That time of afternoon when I wish to spend some time on my own with myself.
Lockdown day 7 perhaps and there are only 2 more weeks to go until we know what comes next which worries me not a bit.
The weather is confused much like me and I don't know how to understand what it wants to tell me with solar flare like hot wind in the noon time amidst a burning sun followed by a sudden of gust of cooler breeze kissed with lightly grey skies a few hours since.
Will it rain and make it cooler when the morning threatened to be incandescent or will it just behave this way for a while before getting hot again?
Time will tell.
There are things to be done, recipes to be made, pictures to be clicked and today I'm making some wraps.
But first!! Coffee .
Tuesday, 31 March 2020
Fang out
New series alert!
It's a French series on Netflix and deals with my favourite fiction subject that is vampires and is called 'vampires' .
Doesn't get better than that.
First episode in and it's spectacularly different and just beginning to open up.
No gothic castle and chalets here. No sir.
It's streets and under dwellings of Paris shot from breathtaking camera angles to the backdrop of Paris.
Its colour palettes are beautiful and so very real done just right.
I like it.
Also love that Netflix churns out so much vampire series .
The last couple I watched being Dracula and V wars .
This is perhaps the first foreign language vampire series I'm watching on Netflix.
It's a French series on Netflix and deals with my favourite fiction subject that is vampires and is called 'vampires' .
Doesn't get better than that.
First episode in and it's spectacularly different and just beginning to open up.
No gothic castle and chalets here. No sir.
It's streets and under dwellings of Paris shot from breathtaking camera angles to the backdrop of Paris.
Its colour palettes are beautiful and so very real done just right.
I like it.
Also love that Netflix churns out so much vampire series .
The last couple I watched being Dracula and V wars .
This is perhaps the first foreign language vampire series I'm watching on Netflix.
Monday, 30 March 2020
Lockdown melange of thoughts
Another day of quarantine. I don't know what day is it. Maybe 5 or 6. I don't know, I do care but not nearly that much.
Music, bed, I hold up my phone as I lie on my back and I wonder why do I feel hungry when I had a hefty lunch only a couple hours ago?
Perhaps because it wasn't as hefty?
I don't know .
My drawing goes on, I sit and ponder what I should do with the recipes?
A lot of them on the list need special ingredients which I don't currently have access to in the quarantine but then maybe I can make some quarantine recipes.
I think that would be good.
Perhaps I should make some arrangements .
Right then, I'm in the mood to read a book as well.
But I've got food on my mind .
Music, bed, I hold up my phone as I lie on my back and I wonder why do I feel hungry when I had a hefty lunch only a couple hours ago?
Perhaps because it wasn't as hefty?
I don't know .
My drawing goes on, I sit and ponder what I should do with the recipes?
A lot of them on the list need special ingredients which I don't currently have access to in the quarantine but then maybe I can make some quarantine recipes.
I think that would be good.
Perhaps I should make some arrangements .
Right then, I'm in the mood to read a book as well.
But I've got food on my mind .
Loads
What has heart got to do with anything ever?
I like that it's cool tonight.
loud with critters
small things chirping
insects and such
a dog barking in some distance
trailing sound of a popular Bollywood number
the whoosh of days passing by
this quarantine is a part of my life
I like that it's cool tonight.
loud with critters
small things chirping
insects and such
a dog barking in some distance
trailing sound of a popular Bollywood number
the whoosh of days passing by
this quarantine is a part of my life
Sunday, 29 March 2020
Moment
My favourite time of the day is listening to music , holding up my phone to type here, lying on the bed. Totally high!
Lockdown 5
I've thought and I've thought a lot and I know exactly what sort of study table I want.
The thing about study tables is that they're made by people who don't much spend time on study table themselves and follow a supposed stereotypical pattern of what one should be and so the conventional study tables in the market are good but not exactly what you're looking for, which is why one ends up making adjustments to their modus operandi to be able to fit into the tables conventional rules.
I have been making some similar adjustments myself and over the years, after having spent a lot of time on various such tables; liking some, detesting some I know exactly what I'm looking for.
My current study table situation, both here and back home are not optimum and I have to often tweak around to be feel exactly as I want.
I have it in my head what I want and maybe I will have it on paper soon too and with that design I shall get made for me my ultimate study table.
The thing about study tables is that they're made by people who don't much spend time on study table themselves and follow a supposed stereotypical pattern of what one should be and so the conventional study tables in the market are good but not exactly what you're looking for, which is why one ends up making adjustments to their modus operandi to be able to fit into the tables conventional rules.
I have been making some similar adjustments myself and over the years, after having spent a lot of time on various such tables; liking some, detesting some I know exactly what I'm looking for.
My current study table situation, both here and back home are not optimum and I have to often tweak around to be feel exactly as I want.
I have it in my head what I want and maybe I will have it on paper soon too and with that design I shall get made for me my ultimate study table.
