In this moment

Say one thing about life say what the fuck.

That I have not forgotten this page not for a second isn't something I need illustrate but I ignored it is a fact, not least because I was busy. :)
How one can be busy this year is anybody's guess so perhaps one can say I was distracted.
So yes I was distracted by a 6 '3' extremely gorgeous distraction but my lord may I just say that I'd rather prefer to call it enchantment instead of distraction.
So yes I was enchanted through the entirety of this year and am I glad that I was?
Of course!
How else does one get through this pestilence of a year that was and already is?

Nighttime and just a day ago this would have been sort of an evening when dinners were getting decided but here I am gorged on awful food, pacing a room that I need to spend 2 weeks in and feeling great.
Granted it won't be easy spending day after day in a room that doesn't have any semblance of sunlight pouring in but another day spent is day closer to my life and so I don't mind, nay, I in fact look forward to a new morning here each day not that I get to know what mornings are like except sunlight as seen from a window.

Right then.
There's some chill hop music playing, I'm pacing and typing and chewing on jujubes fruits and hoping each day to get better for us all.

The only darkness to it all is being physically distant from a bit of my soul but I know how pained it was to see me in pain, so yes there's sadness but there's no more misery.

Purr

I thought
About
Our first time
And began to water

Fly none

Say one thing about my heart say it's assured.
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That today I feel abandoned, dejected and sullen would be an understatement most laughable because I feel like I've been run over by a bulldozer manned by elephants.
Crushed I tell you crushed!!

In the shade

That time of afternoon
when gloom
kisses my room