Dichotomy and tell me rage

Reading so many updates about it being a shit show of a day and I wonder how I'd love a detailed account of everything.
Just to add a bit more to the hate cuz one moment I was flying high like a kite and within a few hours all the fun stuff is so far away from me it's ridiculous to even think about it.
Sighs..

Sometimes coming back just doesn't feel right and today is one such day.
I'm missing everything I've left behind and to this day I can't understand why I've not gotten accustomed to this duality in my way of life?
My everything is here and there.