Dry cream
Skin so dry that only my two step moisturising method would do.
apply a thick moisturiser moments after stepping out of the shower while still slightly wet and then again a few minutes later after a brief skin care. this time a thin moisturiser with a few glugs of coconut oil.
This just help give a shine to the skin and makes it thicker in a way that it's not too creamy but watery and oily, and this just seals in all the hydration and moisture that my skin needs with a boost of glow.
apply a thick moisturiser moments after stepping out of the shower while still slightly wet and then again a few minutes later after a brief skin care. this time a thin moisturiser with a few glugs of coconut oil.
This just help give a shine to the skin and makes it thicker in a way that it's not too creamy but watery and oily, and this just seals in all the hydration and moisture that my skin needs with a boost of glow.
Saturday, 28 March 2020
3
Say one things about Netflix say castlevania season 3 is out at the right time, the very moment as history writes itself.
Binge watching, here I come.
Binge watching, here I come.
Eyebrow knits
Say one thing about a blazing hot afternoon in spring, say it's cool under the shadows.
My quarantine wardrobe is about five clothes large.
A couple sweatpants, a few t shirts and a night shirt and that's all folks .
Not that I'd have dived into my little closet of stylish ensembles had it been any other day that I were spending at home.
I look at my drawer of pretty lipsticks, a couple of these I'd only just bought and they lie untouched. I feel sad for them.
Thankfully I'd the sense to order some skin care just a few days after I'd reached here since my previous stock was dwindling.
Man am I glad to have my epidermal essentials or what?
A bag made of jute twine sits slumped on a wooden bench in my room, looking at me as if I was a named thorn in its garden of Eden.
Day 4 or is it 5 of lockdown and I find myself getting comforted with Postrock.
My quarantine wardrobe is about five clothes large.
A couple sweatpants, a few t shirts and a night shirt and that's all folks .
Not that I'd have dived into my little closet of stylish ensembles had it been any other day that I were spending at home.
I look at my drawer of pretty lipsticks, a couple of these I'd only just bought and they lie untouched. I feel sad for them.
Thankfully I'd the sense to order some skin care just a few days after I'd reached here since my previous stock was dwindling.
Man am I glad to have my epidermal essentials or what?
A bag made of jute twine sits slumped on a wooden bench in my room, looking at me as if I was a named thorn in its garden of Eden.
Day 4 or is it 5 of lockdown and I find myself getting comforted with Postrock.
Nights
Say one thing about night say it means little during these times.
But currently as thing go, the weather being wet and what not the air smells deliciously of charged mud.
But currently as thing go, the weather being wet and what not the air smells deliciously of charged mud.
Friday, 27 March 2020
Stop meeting
One thing I've noticed about all quarantine breakers and super spreaders is that they're extremely social.
How does one man alone infect 23 people and meet hundreds?
What kind of social life does that person have?
I'd like to see one socially awkward introvert gamer infecting half the population of a small village.
Won't happen.
How does one man alone infect 23 people and meet hundreds?
What kind of social life does that person have?
I'd like to see one socially awkward introvert gamer infecting half the population of a small village.
Won't happen.
In case of anything
Does quarantine mean continuous feasting for the lack of anything better to do?
I think so.
One of my uncles is stuck with his daughter's family which includes her two children, husband and it's a total of 6 people in that house now in lockdown and life is pretty abysmal for the elderly uncle and his wife .
I on the other hand am stuck with my parents in a galaxy far far away with their one year Labrador who is a machine needing constant belly rubs and playtime.
Not that I totally mind but maybe being with my two cats would have been better. However life hasn't handed us oranges. More like poison ivy's and so we must try and not squeeze them and soon they will wither on their own.
Right then!
I have finished all seasons of 'Archer', one season of 'outlander' which I have grown to get bored of and am now embarking on finishing an anime called 'beastar' on Netflix and it looks absolutely promising.
The next series to watch are 'Freud' and 'better call Saul' and that is exactly what I'll do.
Also left midway is the series 'gentlemen and gangsters' available on Netflix USA but then I have vpn so let's put that on this list too.
Alright then!
Lockdown day3
Here we go.
I think so.
One of my uncles is stuck with his daughter's family which includes her two children, husband and it's a total of 6 people in that house now in lockdown and life is pretty abysmal for the elderly uncle and his wife .
I on the other hand am stuck with my parents in a galaxy far far away with their one year Labrador who is a machine needing constant belly rubs and playtime.
Not that I totally mind but maybe being with my two cats would have been better. However life hasn't handed us oranges. More like poison ivy's and so we must try and not squeeze them and soon they will wither on their own.
Right then!
I have finished all seasons of 'Archer', one season of 'outlander' which I have grown to get bored of and am now embarking on finishing an anime called 'beastar' on Netflix and it looks absolutely promising.
The next series to watch are 'Freud' and 'better call Saul' and that is exactly what I'll do.
Also left midway is the series 'gentlemen and gangsters' available on Netflix USA but then I have vpn so let's put that on this list too.
Alright then!
Lockdown day3
Here we go.
