavy and you replied with a 'nah'
The entirety of that journey I sat on your lap and you held me. I was sad about something at a point of time and you comforted me, spoke soothing words, caressed my back and didn't let me go.
At that moment I was ensconced in a warmth hard to determine in this reality.
I felt safe and happy despite being surrounded by so many people.
I woke up feeling exhilarated and sappy.

My darling
I love thee

What talks

That my MIL begins storytelling about people I do not even know and embarks on a tangent that includes information about family members of those people and random incidents that might have taken place in their lives that have no relevance to me makes me wonder why?'

Sighs

That the exhaust in this bathroom might as well be a fan plays to my disadvantage so acutely I wonder if I should just give up already and let this universe tug my boat.

Tear emoji

No no no this just won't do
I need to get beamed up!
Where art though Scottie ?

Sunfuckday

Bleurgh
That I didn't sleep well because of so many variables working against me would be a statement most accurate because heavens! I had no faith in the duvet given to me, regarding its cleanliness.

It didn't look like it had been washed in a long time and I wasn't sure how many people prior to me had used it.

I don't like that there was no duvet cover on it either and so I had to first mummify myself in a clean sheet and then use the duvet as a warming cover and the entire night was spent in an uneasy slumber.
I also dislike the fact that the room given was on ground floor, the hub of extreme morning activities where the MIL starts talking to the housekeeper at the crack of dawn all the while my door was ajar due to its inability to stay shut all the while the light from the corridor streamed in.

I hated it.
I hate it.

Silver lining?
My teeny tiny joints that I shall indulge myself in as I shower.

Sobs

And so the nightmare begins
Everything is filthy
Everything is morose
Everything is below average

Also today

Out of habit

That I keep checking my 'telegram' every given opportunity and realise with a sad sigh almost immediately that this place is going to be empty for a while

Yes please

But I'm wearing Tanjiro socks today

Kisses

From yesterday evening

I mean come on

In this little tale of fuck ups here are some more
The flight started almost 3 hours late from France
I missed my connecting flight
Now they've put me in some oman airline which will take off after 4 hours and reach muscat
From muscat I will take a flight to delhi which will reach tomorrow 1:30 in the afternoon opposed to the original plan where I was landing at 5 in the morning!
Basically I'm Middle East touring.
Hahahaha!!
Also I'm so angry

Also

The aircraft got de iced apparently that's a thing 

Lol

First time on Kuwait airlines and the flight safety video has a man explaining things. Hahahahahahaha! 

:/

Yes of course my flight is delayed
I probably will miss my connecting flight too
Yes it's quite unpleasant
But what of it

And Wednesday

Who me?
Eating escargots at home
And you?

And then what

Okay,
So my friend volunteered to make some miso soup and some Japanese style mackerel but I think she knows she's a very D- cook and so she proposed that I make the fish with some nice spicier seasoning because she felt the salt only marinade for her Japanese cooking will not suit this style of fish.
Yeah right I rolled my eyes :)

Okay

My friend is that rare individual who wakes up in the morning and eats ice cream.

Hearts

Munching on chips and missing!!

Happy Diwali my love

It’s on

My day cold
My friend asleep
My heater on

Dégustation

Who me?
At a champagne house, tasting champagne.
Cuz why not?

New one

My little black hole of needy attention seeking fluff

Nice things

Frozen water

This will never not be funny to me

Yikes

My friend is driving me a little bit crazy.

More about it later but it's taken a bit out of my daily accounted words for conversation.

What

I think I need to chill

Vibgyor

So then I found a rainbow today
Outside of my house

Little things

Added a small piece of furniture to my bedroom.
A vintage letter writing table!
It gets folded to become a chef of drawers and opened into this!!

Art

Beers

Once again

Today

I'd bought a couple kilos of chocolates thinking of Halloween and thank heavens for that because kids have already started coming to my door.
It's apparently a thing here
It wasn't that big in China in the sense that kids dressed up but didn't really come knocking on doors. In some places they did, like my previous compound but some people complained about the incessant door bell ringing and it was curbed to an extent but till now I have already given treats and showed a couple tricks to a bunch of witches, two Harry potters, one zombie and three fairies.

—
Also tomorrow is French national holiday and it's a holiday :/

And now

How do you like my new incense stick holders

Sheru and I

Ho hum

11:30 in the AM
But it's a Sunday
And it's dreary
And this is wine made in the nearby village

Nothing

Today then
Woke up and it was still quite early when I thought I'd slept in till a bit late
Turns out daylight savings have started
What was 9 earlier is now 8
Which means the time difference is now 4.5 hours 😢
I don't like this
I don't like anything right now.
Not the weather which will keep raining for the next two weeks
Not the fact that my washing machine has broken down
Not the gloom inside my house

Autumnal hues in the village

And now

Moods

Savine turned done Orso but why do I feel so heartbroken?

Right then.
Friday
Busy as busy can be
I uploaded another video
Going to make pizza and get drunk cuz why not?

Talk to us

Who me?
About to embark on pizza for Friday night
And you?