;-/)
I love that each time when I touch a part of my body there is a rope of muscle beneath and I am glad that I workout and I try to not judge those who don't.
Blossom
It's criminal to have such lovely weather at the height of a pandemic.
Molten slate skies offsetting the lemon greens of trees still dripping from the thunderous shower of this morning in a photogenic constraint against rusty dried leaves clinging to parent trees.
It's a watercolour painting in motion .
There a hundred lovely things to be said about sitting out in the open letting this weather drip all over you but scarce does one talk about enjoying it privately, through the open windows of a bedroom which is just good if not better.
Molten slate skies offsetting the lemon greens of trees still dripping from the thunderous shower of this morning in a photogenic constraint against rusty dried leaves clinging to parent trees.
It's a watercolour painting in motion .
There a hundred lovely things to be said about sitting out in the open letting this weather drip all over you but scarce does one talk about enjoying it privately, through the open windows of a bedroom which is just good if not better.
Insects
The thing I absolutely dislike about incoming summer are the weird flying things that suddenly come inside a room.
Case in point a fat cricket that has casually flown into my room from heaven knows where!! My windows aren't even open.
And now it's flying about in that weird clickity way which is hella creepy.
Case in point a fat cricket that has casually flown into my room from heaven knows where!! My windows aren't even open.
And now it's flying about in that weird clickity way which is hella creepy.
Lockdown watch
Oh my god!! 
Why does this look so interesting and definitely something I'd watch!!
I mean what am I if not a sucker for bloody mysteries and period drama's.
Money no
Would the government please also implement the no- rent) for whatever months it takes for the lockdown to be done with?!
There are people who're unable to go to work and theirs isn't the kind of work one can do from home .
A lot of companies don't pay them.
There are people who're unable to go to work and theirs isn't the kind of work one can do from home .
A lot of companies don't pay them.
Diss dat
The reason I don't like seals is because they have zero muscle tone and are totally floppy and flabby and crawl weird on the shore, but by the gods they're like the most elegant angels (Isn't there a porn channel by the same name?) when they swim but I don't like them cuz they're just too damn flabby for my liking.
Doesn't mean we make fashion out of them.
Just let those fatties be.
Doesn't mean we make fashion out of them.
Just let those fatties be.
Thursday, 26 March 2020
Supplement
Maybe it's placebo, maybe it's B12 but damn my depressive episodes are fewer ever since I restarted taking B complex.
Coffee talks
Agenda includes getting quarantine abs and knowing little of what to do else.
But I have taken to rationing coffee as well.
I have only about 6-8 more cups worth of coffee beans left and this is extra mild coffee I'm talking about and after that there is only instant coffee which is like for the worst of worst times.
But I have taken to rationing coffee as well.
I have only about 6-8 more cups worth of coffee beans left and this is extra mild coffee I'm talking about and after that there is only instant coffee which is like for the worst of worst times.
Brow raise
Food blogs just feel so extra this point of time.
I have now begun to wonder why despite all the prevailing situations what with lockdowns and all I am yet to have sleepless nights.
It's a mystery how back when I was home I mostly stared at the ceiling each night when there was nothing but immense satisfaction to the point of being monotonous and here in quarantine there's nothing but exactly the opposite and I sleep like a drugged up little thing.
I have now begun to wonder why despite all the prevailing situations what with lockdowns and all I am yet to have sleepless nights.
It's a mystery how back when I was home I mostly stared at the ceiling each night when there was nothing but immense satisfaction to the point of being monotonous and here in quarantine there's nothing but exactly the opposite and I sleep like a drugged up little thing.
Meow reason
Is there anyone who sleeps more than cats in this world?
I think not.
Most pictures I have of my little babies back home in another quasi quarantine of a healed nation are those of them sleeping.
Sleeping on the couch, on bed, on chair, on books, on ledge, on window panes, on laptop, on pillow, on table, on plate.
They're sleeping in almost 100% of their pictures.
I think not.
Most pictures I have of my little babies back home in another quasi quarantine of a healed nation are those of them sleeping.
Sleeping on the couch, on bed, on chair, on books, on ledge, on window panes, on laptop, on pillow, on table, on plate.
They're sleeping in almost 100% of their pictures.
Lockdown day 1
My blue blankets off set on a pink bed sheet would have seemed such a mood in better times.
Then ask and shh
Say one thing about night say it seems absolutely innocuous, like it doesn't know there's a virus floating around!
I hear birds, chirps of nighttime critters, an odd toad because it rained a lot and I think of my wheat fields that are in their ripening season, that don't need rains, that need to be cut now and I can't visit because there's a lockdown .
Inevitable as it is, life is such and I dislike it at the moment but then there are billions like me, at home, upset and thousands who are in transit, stuck in the middle of two countries, two cities, two states.
I feel sad for them and those who are now homeless stuck in a lockdown, trying to cross borders on foot and with no food to eat, with little prospects of a good life.
What is a coronavirus to them?
I hear birds, chirps of nighttime critters, an odd toad because it rained a lot and I think of my wheat fields that are in their ripening season, that don't need rains, that need to be cut now and I can't visit because there's a lockdown .
Inevitable as it is, life is such and I dislike it at the moment but then there are billions like me, at home, upset and thousands who are in transit, stuck in the middle of two countries, two cities, two states.
I feel sad for them and those who are now homeless stuck in a lockdown, trying to cross borders on foot and with no food to eat, with little prospects of a good life.
What is a coronavirus to them?
Wednesday, 25 March 2020
?¿
What does one do when the whether gets five kinds of gorgeous in the middle of a pandemic?
Should I get up on the rooftop and savour it or must I ponder about the possibilities that could be?
I think I'd like to get up on the roof!
Should I get up on the rooftop and savour it or must I ponder about the possibilities that could be?
I think I'd like to get up on the roof!
Equals
My clouds fluffier than yours, my sky bluer than yours, my earth more fertile than yours, my virus same as yours.
Zlap
Why am I not living on a high rise where I'm oblivious to the reality around me?
It'd be great to know nothing of anyone and anything else's existence beyond mine and mine's.
I realize how much I let some things affect me.
Hate doesn't bother me nearly as much as apathy and helplessness and ignorance angers me, it makes me reach out for a knife and slash some throats but then here, I fear some contradictions .
Suffering and ignorance affect me and I know not how to deal with a melee of both hurt and vengeful sentiments.
It tears me apart.
I do not know how to balance.
It'd be great to know nothing of anyone and anything else's existence beyond mine and mine's.
I realize how much I let some things affect me.
Hate doesn't bother me nearly as much as apathy and helplessness and ignorance angers me, it makes me reach out for a knife and slash some throats but then here, I fear some contradictions .
Suffering and ignorance affect me and I know not how to deal with a melee of both hurt and vengeful sentiments.
It tears me apart.
I do not know how to balance.
Tuesday, 24 March 2020
Living on the edge for reals
How hard has YouTube started sucking at this moment of quarantine?
the Content has gotten stale and not many people are uploading cuz honestly what would they even?
I don't feel like watching Mukbang channels anymore cuz I keep wondering why and how has that person traveled outside at this time and procured so much food when people are usually avoiding the world out, and most chains and restaurants have currently shut shop!
And that makes me think that perhaps despite all the lockdown and what not those people are still going out and about, recording their afternoon lunches and many others like them are doing the same and that persuades me to conclude that perhaps those countries aren't enforcing lockdowns with the same ferocity as one would expect!!
Sometimes I feel that maybe I should plunge myself in this corona field of sickness and get it over with once and for all.
Either this side or that! But just standing here on the precipice makes me listless but I'm home with people I love in a place they love and that is perhaps the biggest motivation for me to not get thinking this way.. we all need happiness and we deserve it.
the Content has gotten stale and not many people are uploading cuz honestly what would they even?
I don't feel like watching Mukbang channels anymore cuz I keep wondering why and how has that person traveled outside at this time and procured so much food when people are usually avoiding the world out, and most chains and restaurants have currently shut shop!
And that makes me think that perhaps despite all the lockdown and what not those people are still going out and about, recording their afternoon lunches and many others like them are doing the same and that persuades me to conclude that perhaps those countries aren't enforcing lockdowns with the same ferocity as one would expect!!
Sometimes I feel that maybe I should plunge myself in this corona field of sickness and get it over with once and for all.
Either this side or that! But just standing here on the precipice makes me listless but I'm home with people I love in a place they love and that is perhaps the biggest motivation for me to not get thinking this way.. we all need happiness and we deserve it.
Monday, 23 March 2020
Return
Standing stoned on the rooftop
watching the world go by
two kids play badminton in the distance
I wish for those moments
to come back
watching the world go by
two kids play badminton in the distance
I wish for those moments
to come back
Not
I want to be covered in a haze. A thick fog of smoke that I can virtually swim in.
That's what I want right now and immediately.
Gimme some life.
Gimme some hope.
That's what I want right now and immediately.
Gimme some life.
Gimme some hope.
Covid call
If you're a brave, ambitious, aspiring journalist then this is the time for you.
Become a citizen journalist in your country and blow all the whistles on a loudspeaker:
This is the time to tell the world what really is happening during this time of coronavirus.
With the power of technology you can watch, record and post all that is behind the scenes in this pandemic where most countries are lying to their citizens about the staggering number of infections and rates.
Tell the world the reality of it all as you see and continuously upload on your channel or Twitter. It does not matter whether they're snippets or a summary of all that you have seen.
The world needs to know how the top politicians of so many countries are ready to fuck this all up by not getting enough resources for the doctors and health workers.
Tell it all.
Be a hero! Become a super journalist with credibility, brevity, impartial to humanity.
Become a citizen journalist in your country and blow all the whistles on a loudspeaker:
This is the time to tell the world what really is happening during this time of coronavirus.