Silky

I forgot to post this picture of my lunch which was Chinese steamed eggs with a chilli soy topping which is one of those incredible things that one makes when there's nothing to cook.
Delicious!

Morn

Morning and I kept hitting snooze on my alarm and woke up quite late.
Later than I care to admit because it throws my entire day out of loop.
I can't keep doing this just because it's dark and rainy outside and the duvet is a cozy comfort world.
The tea was delicious and I had two leftover paranthas warmed in a toaster and they were delish! That's breakfast done!

My bed is a sea of blankets and warmth and the little babes are sprawled all over it.
I'm not ever complaining about this sight.

Stuff

Who me?
Making an incense stick holder
And you?

here we are

And here it is
My shrimp noodle soup which is just what I need today

Small bowls

Guess what I'm cooking today :)

Of the Tuesday

Morning and I couldn't find myself to crawl out of the duvet.
The time was way past 7 but the outside sky had midnight hues while the weather inside the house was cold.
That I willed myself to shrug the warmth off me and knowingly stepped out into the reality of world is quite accurate and it required a steel will, something I do not posses at many a times.
A woollen will, yes but one that's iron, I'd say No!
Argh!
The house feels colder than outside which is what I dislike sometimes because a house is meant to be warm!
The temperature outside feels quite pleasant in that cold wet way and my agenda for today is not confirmed yet!
Let's see what I'm going to do?!

Complaint

There aren't any good vampire movies as there used to be during the mid 2000's!
I loved 'underworld' movies and campy as one might call them, they were so well made and seriously good to watch.
Even Blade was good.
Why no more good vampire movies??

And lunch

With wine

Two drops of alcohol in me and I turn into a beet root

Champagne route

Everything is grapes

Hmm well

Well went to a nearby village called hauteville which is the home of 'from perignon' the saint who started it all. Champagne and what not and this is his tomb.
Imagine a monk mistakingly creating champagne instead of wine and the entire world taking his word for it.
Dom Perignon is a very premium champagne and I never thought it was the name of a saint.
Also it doesn't taste any different as I went on a wine tasting route to this area and there was a lot of champagne tasting today.
To say that I didn't understand a damn thing except realising I like 'Chardonnay' better than most was a bit strange cuz I didn't think I actually cared that much.

Selfie with Gogi

Why no one saw this ?

Why I don't like Ben Affleck as batman?!!

Because Batman's identity stays a secret. No one can know or knows he's Bruce Wayne but in Affleck's case he has a butthole on his chin! How can one not know this batman and that Bruce Wayne have an ass in their chin and so probably they could be the same people!
It's like come on!!

Gimme a machete

Not only has it been raining
But it's also been that higher some day when I'm totally done in the dumps with ughs and getting annoyed at my mails in the junk folder that are from my bank telling me to update my kyc.
What even?
I've been getting these mails since I was in lockdown.
But didn't I already update the kyc?
I mean what??
I am so angry
I can't do it online either apparently cuz my passport details have changed
Which means what?
They better not lock me out of my account until I get there with my documents to show to the branch!
Fuck everyone!

And done

Etc

Also,
Should I drink something?
The food I'm ordering has an attached wine recommendation with it and I wonder if I should drink it?
Maybe not.
Cuz who drinks in afternoon?
I mean it's raining and all.
The weather is fittingly humid and cold.
A strange one at that.
Majority people here are the elder variety.
I'm too well dressed for here
Most people I feel have just worn something slightly better than their house clothes and draped a scarf around .
Maybe that's the latest trend.
I've got a nice jacket and a good thin sweater. Accessorised even. Albeit sparingly. :)

Outside

So I am outside
The place if quite full
I never expected that
It's also quite strange to be alone sitting by yourself at a table when there's everyone around you.
Talking, eating and just enjoying while I sit like this loner, a sort of center of attention because people are like what even? Cuz this is such a local place no one expects a foreigner and the one they see they are assume is a tourist and although the people here are from surrounding villages I doubt any foreigners live there.
The village right next to ours has a population of 500 people!
Can you imagine that?
They must probably think I'm a tourist and getting upset that tourists have started frequenting local places?!! Haha.
Right but even so, I wish I wasn't sitting bang in the middle of the restaurant.
I'd have preferred a table by the wall or in the corner where I could look at memes and laugh.

Moods

Morning and the weather has been dull.
Overcast
Wet
Rains
Yuck!!

Seems like this weather will continue till Sunday.
What's on my agenda today?
Nothing perhaps though I will go out for lunch to the nearby restaurant called Le Poje and eat something scrumptious.
Totally in the mood for it.

Evening time

Voila

As you might have noticed there's an utter absence of anything green or salad like and that's because I'm in no mood to be a good girl today.

Meal fun

I'm deathly afraid of deep frying and so shallow frying it is!

Mood

To hell with it all!!
I'm gonna make me some fried chicken today
Also what's with this gorgeous cloud?

Missing steps

Monday morning and I woke up quite late
Not least because the sun refuses to rise at its designated time that I finally got used to but also because what on earth happened to the weather?
One moment I was sitting outside in sun drying my hair and the other I had to whip out my warm shoes and bid adieu to my usual house slippers cuz it got damned cold!
I mean it's autumn now not winter!