With the power of technology you can watch, record and post all that is behind the scenes in this pandemic where most countries are lying to their citizens about the staggering number of infections and rates.
Tell the world the reality of it all as you see and continuously upload on your channel or Twitter. It does not matter whether they're snippets or a summary of all that you have seen.
The world needs to know how the top politicians of so many countries are ready to fuck this all up by not getting enough resources for the doctors and health workers.
Tell it all.
Be a hero! Become a super journalist with credibility, brevity, impartial to humanity.
Sunday, 22 March 2020
Snuff
The day all this goes to shit is the day I find an axe and take to the streets with homicidal intentions.
Kids, women, boys, babies, men alike will be slaughtered until I find myself exhausted and infected and then rinse repeat!!
I will have my canine and feline allies feeding on the fresh carcass and helping me bring people down.
Won't that be fun!!
Kids, women, boys, babies, men alike will be slaughtered until I find myself exhausted and infected and then rinse repeat!!
I will have my canine and feline allies feeding on the fresh carcass and helping me bring people down.
Won't that be fun!!
Yes! Let’s all become idiots
5pm and every idiot in this country got their heads out of their buttholes to clap and make noise in gratitude..apparently to all the health workers out there fighting and defending our nation against coronavirus.
A nation full of idiots who have no understanding of what is actually going on and who think that making noise and throwing steel utensils on the floor will keep them immune.
There is a part of me which wants these idiots to actually catch the virus and know what it really is.
It's not a magical fucking being that will eject itself out of human bodies and run away at the sound of conches being blown in unison.
Wake up you failing idiots..
You want to help or doctors and this nation then please quarantine yourselves and don't leave the house .
A nation full of idiots who have no understanding of what is actually going on and who think that making noise and throwing steel utensils on the floor will keep them immune.
There is a part of me which wants these idiots to actually catch the virus and know what it really is.
It's not a magical fucking being that will eject itself out of human bodies and run away at the sound of conches being blown in unison.
Wake up you failing idiots..
You want to help or doctors and this nation then please quarantine yourselves and don't leave the house .
Happy and sads at the time of corona
Dear diary,
As I write, a mental countdown in my head slowly counts time before we all boil down into a simmering pot of massive fuck up.
There are few things in this world bold enough to shake my faith that I resiliently bestow over a few things in life.
The list is puny, but I tend to have faith in some people who are currently fighting a massive war against a virulent unseen virus which has unbeknownst even to itself decided to go on a massive cherry picking session and wipe out what it deems unworthy of life.
Like a self described Darwinian messiah it has haphazardly started its process of natural selection and there are but only a few who are ready to collide head on with the invisible force that gets deadlier by the day.
The brave warriors on the frontline with their stethoscopes and words of caution are the only reason I want to believe in a hopeful future, even as their resilience suffers blows after another at the hands of a weak and biased governing system, a feudal crowd of insufferable citizens and apathetic healthcare system.
I believe in curfew not because our idiot prime minister Narendra Modi has asked us of it even as he participates in a giant dinner at end of the curfew with Rajnath Singh Chauhan but because it is the civic duty of every citizen at this point of coronavirus explosion to stay home and help our doctors and nurses and every possible health worker with the reduction in infections.
What is the point of curfew if our top politicians are going to gather and eat together??
Baba Ramdev, another idiot contender and front runner of cow urine consumption advocates clapping hands for 5 minutes to rid the virus and since no one believed him our idiot PM suggested every citizen to clap their hands at the end of the curfew to thank every health worker out there and apparently this will make them feel happier??
Well, no!!
Clapping hands is moronic, almost as stupid as the people who suggested it and if we want to really whole heartedly thank our health workers and thousands of doctors then the best way is to quarantine ourselves and take care of our loved ones during the pandemic.
There is no point politicising this extremely grave situation but instead of helping our broken healthcare system with more funds, increased coronavirus testing kits and doubling up on necessities like ventilators and quarantines we are asked to clap!!!
Idiots all of them.. my faith in our political system died the day we elected a fascist prime minister who cares so little for its citizens but my belief in everyone who is working through this unprecedented attack gets restored by the day.
As I write, a mental countdown in my head slowly counts time before we all boil down into a simmering pot of massive fuck up.
There are few things in this world bold enough to shake my faith that I resiliently bestow over a few things in life.
The list is puny, but I tend to have faith in some people who are currently fighting a massive war against a virulent unseen virus which has unbeknownst even to itself decided to go on a massive cherry picking session and wipe out what it deems unworthy of life.
Like a self described Darwinian messiah it has haphazardly started its process of natural selection and there are but only a few who are ready to collide head on with the invisible force that gets deadlier by the day.
The brave warriors on the frontline with their stethoscopes and words of caution are the only reason I want to believe in a hopeful future, even as their resilience suffers blows after another at the hands of a weak and biased governing system, a feudal crowd of insufferable citizens and apathetic healthcare system.
I believe in curfew not because our idiot prime minister Narendra Modi has asked us of it even as he participates in a giant dinner at end of the curfew with Rajnath Singh Chauhan but because it is the civic duty of every citizen at this point of coronavirus explosion to stay home and help our doctors and nurses and every possible health worker with the reduction in infections.
What is the point of curfew if our top politicians are going to gather and eat together??
Baba Ramdev, another idiot contender and front runner of cow urine consumption advocates clapping hands for 5 minutes to rid the virus and since no one believed him our idiot PM suggested every citizen to clap their hands at the end of the curfew to thank every health worker out there and apparently this will make them feel happier??
Well, no!!
Clapping hands is moronic, almost as stupid as the people who suggested it and if we want to really whole heartedly thank our health workers and thousands of doctors then the best way is to quarantine ourselves and take care of our loved ones during the pandemic.
There is no point politicising this extremely grave situation but instead of helping our broken healthcare system with more funds, increased coronavirus testing kits and doubling up on necessities like ventilators and quarantines we are asked to clap!!!
Idiots all of them.. my faith in our political system died the day we elected a fascist prime minister who cares so little for its citizens but my belief in everyone who is working through this unprecedented attack gets restored by the day.
Friday, 20 March 2020
:;)(
Sometimes I feel like I'd like to be at the end of a suicide hotline just talking to people and listening to their reasons and decide which one deserves to die.
Self
Apparently precaution is the most difficult thing to exercise.
just goes on to show how greatly we overestimate ourselves and undervalue our lives until such moment as death is at our door.
just goes on to show how greatly we overestimate ourselves and undervalue our lives until such moment as death is at our door.
Man
Oh my eyes!!!
I get high and I look like someone who's totally high. that's the reason why weed is such a give away sometimes and the reason why I don't mingle with people immediately after stoning.
Dude!
People look at you weird and ask why your eyes look so droopy?
And then you try and adjust by opening them wider to look fresh and that looks and feels so awkward.
I get high and I look like someone who's totally high. that's the reason why weed is such a give away sometimes and the reason why I don't mingle with people immediately after stoning.
Dude!
People look at you weird and ask why your eyes look so droopy?
And then you try and adjust by opening them wider to look fresh and that looks and feels so awkward.
That’s
Why is the weather so neutral sepia tinged vanilla today?
What have the winds changed direction?
Why is it suddenly a bit warm?
Why do bass solo's make me fall in love?
What have the winds changed direction?
Why is it suddenly a bit warm?
Why do bass solo's make me fall in love?
So you know
What on earth am I doing here alone?
Waiting for you now darling
But uh, life such as it is
Fondles you in its arms
it knows you belong to it
and you know it too
and so do I
but does that bother me even a bit?
ashamed to admit that it doesn't.
Waiting for you now darling
But uh, life such as it is
Fondles you in its arms
it knows you belong to it
and you know it too
and so do I
but does that bother me even a bit?
ashamed to admit that it doesn't.
Corona later
That Chinese are now roaming about freely without masks in their country, only wearing them on spotting a foreigner, is my favourite example of how tables have turned.
Thursday, 19 March 2020
Wednesday, 18 March 2020
Let it go
Dude it's a virus not a Godzilla coming your way that you cannot avoid.
Just stay home, game, Netflix and chill.
Everything's shut anyways!
Just stay home, game, Netflix and chill.
Everything's shut anyways!
Boom boom
I absolutely do not offer my personal tubs and pots of lip balms to anyone in this world anymore ever since one person literally scooped out a finger full and rubbed it between his palms before eventually applying on his face!!
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I write this while listening to a very clear conversation between two girls who are wishing each other bye's after a walk perhaps.
And I hear bhajans in the distance, a train, I insects, singing birds and small animals of the wild whistling to the unison of a mismatched chorus.
The sound of a cracker in the distance..!
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I write this while listening to a very clear conversation between two girls who are wishing each other bye's after a walk perhaps.
And I hear bhajans in the distance, a train, I insects, singing birds and small animals of the wild whistling to the unison of a mismatched chorus.
The sound of a cracker in the distance..!
Tuesday, 17 March 2020
Plush
My lips are at a constant war with me .
I nourish them, hydrate and moisturise them and a few hours later they're like nope!
They begin drying and everyday I feel the need to exfoliate my lips twice almost because gods they're dry!
I nourish them, hydrate and moisturise them and a few hours later they're like nope!
They begin drying and everyday I feel the need to exfoliate my lips twice almost because gods they're dry!
Tsk
I have taken up browsing amazon for the lack of anything better to do especially when I'm just sitting by myself in between things.
I've been feeling the emptiness of my routines that comes about by a sudden disruption in life when you're not expecting anything to suddenly spiral.
This doesn't feel like a vacation, it's more like an extended time out and I feel the fatigue of it.
My comforts as I left them do not translate the same way here and so I have to terraform everything around me to feel more cozy and at home which brings me to browsing amazon.