The thing is that one small step that is light layers of thin jackets has been completely bypassed in one giant step.
Suddenly it's thick sweaters and big jackets weather.
But what about my gorgeous wind blocker pastel hued jackets that I'd expressly hung out in the closet with the intention of wearing it in autumn just as I usually did.
What on earth?!

Good stuff

Sunday and I sit alone drinking tea. Seething as it is.

This birthday weekend has been a bust and a flop.
Problem started last morning at 9 when my suggestion of going out for a nice celebratory lunch on Sunday was squashed with some pitiful remarks about his tragedy in family that didn't permit celebration.
Fine I understand but there's a way to discuss it and not least because how is this going out any different than other times that we've gone out to eat and how is buying bottles of champagnes and drinking them back to back never made him feel like the tragedy doesn't permit!

It's become a cycle to thwart everything I say which has happier tones in terms of doing something fun while anything he wants to do is permitted.
I mean of course it's permitted and I've never stopped him but to be so acidic in replies when I say something that too for his sake as a way of celebration for him!!

The cake I'd made didn't get cut, he just ate a slice of it for dessert and when I'd mentioned about cutting it on 13th he was unbothered.
When I wanted to make a table full of delicacies he asked me to make him soup and I relented if that's what he wanted.
He mostly stuck to his phone and didn't much talk solving sudoku puzzles.

This is quite strange but suddenly his fathers reflection is becoming stronger in him.

On many an occasions his father would get irritable on days when something good or different was planned, like a Pooja or road trip or anything.
He'd get annoyed and expect everyone to pander to him and ask him repeatedly as to what's wrong with him and ply him with compliments and good words .

Is what people did something similar?

Because it resulted in a miserable weekend wherein I kept to myself.
I didn't cook anything or eat anything.
I slept well cuz 'happy pills' and I woke up sullen and made tea.
I will go out and buy some groceries and grab a bite to eat just by myself and that's how I'm going to treat myself cuz I don't understand this strange shift in people behaviour in the past year.
Oh, and I was told quite a few things about my sullen mood as to how I need to see a psychiatrist :). Cuz I got so offended with his (simple) reply.

And also how my forever support to him is actually just me pretending to be nice. Lol.

I don't know who needs a psychiatrist but by the heavens something is breaking inside of me and I might soon come to a point where I won't be able to repair it.

Marmalade

My fabulous orange chocolate cake 

And lunch

Come

Come to us
We wait by the usual place

:;(/

Nighttime and the mood is sour
My heart feels sullen
Caught in an affection famine
My frown cements

Things happening

So the person who was supposed to come yesterday for the diagnostics of the house is here today and he informed me that it will take a minimum of 2 hours!
He's walking around the house (in shoes) tapping away at his tablet, counting steps, checking things, enquiring about my Japanese toilet seats and generally trying to look industrious while tap tap tapping on his tablet with a pretty nifty pen I must say.

Sunlit babes

Little things

Teeny mushroom in my garden 

Clean up

The mess that is my kitchen when I bake anything 

Oh the day

Afternoon and I sit soaking in the sunlight through my window because the sun here can be quite compelling.
It's the kind of heat that immediately burns as witnessed by my house plants which is kept outside for a bit to soak in some light and their leaves turned yellow and then transparent in just a couple hours of exposure.
Never again are my little plants going outside for extra chlorophyll.
Also, the technicians coming to make real estate diagnosis didn't arrive and they'll be here tomorrow.
What a pain.
I shall make some apple cake now cuz why not.
(I have some very tart apples)

Buggy

News of bed bugs all over Paris and now other cities and I'm getting sort of worried now.
They better not make their way here.
I don't know how to deal with these things.

Morning hum

Morning and I woke up early with the alarm! 

Now sipping tea in my room as outside is still a bit dark and quite cold. 

I feel like another tea. 

Today a technician will come to the house to carry out a real estate diagnosis (whatever that means) but I need to get done with everything before that which is my lunch. 

I'm in a terrible mood today. 

Feels like I'm in a terrible mood everyday that I have to live through with 'people' 

Is that normal? 

Something about his face ticks me off 

His everything has gotten annoying. 

How is this sustainable? 

Maybe just a mood I guess. 

And sweets

This delicious dessert my absolute favourite from the local boulangerie is called 'sablon' and it's comprised of meringue, crème patisserie covered with a milk chocolate fold. 

It's quite large and very sweet and it takes me two days to eat it. Today is day 2 

And meal

Okay so now

Steaming cabbage cuz I mean why Not?! 

I will then pan fry it! 

Hahaha what?! 

Chirp

Monday morning and I am already upset that weekend wasn't five days long 

Today I'm the agenda is deep cleaning, lunching and bla bla 

The weather is gorgeous. 

The cats are idling and lounging and enjoying the beautiful weather and garden. 

I am contemplating mass murder. 

Champagne local

Lots of vineyards

At the grape picking festival 

Vineyards