I was browsing for essential oils because that's one ritual and an almost daily routine that I loved to set time apart for, not that it took more than two minutes in total but having my entire house smell of delicious different things each day felt so comforting.
Today I craved the usual warmth of tangerine melted into a whisper floating about me, probably as I would on a normal day back home, and I had no similar essential oil in the house except sandalwood and that wasn't what I needed that moment and so I let it be.
Sighs galore.
I've been feeling the emptiness of my routines that comes about by a sudden disruption in life when you're not expecting anything to suddenly spiral.
This doesn't feel like a vacation, it's more like an extended time out and I feel the fatigue of it.
My comforts as I left them do not translate the same way here and so I have to terraform everything around me to feel more cozy and at home which brings me to browsing amazon.
I was browsing for essential oils because that's one ritual and an almost daily routine that I loved to set time apart for, not that it took more than two minutes in total but having my entire house smell of delicious different things each day felt so comforting.
Today I craved the usual warmth of tangerine melted into a whisper floating about me, probably as I would on a normal day back home, and I had no similar essential oil in the house except sandalwood and that wasn't what I needed that moment and so I let it be.
Sighs galore.
Monday, 16 March 2020
Small changes
Left is me In February of this year and the right is me in Setember 2019
The angle on the left doesn't provide complete transparency but it looks more or less the same except it lacks a bit of definition from the pic on the right.
Last year I was lifting heavier and this image was clicked when I was working out 5 days a week, emphasising on strength and functional.
The image on the left is from when my exercises had become irregular and not as strenuous emphasising mostly on yoga and light strength.
I didn't lose much gains but there was some loss of definition which I have over the years realized keeps fluctuating on my body and not something I now fret over as I earlier did.
Nutrition wise I haven't deviated much except that I vacationed most of the beginning of the year and didn't much stress about counting macros and ate good wholesome food whenever I could and when there was only pizza, I ate that too.
There's a path that fitness journey follows and it is a narrow one but there's no reason why one can't stumble or take a break every now and then provided that it's a path that doesn't get bulldozed over with overindulgence that comes with a life of prioritising absolutely everything over health.
It's always good to relax for a bit, even longer provided that we are fully attuned with our bodies and nourish it to make it better and take care of ourselves cuz literally every thing vital to us which is also extremely expensive to buy in shops is fit inside our bodies.
Coffee delight
Curses ! and gladness.
I was about to make me an absolutely delicious most aromatic medium roast Arabica which I have grown to love for its low acidity and balanced tanginess that a service person, one who was of utmost need showed up for rejuvenating the gas top which had been asking for a bit of a clean up and I feel both joyous, because the hob will be in full functioning mode and vexed, because I was just about to put my mokapot over fire!!
And now that moment is gone.
The sads I feel my love.
I was about to make me an absolutely delicious most aromatic medium roast Arabica which I have grown to love for its low acidity and balanced tanginess that a service person, one who was of utmost need showed up for rejuvenating the gas top which had been asking for a bit of a clean up and I feel both joyous, because the hob will be in full functioning mode and vexed, because I was just about to put my mokapot over fire!!
And now that moment is gone.
The sads I feel my love.
Saturday, 14 March 2020
Wawa
Why on earth would YouTube show me psychic reading ads in videos?
Is it cuz of what I watch which includes absolutely nothing regarding simplemindedness, in which case I shouldn't be getting these ads!!
Is it cuz of what I watch which includes absolutely nothing regarding simplemindedness, in which case I shouldn't be getting these ads!!
Blah
Say one thing about nights say they're not nostalgic.
I can't make out one night from the other and it's been many years since this phenomenon.
Nights are just an indicator now and a passive aggressive deconstructionist.
I can't make out one night from the other and it's been many years since this phenomenon.
Nights are just an indicator now and a passive aggressive deconstructionist.
Friday, 13 March 2020
(6)
Afternoon and the day suddenly slows down into a stick of melting butter and sounding like a broken spaceship stuck on the edge of cosmos before deciding to take a plunge.
Psst
Now trying hard and failing to get rid of certain addictions.
But what of it darling?
Some vices are a certainty
But what of it darling?
Some vices are a certainty
Soft firm
Who me?
Needing to melt into a puddle on my bed and get absorbed to the depths of this absolutely delicious mattress.
Needing to melt into a puddle on my bed and get absorbed to the depths of this absolutely delicious mattress.
Feels
Come to me baby amid this fucking pandemic which is becoming scarier by the day.
What turn will this take I wonder and stay worried until such time as I don't care.
It's a cycle of ignoring and acknowledging.
What turn will this take I wonder and stay worried until such time as I don't care.
It's a cycle of ignoring and acknowledging.
Thursday, 12 March 2020
Looking pwetty
And Sephora continues to keep bombing my accounts with their new range of products recently introduced or holiday packs or promotional offers on makeup and skincare.. pandemic or not because d-uh, makeup!! You know you guys gonna need it after you've coughed out your lungs and died of pneumonia.
Zoop
Darling life,
I asked you for lemons and you gave me lemonade to extract lemons from, only because you know I wanted to make a different sherbet altogether and so you decided to fuck me up.
Such petty revenge.
I asked you for lemons and you gave me lemonade to extract lemons from, only because you know I wanted to make a different sherbet altogether and so you decided to fuck me up.
Such petty revenge.
Wednesday, 11 March 2020
Fine line
You're not a survivor until it's all over.
But when is it really over? How do you survive life that doesn't ultimately end in death?
So you gotta keep surviving until that one day when you just can't, and this a thought most depressing and so I'm going to stop.
But when is it really over? How do you survive life that doesn't ultimately end in death?
So you gotta keep surviving until that one day when you just can't, and this a thought most depressing and so I'm going to stop.
Tuesday, 10 March 2020
Monday, 9 March 2020
Follies
I hate that my tongue is so attuned to tastes even ones indiscernible that I immediately tend to absolute hate or love whatever I eat.
I don't know why the taste of a certain frozen kebab from a company I forget the name of but I'm sure to report tomorrow tasted like soy cardboards even though they were made of mutton is beyond me, but I hate that I didn't like it and I bought a pack of it.
:(
I don't know why the taste of a certain frozen kebab from a company I forget the name of but I'm sure to report tomorrow tasted like soy cardboards even though they were made of mutton is beyond me, but I hate that I didn't like it and I bought a pack of it.
:(
Sunday, 8 March 2020
Whot
Morse codes on my pillowcase
sliced into pieces of passwords
slipped past Amazon jungle
in triplicates
sliced into pieces of passwords
slipped past Amazon jungle
in triplicates
Tick tock
How is it that I'm doing nothing and yet
I'm so busy?
The answer lies in the movement of time in this place. it looks like it's crawling when in fact it's running a marathon.
I'm so busy?
The answer lies in the movement of time in this place. it looks like it's crawling when in fact it's running a marathon.
Saturday, 7 March 2020
Friday, 6 March 2020
Watches
Food Safari is probably my favorite food show on the television.
The hostess Maeve O Mara does such a good job of making every episode unique and non intrusive, asking the right questions, never interfering and always complementing the cook and chef.
It's always refreshing and fun to watch this show.
The hostess Maeve O Mara does such a good job of making every episode unique and non intrusive, asking the right questions, never interfering and always complementing the cook and chef.
It's always refreshing and fun to watch this show.
Swish
I must mention the new swipe mode on keyboard of the updated iOS performs much better than g-board. Must be an iPhone thing as most things usually are but yes the new swipe keyboard option feels luxurious and glossy in that it's absolutely smooth, however I'm still trying to use it more often only because I keep forgetting I have a better option.
Secret
My real skin secret is petroleum jelly.
Daub a small amount on your palms, rub them vigorously and press gently on moisturised face to laminate the goodness of all your skincare and wear a non greasy spf under. This makes life for dry skins like me become reasonably better.
Daub a small amount on your palms, rub them vigorously and press gently on moisturised face to laminate the goodness of all your skincare and wear a non greasy spf under. This makes life for dry skins like me become reasonably better.
Just so
I looked high up and everything was down again. The shouts muddled with squeaking skies shook the bed vigorously when my toes weighed under the caressing carpet of a lover's skin pinned me down, my wanton vacant face most enticing it worked well to suppress a howl of an animal in heat.
Thursday, 5 March 2020
Open feelers
I have belligerent thoughts throwing spotlight like a shining moon on an empty ocean reflecting the ominous and yet true and utterly profound facticity that my family is indeed my world and everything outside of it is tourism.
Message
Well, you can't quarantine my heart because I've already done so, but I've left my soul run amuck to infect you.
in the realm
Who me?
Listening to jazz funk and letting my heart float out in anticipation it finds yours just as perforated and worn out as mine.
Listening to jazz funk and letting my heart float out in anticipation it finds yours just as perforated and worn out as mine.
Wednesday, 4 March 2020
I won’t go
The wind howls a secret SOS signal. It doesn't want to blow west it screams, it'd rather stay here tangled in trees it bleats, a trail end of its tail still stuttering amidst the walls, clinging to curtains it gets pulled away.
Chuck it now
I am always torn between mindless grey cell killing contempt consumption and guilt for not using my time better to do something constructive.
Lucky for me
I have a sack of excuses
but you're not getting a peak
Lucky for me
I have a sack of excuses
but you're not getting a peak
Tuesday, 3 March 2020
New updates
iOS 13.3.1 is probably one of the best updates not that I care so much that it makes me giddy, just a way of mentioning that it makes the phone feel a bit more fun and easy.
come now
And then maybe I should wait
forever
until such time
as you
open your fucking window
and tell me it's a no go
and disappoint me
further
except I'd known it'd happen all along
but I dared to hope
forever
until such time
as you
open your fucking window
and tell me it's a no go
and disappoint me
further
except I'd known it'd happen all along
but I dared to hope